Feeling more tired & unmotivated than usual. It looks like Genesis is doing some deep work in this washout.
I don’t know if it’s going to help me add 3 titles (Genesis + AM + LotS) right off the bat in the next cycle or add LotS for the next one and then AM after one more cycle…
I would add the titles one by one over a period of months. There is no point in cramming multiple subs in your mind at the same time and get mental fatigue from it. When you could take your time and have a pleasant experience with minimal recon.
I agree with ksub. Add the subs one by one.
Another rest day…another (healing) walking experience…
A lot of insecurities & emotions surfacing are the common theme of healing times, especially if you’re dealing with shadows from the past in your town of adoption. It looks like you are catapulted into an early version of yourself, which you thought you were not going to experience anymore. But there’s no harm in that experience & just a healthy release of emotional baggage to let go for good.
Some crazy dreams tonight…
At some point, there was a powerful storm that destroyed a (probably mine) property with broken & torn heavy structures all over the place. It was a tornado or something destructive like that in which my family was involved too.
I don’t remember the other dream/s though.
Again I’m not so motivated to do things like the other days but I’m doing all the action I want no matter what.
Again, I suspect it’s Genesis doing some deep emotional work behind the scenes.
The same is happening to me, I’m not productive nor do I really want to do things like in the first 2 weeks, but I do them anyway and I feel good.
I hadn’t really thought about it, do you think Genesis is working on something inside us that we don’t recognize right now?
@LovingEmperor I’m in the washout days and that’s where, according to many reports of other subs too, you can experience deeper work from every title you run because there’s more processing time. I bet Genesis is working more efficiently on everything which needs a fix for you to manifest every part of the script now that it has all the time to execute.
Also, it could be pre-sults from the next cycle which is going to start in the next week.
I just experienced a crack in the “confidence” shell because I felt so vulnerable that I cannot complete my rest day walking session. However, I managed to do the minimum distance where I’m going outside my comfort zone. One thing that I don’t tolerate anymore is a self-punishment/judgment spree like I usually did in the past when I was not performing as I expected. So since several weeks, I’m not using negative talk to unleash my disappointment toward myself.
Genesis in washout mode is a different beast than in a regular cycle. I’m experiencing a different & deeper kind of recon/healing.
Another 10-hour shift done…
Tonight I had another interesting dream in which I was facing imminent danger (maybe I was followed by someone or something was forcing me to go in that direction).
In that dream, at some point, I was pushed to overcome a slippery & dangerous (valley/canyon kind) path & some bridge toward my chosen destination. At first, it seemed to be the right choice for me but, for some reason, I couldn’t enter that space & so I came back to try again. However, when I was going to finally enter that building, some women told me that it was dangerous & wrong to be there because it was a jail from which you cannot escape. So something prevented me to make the wrong choice & then being trapped there forever.
There’s a pretty deep meaning in that dream because what looks like an inconvenience at first, could save your future life later.
My day at work was good & I was confident in myself, especially towards new clients. In the end, something slightly triggered me, when I was going to exit the gym. Right now my mood is not the best & another healing time started almost 2 hours ago.
What did you interpret from this dream?
@Detective_L I interpreted it as a choice between the socially accepted environment & lifestyle (prison building) vs. something adventurous, mysterious & without any predeterminate path
Last day of this Genesis solo (listening cycle + 5 days washout): done 
Now it’s time for the promised review for this Genesis cycle based on the goals listed on the sales page.
(I definitely appreciate my life way more than before & I prefer the thrill & excitement of the unknown /unexpected/never done before)
(Not a lot of guidance in this sense except for making it clear that money, success & developing a great body are the next steps for me)
(Yes, Yes, Yes! Whenever I was going to do something new, but also something which put me outside my comfort zone I had this strong sense of confidence that everything would be a success)
(The negative societal programming is still there unfortunately)
(My love for myself got better in a more mature & responsible manner with a gentle & kind push to grow every single day into the best version of myself)
(I discovered some financial books, some making money online webinars & potential online mentors but no wealthy & knowledgeable friends)
(Somehow I’m going to work more hours than I envisioned at the gym & so my income for the current month will increase compared to the initial numbers. However, those figures are way very far from the concept of financial prosperity. Also, I manifested a side activity/business model to try in real life in the next weeks & let’s see how will go)
(I received several compliments from clients in the gym & I was able to lead almost everyone I interacted with by leaving a good impression, I guess. Some girls/women seemed to be interested by giving me some attraction signals such as long stares, friendly banter, greetings, and smiles)
(No romantic partners manifested at the moment)
(I surprised myself on many occasions with my courage to do & say things I never do in a long time while pushing myself outside my comfort zone as much as I could)
(The desire for action increased a lot for sure, without the heavy emotional & psychological side of the equation)
(I took a lot of risks in doing something I never did in my life while performing well in my opinion)
(I transmuted a lot of anxiety & heavy emotions into positive energy to do a lot of things with minimal fatigue & even good accepting emotions for myself & others)
(I felt the healing part of Genesis, especially during my washout days where I was able to bring more assertiveness, healthy boundaries, and confidence even though I felt very vulnerable on several occasions)
8/10
Overall this first Genesis cycle was a success & a life-changing experience with a lot of insights in how I behave & perform at my best. I expected even more financial results to be honest with you, but I’m also aware that 26 days are not enough to see drastic changes in income toward financial prosperity. Highly recommended title for sure for everyone who wants to push & challenge him/herself to grow into his/her best version of him/herself.
