There’s that cute Pakistani girl at the store. Mentioned before.
She’s been talking to me more. Sorta like bestie level at the moment.
She’s Muslim. And I’ll admit my knowledge of that culture is sparse.
My understanding is that it’s very “The man leads” type thing.
Curious what Emperor Daddy would do in that sort of situation.
Just talking out loud.
So. I ran that stack shortly after posting about it.
Just now, was driving from work to the grocery store and my thoughts did some weird things.
Before now, I’d sometimes considered the idea of leaving the wife to go be single while building my empire and to “find” myself, whatever that means
But I usually shut that down because, in our financial situation, that would mean her being homeless unless our daughter took her in.
I’d for sure be living out of the car.
Basically can’t afford to do that. Etc. that’s been my excuse.
And, to be fair to her, she’s been more intimate lately.
I obviously still think about others in a sexual way.
And in the drive back, I went to usual thoughts of what it might be like to leave and go have some fun with some of them.
The thought that struck me right after is “Maybe the reason you’re so hesitant to make that decision is you know deep down it isn’t the ‘right’ thing to do in accordance with your own values”
Not that I’m 100% clear right now on what those values are. Definitely attributing that to Heartsong for now at least.
I’ve noticed more and more today that my voice is deeper and more resonant.
Had to send a voice clip to someone to confirm it isn’t all in my head. Confirmed.
Last night before bed, I moved on to my next microstack: Khan.
Ran K1, K2, K3 before sleep. Full loops while I read stuff online.
Today, I randomly get a PM from someone I used to talk to a few years ago, we were considering being together. I didn’t make a move fast enough, she moved on. Back then, she’s the one what used to tell me I didn’t need Khan because I AM Khan. She used to call me Khan as my pet name 
Anyway, she PMs me randomly today, for the first time in a few years now (she’s married to a guy who looks like me, different post someday).
She screenshotted an ad for Khan Academy, and jokingly asked if that’s my academy. lol
From nothing (being Friendzoned) to making jokes about that, right after listening to Khan. Excellent timing.
I was at work when that message came in. Decided after that to run it again and see what happens.
But I ran all 4 stages as I processed emails and handled phone calls.
Fast forward to getting off work and getting back to our hotel room.
Wife is here since it’s her day off. She has a glint in her eye.
She says something (I forget what) and I just started kissing her. Like, no asking or anything. She responds in full force, undresses me, throws me on the bed, rides me to the finish.
All of this is very out of character for her (as was the PM from the other one).
After me finishing is where it gets good. She says “OK. My turn”.
Then I brought out my fingering game again.
We kissed heavy during, made out basically. It was deep af connection with all of it.
The really interesting part of all of it? She came from the fingering and kissing in such a way that she ended up hugging me and crying as she came.
30 years, and she never once cried from orgasm. I’m not one for airy/fairy lingo, but this is the closest I think we’ve gotten to what I’d call “Spiritual” sex.
And that’s from just 2 loops of this microstack. Yeah I ran all through Khan before. So this is sort of a refresher I guess.
But. BUT! The finger game results came from other titles before even bringing Khan in.
Basically, I think what I’m doing with these microstacks lately is making all the scripting gel into one cohesive whole at the optimum rate.
I got one more run of Khans to do. I’ll probably do it before bed or at work again tomorrow.
It seems like the more I do these, the faster results are hitting. Reminds me of what Ultima used to do.
This pleases me.
I’ve been working on my own custom WordPress Plugin Repository for a few months now.
Was working on it today.
I ran Emperor Daddy, GLM, and GLMC when starting today’s work.
Well, I was issuing a command in the terminal (AWS instance on the latest Ubuntu LTS version). The command was meant to delete all directories in the directory I was in.
basically sudo rm -r */
but I typed it wrong.
sudo rm -r /*
so yeah, deleted enough directories and files from / (root directory) that the instance won’t even connect any longer haha.
I think that stack I ran is helping me not feel down on myself or pissed at myself for doing that.
Guess this is a good time to start over and try to finally make sense of GIT. It’s always kicked my ass before so I’d give up on it.
No backups, no version control. So all that work is gone. Yayyyyyyy
Forgot what happened yesterday.
Before going to my job at the grocery store yesterday, I ran 5 mins each of Emperor Daddy, Primal Nights, Love Bomb, and ASBR.
Maja (girl at work) seemed to smile and wave at me nearly every time I walked by yesterday.
And that was even with the wife at work too, like 1 or 2 checkout lanes down from hers 
You definitively should give Git another try. It is not so hard. With 3 to 5 commands, you can do almost everything you need to (for daily tasks). Try it in connection with Github it is easy and gives you peace of mind 
Someone eh?!
