Lots of realizations
Realized that my biggest weakness is gratitude, not discipline. Gratitude will have many ripple effects, and all of them could tie back to discipline, but the issue is gratitude not discipline.
- I notice myself stuck in my own thoughts, so I reach out to friends less, so I feel less connected.
- Less excited for the day, less excited to get out of bed, so lack of gratitude leads to lack of discipline in the morning
- Gratitude leads to resilience from stress, so, any discipline issues there would be less
But beyond the gratitude/discipline relationship, another piece is i have a very cold, calculating vibe. I’m not warm, I’m not inspiring faith and trust in others. I don’t jive extremely well with teams. I kind of go “i’m the top performer get the F out of my way.”
I think ASBR made that a bit worse. On the one hand I was getting a lot of validation and crushing and getting results. But on the other hand, I’m more so impressing my colleagues than connecting with them, and it’s causing harbored resentment.
ASBR only made it SLIGHTLY worse, so, stacking with Chosen or a LB/FH product will likely be enough to overcome that - that’s why I added in Chosen… i thought about LBFH and then remembered how much recon it gave me. a 3 min loop of LBFH gave me more recon that listening to 45 mins straight of DRST4 terminus squared. The objectives in LBFH are truly my biggest weakness.
Right now I’m not loving my current offer so much. I realized yesterday that no matter how much authority and growth opportunities I have here, it’s a mid-level opportunity, and I’d rather be at the bottom rung of the top ladder than the head honcho of a small operation. There’s something I really value about being able to say “I’m connected to xyz celebrity/influencer by being on their sales team.”
Usually those offers are worth more, as well, but the thing I want is the pride of saying I work for XYZ person and having everyone know who that is.
A lot of my vision board photos are successful influencers - and photos of friends of mine who don’t just casually KNOW those people, but are good good friends with them. A friend of mine is very good friends with Stefan James, Mark Manson, and Ben Greenfield. Something in me, maybe reactivated by (i accept in myself now because of…) Stark Black is a desire for those same high-profile connections. As someone put it, I have a craving to connect with the leaders of industry. Too true.
So, LE + Chosen + HOM is a good stack… however, with that, there’s NO new tech, so I’m thinking I might need to run NR instead of HOM. As much as I love HOM… just a bit worried about having no new tech. Especially when saint is saying there’s more wealth healing in NR than EOG1 because that’s how powerful new tech is…