17.03.2025
Long break with journaling.
The Herxheimer reaction after my first dosage of colloids was extrem. Two days after I took them, I was hit by a severe cold/Corona whatever.
One week of fever (38,8 at the highest point, above 38 for most of the week). After the fever was gone I was still pretty exhausted for another week. Sometimes just walking up two stairs was enough so I needed to lay down for 15 minutes.
I also heavily detoxed through nose bleeding.
I don’t know who has seen blood from bloodletting. It’s thick, dark, almost slimy. I experienced this through my nose. It looked like when my fiance has her period. Almost like a gel.
During this time I listened to Paragon two times. Once like 19 seconds, 1:34 the second time. But that was a week ago.
Today I’m gonna start listening again.
Another huge discovery I made while scrolling through Insta. There was a reel about ADHD symptoms. And I felt like “Yeah, that describes me pretty much”. At first it felt like a coincidence.
So I did two short free online tests. They said I don’t have ADHD. But they felt so superficial.
In my childhood, the answers would have been completely different, but especially the hyperactivity I had is now more on the inside, plus I have my smartphone to keep me occupied.
But since I watched the whole reel 2 times, Insta now feed me with ADHD content.
And I so recognized myself in all of them.
Of course not in each and every symptom.
But in most of them.
I had a longer chat with ChatGPT and he agreed, that with the list of symptoms I described It’s pretty obvious that I’m struggling with ADHD.
I’m planning to get an appointment with a qualified specialist for a proper diagnosis. It’s only a hard and long way since most psychiatrists and psychologists are still convinced it’s only a child’s illness and vanishes once you’re reaching adulthood.
I watched documentary, done by a young psychologist, on ADHD in Germany and the role social Media plays. The big question was, Is social media a legit source for information or are most people just lead to the unfounded believe that they’re suffering from ADHD?
His staggering result was that actually our system doesn’t acknowledge the severity of ADHD in adults at all. Most universities still teach that it’s a children’s illness. Even ICD 10 described it only as a childhood disease.
So we have next to zero experts on adult ADHD, which makes it hard to find help with waiting times of 3-15 months simply to get diagnosed.
So for now, I plan to understand this whole thing better and how to tackle it.
After some first research, I will probably cut sugar from my life, as much processed food as possible and I’ll add Omega 3. Especially the last one is said to help immensely. Not short term. Sadly. But over the course of 6 month it should show good results in helping to heal the brain and make it function more smoothly.
Sub wise I’m considering running Quantum Limitless 1. Only what to drop?
Not Khan, not EoG1. Leaves only my Custom.
So it probably will be Khan2, EoG1 and QL1 this cycle.
