Still running the sub now at 4 loops per day for 5 days, then 2 days off. I ended up dropping rebirth, I wanted to focus on PCC.
It’s been great, probably the best subliminal yet for me. Social anxiety has reduced greatly, I can interact without the initial fear and self doubt I normally experience. I feel my vibe has improved greatly. I notice a few times I’ve made mistakes and normally would feel mortified and internally retreat I’ve been able to display a genuine smile and have a laugh instead.
My wife acts needy and desperate to seek my approval so things have improved in that relationship. Kids don’t seem much different, they are still little aholes most of the time. More people are saying hello and initiating convo with me but I still need work on my social skills. Things are going good though, even my stress level on my watches HRV monitor is going way down, especially in situations like social groups and crowds when it used to spike really high. And what I like is that the changes are happening naturally without any effort or inflated ego (emperor). And I can tell it’s going to continue working because I’m having dreams and I can tell beliefs are changing.
I think growing up as a kid I always felt powerless and dominated by strict parents. Kind of always felt guilty for not living up to their expectations. All the negative experiences could stem from this place of powerlessness and perhaps the sub is changing some beliefs resulting in this reduced anxiety and fear of other people’s opinions of me. It’s going away so I couldn’t be happier. At the end of the day it’s all I really want - peace, tranquility and self acceptance.
Edit: I should also note that the sub has been gentle. Not much reconciliation/resistance. Might have got lucky and found just what I needed to heal.