Oh wow, it’s been a such a long time since I came back and wrote the report… I don’t know where to begin.
Basically, I need to first say that I stopped with the above stack (True Sell, HOM, EOG stage 1), due to my left eardrum injury. I listened to that for a month. I switched the stack for Paragon complete (only Paragon), and I listened to that for a month. Then, I stopped listening to any subs, because I wasn’t sure how long it was going to take my ear to fully heal, and I wanted to switch my stack to other things as soon as my ear fully healed.
The journey of ear healing took a little longer than I hoped. First, I heard (from my search online) that it usually takes about a month to two for ruptured eardrum to fully heal. So around the first and second week I had visited the doctor a few times to get the ear checked. After two weeks, the doctor wanted to see me after 2 weeks. I visited the doctor, so that would have marked a month. My symptoms were almost gone (nearly the same hearing capability, almost no tinnitus, no pain, no feeling of muffled ear, etc.), but apparently it wasn’t fully healed, so the doctor had me come back in a month.
I visited the doctor a month later (2 months mark), but there was another problem. The trouble was that since my ear was very sensitive, the doctor was not able to clean my ear fully when he first saw me. (I nearly fainted during the cleaning process.) He was cleaning my ear (manually instead of using some machine), and cleaned up quite a bit, but the doctor didn’t have a clear sight to my eardrum. Therefore he wasn’t sure whether I was fully healed, and wanted me back in a month, or two. I suspected that I was fully healed at this point as I had no pain, no tinnitus, no pain, and the same hearing capability on both ears.
I planned on visiting the doctor a month later, but by that time, I got cold (transferred from a family member), and I obviously didn’t want to get my ear checked by that time. (Well what would happen if I cough when the doctor is using endoscope in my ear?) I suppose I could have visited the doctor for cold, but I have always had pretty much not good experiences visiting a doctor for cold. (Well, my last visit to ENT doctor for cold resulted in getting a flu… symptoms worsened…)
So I waited another month to visit the doctor, and the doctor checked both ears and confirmed that my eardrum is fully healed. (Finally)
With that out of the way, here’s my new stack.
Inner Gate Ultimate Programmer
Renaissance Man Ultimate Writer X
Khan Black The Crucible
It’s quite different from the previous stack and here’s why. The first two is related to what I am currently studying. (Though the more I study what I do, the more I find that I would prefer to delegate what I study to others and focus on ideas and strategies…) The third one, Crucible, I don’t know, I felt like taking it.
Now with these in my stack, am I doing anything different? Nothing much as I don’t know too much about sexual energy practices and such. No semen retention practices either… I am like doing set and forget, and do what I do method.
Regardless, I have noticed a few interesting things.
- Feeling of energy, or some sort of visualization of energy. At times, I feel like some presence of negative energy (feeling dark or black) around my body, or trying to enter it. It felt more like the energy lingering outside of me. Secondly, I woke my mom from sleep paralysis once. After a while, I sort of felt a dark/black energy lingering on my left arm. (I shook my mom using my left hand).
Another thing I sort of did at times was trying to visualize the sexual energy travelling inside of me. So it would travel from my testicles up to the brain, and then go back down to my balls. After I switched to stage 2 (I’ve done a cycle of stage 1, and then moved to stage 2). now I sort of practiced it to energy going from my testicles to brain, and from brain, it spreads down to the entire body to the entire end.
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Stronger, and more frequent erections. I tend to get more random erections. Also, I noticed that I get stronger and more frequent boners when I wake up. (So morning wood, but my sleep cycle is somewhat messed up that I don’t wake up in the morning.)
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More sexual dreams. In last two days, I have had sexual dreams. Two days ago, I had a dream in which a woman was giving me a titjob. Yesterday, I had a dream in which I was married to some girl, and it was somewhat extensive of a dream (that included many other things other than sexual stuff), which ended up with cuddling, snuggling, making out, and almost leading to sex, but waking up.
The funny thing about the dreams was that both of these girls in the dream were someone I have seen before. If I remember correctly they were probably from some TV shows.
- This is probably the biggest one, and probably the most beneficial one, but I have become extremely more driven, and gets things done much more… For instance, I thought I would want to have my own business started (especially since my internship applications have gone sour, I am thinking about focusing more on that end), I have worked quite a lot on formulating business ideas, and also reflecting back on me. (Trying to more explicitly develop my code, and mission.) I have also been working on course planning with an advisor. Doing all of these while I am taking a difficult course. What I find to be interesting is that even when I spent the entire night and day trying to get an assignment, I pretty much got back to the course (the next material), and finishing up one of the homework several days in advance. So that I can get myself to do other things. (Such as more solidifying my business ideas, and such.) Normally, I would have taken a day or so, but I find that my drive has gone up, and I have been pushing pushing and pushing to get more things. This is quite interesting.
I don’t know how things will go with the current stack, but it’s going in an interesting path. It has remnants of my previous stack (a strong influence), and it seems that it’s been mixed with the current stack, especially the crucible…