I’m pretty sure that this applies to me as well.
Just putting it here as a reminder.
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Contemplate the experiential anatomy of a Breakthrough.
Determine to learn
Be a warrior of learning
And everything that happens to you will have value
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Why are you focusing on ultrasonic instead of masked?
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Just a private experiment.
Some improvement in listener responses was observed between the original mask and the Solace mask, right? I thought about why that might be. Well, the ‘audio profile’ of the newer Solace mask is gentler and more spacious. The dynamics (louds and softs) vary more.
It occurred to me that if we combine ultrasonics with other tracks, we have an almost infinite variety of available experiences.
I meditate 5 times out of 10 with the music of Steve Roach. Through trial and error I’ve found that his music is powerful, evocative, and usually supportive of a deeper meditation.
So, I decided to try a little experiment of playing ultrasonic (at a controlled volume) while I play Steve Roach in another app. The 1st or 2nd time that I did it, I found a much heightened response and obvious processing of the sub. So I decided to keep trying it for the rest of the listening period.
The response was not as heightened for my ZP tracks so I’ll probably mainly do this with just my Qv2 track. (I also do not have the Qv2 tracks with Solace masking so that makes this even more appealing.)
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An interesting development:
I’m feeling pulled to read novels again.
Back in 2020 when I started playing a very heavy, dense stack, there was this mental sensation as if my bandwidth was fully used up. I lost interest in fiction. And in podcasts. Still not into podcasts now. But I’m finding myself pulled to fiction.
It started with a light funny one. The Sidekicks Initiative. Mentioned it up above about 2 weeks back.
Then this past week, in between working, I read Neal Stephenson and Nicole Galland’s The Rise and Fall of D.O.D.O.
Finished that yesterday or the day before, and then felt a bit empty and wanted to read another.
So, it’s kind of continuing.
Interesting.
Finding myself exploring cults and the psychology of being influenced by cults.
An interesting direction for my manifestation to go. I like the idea that the “spiritual” resources my mind would attract would be about cult behavior and the dynamics of unhealthy conformity.
Is this Dragon Reborn? Who knows.
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Got to maintain my current job and workload, but also work on my pathway to a better life.
Pile of work on desk right now. A little overwhelming.
But I bet it’ll be gone by next week.
Do not let pain be the standard of your life’s currency.
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Learn to see.
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Today, I opted to do an afternoon rather than an early morning meditation hour.
3:10 pm to 4:10 pm. Dragon Reborn (ultrasonic). again with the music of Steve Roach.
It’s 4:50 pm now, and I’m feeling relatively settled and calm.
I’m planning to stay with Dragon Blood for this play period and again for the next. Once every 4 days. After that, Dragon Flight. That will likely be February 11.
Morning meditation: 6:25 am to 7:25 am
Relatively comfortable compared to yesterday (when I experienced tightness and discomfort in ankles and legs). Was aware of not going beyond a certain degree of relaxedness.
Considered the ever-presence of all levels of mind.
Always. Right. Here.
When it comes to anything about your nature that is different from the socially conventional and valued norms, you need to be really clear about it in order to contend with the gravitational pull of social conformity.
There’s also a big chance that those areas of your life will need to be blasted with much MORE healing, not less. And this is ironic because those different or divergent areas are the precise ones that we’re most likely to neglect and hide away, out of shame. So, if we’re not wise and careful, we may end up giving them the exact opposite of what they actually need.
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A Crazy Thing About Life
You can be five steps away from the things that will solve your problems,
and feel no hope at all.
If you’re not aware of it, to you it may feel like it’s 10-million miles away.
It’s never that far away. Do not give up!
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Another related crazy life thing
If you’re lost and searching for long enough, you can actually get to the point where progress, itself, becomes a trigger for you to feel discouraged.
At that point, you can’t tell progress from fruitless wandering.
So you make a few more steps of progress and what your mind says is, “ this far!! I’ve come this far and I’m still not there yet! Maybe I’ll never get there!“
Every single step of progress is carrying you deeper, and closer, and more powerfully towards your goal.
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@SaintSovereign I am thinking that I may respond well to 3 loops of ZP. I’m planning to try 3 loops with MOGUL ZP tomorrow. Up to now, I’ve been staying with 1 or 2.
Ive had identical thoughts. I’ve felt that gravitational pull for most of my life. But when I was younger it manifested as this feeling that I was doing something wrong. So important to have strength in who you are so you don’t sacrifice those parts.
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Sink into, not flee from
Start from this, from here
The right way to get more treasure is to value and use the treasure you already have
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Meditation today: ~9:30 to 10:30 am. Straight no chaser.
These days I’m just using music as an assistive prop every 4 days when I play Dragon Blood Qv2.
Today’s was instructive. Rather than being oriented to whatever altered or alternate state that might arise, I turned towards and leaned into exactly what was present. (I know that doing so can definitely give rise to altered states. But I was letting go of caring either way.) Letting go of any orientation towards time dilation. Let every moment of subjective time be what it is, and focus on embracing it and (dare I say?) even luxuriating in it somewhat.
Then showered.
Now moving on.
It’s a MOGUL ZP day. And a busy work day.
11:18 am. Let’s get into it.
(Yesterday was angst-esque. Didn’t journal about it much. Feels like Dragon Reborn is driving the processing of feelings, memories, and experiences. Went through a valley. Felt very discouraged. Then later climbed a peak and saw some sunlight through the clouds.
It was a day.
And now time for this one.)
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Just played today’s loops.
Today I did the experiment of playing 3 loops of Mogul ZP rather than 2. Played them back-to-back.
Now, it’s about 20 minutes since the last loop ended. I feel a pleasurably stimulated after-effect. This is encouraging because previously I did not feel anything. (I know that the stimulation sensations are not the point, but they are still potentially relevant data.)
So, that’s it. Now, I’ll continue to go through these two quite busy work days.
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