02.08.2025
Sarurday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 7
RoS 2:16 RoSUS 2:00
As I mentioned above, I’m using two AIs for text production. Erotica to be specific.
Only this time it’s not smut or pornography.
It’s rather a deep reflection on sensuality, on sexual stigma and shedding these layers of trauma built around sexuality.
I’ve wrote 4 chapters and only one erotic scene happened so far. The rest was just building the inner world of the protagonist. The struggle with the self image, with taboo, desire, love.
At the same time I’m still working through my sexual Phantasies. Getting to know them, acknowledging them, understanding them and their origins.
Can this be the doing of Revelation of Spirit?
@SaintSovereign
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04.08.2025
Monday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 3
GB 3:00 EE 4:00
06.08.2025
Wednesday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 9
RoS 5:22 RoS US 3:00
Totally forgot the time while listening.
Let’s see how it plays out.
But I was planning to add a longer loop anyways every cycle or so. If I don’t feel major recon, maybe I’ll add an even longer loop at day 11.
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08.08.2025
Friday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 10
GB 15:00 EE 15:00
Time for full loops. I think I did some before.
I noticed some strange fears creeping in while listening.
The last couple of days were intense. Called 911 again for my mom. Brought her to the hospital the next day. Now we hope they manage to manage her blood pressure.
After all she’s now in a nephrologic wing and the chief physician is specialized on hypertonia.
On the bright side, whenever I drove my mom to a doctor or to the hospital we saw Angel numbers so frequently that it felt like the universe is bullshitting me.
Usually I see a couple of 777,111 or 444 on license plates whenever I’m driving for some time. Seeing 4-5 numbers is average.
But these times, I’ve seen up to 4 plates in a row.
More than 40 in 40 minutes on the road.
When we arrived at the hospital, next to my car was a 666, on the other side of my car as well. Walking to the entrance, there were 777,888,333 next to each other.
This isn’t normal.
Though I still don’t understand the message.
Is this RoS in action?
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I wish the best for your mom, that sounds intense.
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It’s Lion’s gate + full moon.
The veil between worlds is extra thin and everything is magnified
You’re definitely protected and supported.
Welcome to a truly magical reality.
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10.08.2025
Sunday
Cycle 7
Listening Day 11
RoS 8:28
First things first. My mom’s finally a bit better. Let’s see how the next couple of days will unfold.
This night was shit. I felt like I overdosed on KB3 or K4 again. Hot, Cold, Problems falling asleep, woke early, woke up often.
But despite this, I was rather energetic today.
And I don’t know if it was the subs. There’s nothing energetic in my stack. EoG1, EE, RoS.
Might have been a combination of subs, a temperature increase and me worrying about my mom. Perhaps a sub triggered something in this combination.
Some part of me would love to run KB immediately, instead of RoS. To solve this energetic issues. Probably recon. RoS is working in something. I know it.
I somehow managed to forget that I usually only listen to 2 minutes of RoS normal plus ultrasound. I planned to double my listening time today. So four minutes of masked. Instead I doubled my total listening time…
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No recon so far.
Yay.
I’ve watched an interesting video on German New Medicine today.
It delivered a solid explanation for my sweaty night the night before yesternight.
I experienced a severe shock when the doctors couldn’t help my mother at first and feared for her life. (And we all know how such a shock can lead to illness) And the good news on Sunday solved this issue and my body reacted with cold sweats.
A far better explanation than EoG1 or EE working on my sexual energetic system like KB or Khan.
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I haven’t read through all your journal just yet but I am toying with the idea with a love bomb and glm custom
Partly inspired by the one you did with ascension
Might prove to be a brilliant foundational title
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Yes.
I consider Ascension and GLM as two sides of the same medal. One focused on the interior, the other on the outside. Of course there are overlaps.
A part of me want to build a new Version of Ascendet Love once the update drops, another part says, take GLM instead…
We’ll see.
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I don’t know if it’s RoS doing, or EoG1 or something not related to subs.
But these last couple of days my thoughts drift more often towards my future. Something I’ve never considered so intensely before.
I’m questioning everything in my life.
How will it turn out?
What do I really want?
What am I willing to sacrifice?
What do I need to do if I don’t want to sacrifice it?
Am I to comfortable to really take action?
Am I to stressed to really change things?
And @curlygirl has the tendency to notice these unexpressed thoughts, perhaps unconsciously, and… What is it,… at times it feels like rubbing salt in a wound. But it’s good. Unpleasant but necessary.
I’m torn. Having to choose between past and future, origin and telos.
Am I willing to sacrifice our future to take care of my grandmother and mother because I’m stuck without finding a job?
Certainly not!
Am I willing to abandon my family to start my own? That sounds cruel as well.
I need to find a solution to this paradox.
My fiancee often remarks that my family would be lost without me. They are totally overstrained with technology. Phones, Internet, computers…
My mom would be the typical example of believing she deleted the Internet. My uncle on the other hand wouldn’t even be able to do that.