Programming alchemie 
I started today with a stack of 10 mins each:
I’d had some sort of internal resistance to doing DRR. Maybe “freedom” is scary. Dunno.
Anyway, my main focus (my “one thing”) right now is getting that custom plugin repository working. Hence, IG:UP.
Limitless is obvious for this, boosting cognitive stuff etc.
DRR to help me shed those things which hinder me embracing my freedom.
“Freedom isn’t free”
That phrase is in my head right now. Not in the oft-overused “patriotic” sense. In the sense that focused and relevant action is required.
The amount of “freedom” one has is in direct correlation to how well one “plays the game” And how much value one provides.
I ran my 2nd loop of the stack earlier today.
Feeling more emo than I usually allow to happen.
More contemplative about life, even stuff with my son.
Took me a while to really feel comfortable with the idea of running Dragon Reborn again.
ST1 (back in the day) used to leave me feeling angry. Like unreasonable road-rage style anger.
This is way better than that. wooooo.
More emo in the form of almost being moved to tears from a Cyndi Lauper song. She’s one of my favorite humans, so it isn’t a big stretch.
I didn’t even really cry when my mom died. I tried, since people say it’s “healthy”. I felt sad, yeah. but not weepy.
I’m sure if I keep up with DRR more will happen.
Had a significant breakthrough/progress on my plugin repo project.
IGUP slowly coming through, maybe since I have DRR1 in the stack. But IGUP is indeed coming through.
I find it’s enhancing my ability to ask questions of ChatGPT. Asking better questions to get better answers and better feedback on some of the parts I’m stuck.
Part of my recent motivations lately are to boost my “masculinity” in terms of exercising and strengthening my Will.
So I wanna put Ascension and/or Godlike Masculinity in somewhere. Drop Limitless for one or both? Not sure yet.
Might be worth making a custom of Ascension and GLM so it takes only one ZP sub slot.
Interesting approach to subs how often do you switch stacks? Also doesnt it just scatter your results and mind in many different directions rather than commiting to a particular lane and staying focused on it? Just curious how it works for you
I get at least 3 loops of the titles I’m interested in. That’s enough exposure to get it “in there” for me.
Doesn’t scatter. It seems to contribute to a cohesive “whole” from the scripting gelling together.
Did first loop today of DRR3.
The past few days, I’ve been running only DRR and Godlike Masculinity.
GLM because I wanna really embolden my masculinity and develop my Will.
DRR because rebellion and freedom.
So far, DRR has me thinking a lot about life. Especially on days I work the cart job at the grocery store.
My feet also hurt like a muthafucka. I work that job Thursday thru Saturday nights. Work my main job Sunday thru Wednesdays. No days off for Palpatine for now.
I find that I’m more productive in my actual off hours, since there’s far fewer of them (Parkinson’s Law for the win).
I’m about 1/3 of the way into Juggernaut Academy and the “Magical Minute” from that is nothing short of life-changing.
My feet generally hurt at the end of each of grocery shift, and well into Sunday when at the office job. Less so on Monday.
Pain=weakness leaving the body I guess.
I’m stashing my paychecks from the store job to amass enough to move into a real house (preferably) again. Kinda over multi-unit dwellings, noisy neighbors, etc. I’m up to $602 saved from those checks.
Each week brings in about $350-$360 for the store job. Not a ton, but not bad for 3 days. And it’s only temporary. Rawr.
I just realized I haven’t felt very sexual lately with minor exception
Seems like you might be in more of a busy, focused, determined space right now; not as much in a sensuous, relaxed, luxuriating space.
Man, DRR4 and GLM be kickin well together.
feeling strangely optimistic, focused, powerful.
Like knowing that I have it within me to do stuff. I just gotta embody what Mark Joyner calls “Relaxed Intensity” and slow-burn my way forward.
Juggernaut Academy FTW.
Ran my HoM/HS/EoG4 custom today along with IBV2 (WB/S&SX cores)
I find myself angrier than usual tonight at people who just leave carts wherever the hell they feel like.
On the flip side, I keep thinking about all the women I feel a fondness for.
I realize it isn’t just a sexual attraction I feel for them. I’m finding myself just basking in their femininity (yeah I’ve been reading Deida).
Had a dream last night about Zelda (this was pre-running this stack today though)
Dreamed I came across her working in a convenience store. Was talking to her, catching up, feeling love for her.
I realized at some certain point that she doesn’t actually look like Zelda looks IRL. It was as if it was another person but Zelda’s essence or spirit was inhabiting the body.
Felt more connected to her after waking up. Ugh.