Now it’s time to expand my journey into the physical shifting territory while enjoying some more Genesis effects along the way.
Today I’m beginning my Genesis + LotS cycle with the plan to add AM in the next one 
Starting body stats taken fasted first thing in the morning after going to the bathroom (according to my scale which isn’t a lot accurate but it’s good to measure trends which is what I’m looking for instead of absolute numbers):
Weight: 70 kg
BodyFat: 8,2%
Water: 60,9%
Muscular Mass: 43,9%
Body Mass Index: 23,3
Basal Metabolic Rate: 1643 kcal
I have also taken body circumferences & whole body & only face photos too. The plan is to update those stats & photos for every cycle done.
On the Genesis front, I expect more push & help to the financial side of things.
Bruh this journal is such a good introspection of the effects of Genesis that I come here to gain a better vocabulary to describe how I’m feeling. Thank you!
Tonight I had some heavy nightmares which I don’t remember but I was up & running on almost 7 hours of sleep (usually I need 8 or even 9 hours).
Yesterday afternoon & evening at the gym I was walking in there like it was my place without any worries & fears of the other people. After the washout the effects were more pronounced I guess. Also, I did 8 hours and a half shift but the time passed by pretty quickly. In fact, I was moving around focused on the task at hand and so present in the moment without unnecessary thoughts.
The clients in the gym are engaging with me more & more because I’m becoming quite familiar with them. I caught several women & men too staring at me when I wasn’t watching them and they looked like in a trance-like state it seems to me.
This morning I feel a little bit tired but I feel my forearm muscles a little bit harder than usual.
Feeling more tired than usual & my motivation to do things is down as well. Long hours at work plus the introduction of LotS are the probable causes. However, my body is relaxed and so the relaxation scripting in LotS is working fine. Let’s see when the first signs of physical shifting are going to manifest.
Another day…another rough night on the way…
Yesterday when I started my work shift something triggered me so bad that I was kind of shocked/surprised/upset for being so sensitive in that moment. So a lot of heavy emotions came up all at once but, fortunately, I told myself that I shouldn’t unleash that bad mood onto the clients. Then during the following hour, everything slowly subsided & I was able to manage a rushed schedule without so much stress. After that, I clarified things with another colleague and everything improved during the evening/early night.
I’m glad I fixed a stressful situation more maturely than in the past, if compared to similar triggering situations.
However, when I went to sleep I wasn’t as serene in my mind as the previous days & had a bad nightmare in the first part of my sleep time. I think it’s my way to react to the introduction of LotS which triggered several unpleasant things. Usually, it’s the first week the most challenging one. Afterward, I start to reap all the good experiences & results from every title if I think about my SubC cycles so far.
This morning when I looked at my body in the mirror I saw some little improvement in my overall torso appearance.
Genesis with LotS is a pretty interesting combination so far.
The body relaxation is definitely there & it’s lowering considerably my stress levels during my working shifts.
During yesterday’s workout, I was able to focus more on the proper execution of the movements & feel more mind-muscle connection.
This morning, when I looked in the mirror my torso was clearly more defined than the previous days even though I slept fewer hours than usual.
So I feel sleepy today but, at the same time, I had all the energy required to not be exhausted by long hours at work.
I can be more social whenever I want because approaching clients it’s not a problem, except when their body language is really closed & they’re listening to music with headphones or air pods. Clients are calling me more by my real name & if they don’t know mine, they are glad to ask. Also, they are thanking me more for the assistance, tips & tricks I share with them & the fact that I’m quite friendly with them.
Slept better tonight with a proper amount of hours. I’m listening to my loops right now and Genesis is flooding gently my system with calm & relaxation.
Yesterday I spent some time with my little nieces & it was a nicer & uplifting situation than the other past times, filled with lightness & laughter.
In other news, I felt drawn to change my workout style towards something way more effective for the time spent in the gym, something that I used several months ago in my home gym.
During the night I made some small profits in my trading account.