But while they can afford a holiday, we’re usually stuck at home because we don’t have the money for a trip, not to speak of a serious vacation.
Then there’s the house. Estate might be more fitting. Big house, big garden, remodeled barn.
I don’t see us taking care of all of this.
Do I even want to?
But what would be the alternative?
Selling it?
Problematic. At least as long as anyone lives in it. It’s one huge complex and it’s impossible to sell a part, or even rent a part of it.
But I know I need to find a solution.
Before it’s to late.
For me, my fiancee, for our future.
I’ll guess I’ll have to add Singularities Paradox to my upcoming EE custom.
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That’s definitely RoS. I had the same thoughts back then. It’s not easy to deal with.
It has helped me and still helps me to try to accept things that are beyond my control as they are. And on closer reflection, most things are beyond my control.
If my thoughts stray too much into the future or the past, I try to focus on the here and now as quickly as possible. I try to deal with problems in the here and now and not in advance with anxious thoughts. Sometimes I succeed, sometimes less so.
I also had to learn that there are problems that cannot be solved in the moment. They are beyond one’s control, and it does not seem to be the right time to solve them. In retrospect, many such problems resolved themselves, or circumstances arose in which a solution was suddenly possible. It is an art to recognize what one has control over in the moment and what one does not.
In any case, I wish you all much success and, above all, good health.
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Day 3 of washout.
A few minutes ago I felt a deep sadness with a pinch of fear. I couldn’t tell what it was about.
But I decided to just feel it, notice and acknowledge it.
Then I felt a strong pressure in my solar plexus.
Suddenly I had to burp for a minute. Almost painfully.
Then it was over.
No I feel well again.
This burping often appears after doing some deep work, releasing trauma with hypnosis or other techniques. It’s rare with just subliminals.
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Day 4 of washout
The weather is like a freak show.
The complete July it was cold and rainy, most of August as well. And suddenly the temperature increased by 20° C.
We had now 37° C for a couple of days. That’s 100° F.
Everyone is drained.
Me as well.
But despite everything I have the drive to get some things done. @CurlyGirl even asked me today a couple of times where I’m taking the energy from. All she can manage is relaxing in the basement, while I went gathering herbs today for an old tradition in our region, cleaned the kitchen, searched the attic for my elementary school report (it felt like crawling through an oven) and more.
Oh, and yesterday I started solving the issues with my health insurance and tomorrow I have an appointment with my GP to get a transfer to a specialist for an official ADHD diagnosis and potentially medication.
Thinga start to turn in a good direction.
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16.08.2025
Saturday
Cycle 8
Listening Day 1
RoS 2:00 GLM 10sec
Got myself GLM today.
After reading the first half of the features, I realized that GLM is elementary to prepare for the death of grandmother that will happen at a point. Be it in a few weeks or a some years.
And there’s tons of other reasons to run it, but this one is emotionally the most pressing atm.
It means running a 4 stack which isn’t adviced, but that’s why I keep it at nano loop level.
Btw, fetched my mom from hospital yesterday. She’s stable. And she’s finally working on her inner issues. Let’s see how things develop.
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How is your mom?
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At home, better, but the medication makes her tired.
I’m looking for tools to help her heal the inner issues, causing the symptoms so she can drop the medication (working with her doctors).
Perhaps even get her a sub.
Thanks for asking.
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Speaking of health.
Friday was Assumption Day (Catholic holiday), that is usually celebrated with a consecration of a herbal bouquet.
This had as a result that @curlygirl and I researched herbal cigarettes. Today we went and collected some mugwort, milfoil and St. Johns wort.
We had some tried herbs of these as well and I prepared it for our first herbal cigarettes. (50% tobacco, 50 herbs)
They taste much better than pure tobacco.
And they are healthier.
And we safe 1000€ a year if we switch to 100% herbs.
Plus it’s a first step towards dropping smoking completely since there’s no nicotine.
It’s a lot of work, but let’s see if we can make the switch.
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18.08.2025
Monday
Cycle 8
Listening Day 2
GB 3:33 EE 3:33 GLM 10sec
A couple of weeks ago I’ve seen a small announcement that our parish is looking for a new secretary. I thought this might be the ideal starting point. I’m highly qualified for this position, had an internship at a parish in the past and I liked it a lot.
But I procrastinated on applying for it.
Yesterday I finally asked our parish priest if they are still looking. He said they filled the position a while ago.
While this is a pitty, the most interesting observation was that I stayed pretty calm.
In the past, any kind of rejection triggered a deep wound in me. And I carried this pain around for days to weeks.
Now this was the best fitting position I’ve ever applied to and well paid. And I shrugged the rejection of in the matter of an hour.
That’s what I call a HUGE success
Only, was it from the 10 seconds GLM?
Or the 6 month of Khan?
EoG1 Worthyness Recalibration?
I’ll probably never know.
But I can celebrate the development.
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