Nova Elite: Kether to Malkuth

I played that Steven Forrest Youtube interview the same night that you shared it. Thank you! I fell asleep to it, and that was actually the same night after which I woke up with my subliminal playing.

I find Forrest’s approach and perspective very, very compelling.

I’m noticing places where I have been unintentionally oppressing my son.

One of his placements disposes him to learn to contend and express will through communication and ideas; through debate.

I’m okay with a good debate but I don’t have the same motivation to debate just for the sake of developing that muscle. So, I’ll disparage his motivation sometimes. ‘Why are you arguing about this point? Just for its own sake?’ The astrological framework gives me a lot of pointers and reminders for being more facilitative and less judgmental. (Which is very interesting given that one of the modules in my flagship subliminal is Dynasty: “helping other family members find themselves in life.”

I believe that our own intuition and self-knowledge practices will ultimately guide us to the insights of our birthchart, but it’s possible that this resource (i.e., astrology) can make the process more efficient and help us to hold down some particularly slippery, elusive, and hard-to-define issues.

I just got another very useful one. I’d known it, but it tended to be buried in the midst of other insights.

In a nutshell, I could see that the dimension of work and vocation that is 1) centrally important to me and 2) often sacrificed, is Imagination. I know that I need a creative job, and my primary work temperament is Artistic, but this clarified things a great deal. The label Imagination/Fantasy/Consciousness-oriented is more useful to me than Artistic, because it’s more specific and also I’m not an actual artist.

Finally,. the evolutionary paradigm seems extremely useful for organizing one’s approach to subliminals.

Gradually a picture emerges of something that might be called ‘one’s best version’. I have a certain developing sense of that, and of the places where things really went awry. Social norms and conventions are a kind of confounding factor that can get in the way of identifying and appreciating your actual potential. As a result, it’s easy to end up pursuing goals that are ill-fitting and ill-chosen. Then one either curses oneself for failing to realize those ill-fitting goals and standards, or, possibly even worse, one actually achieves the goal by unwittingly sacrificing one’s genuine potential and is then confused and troubled by the sense of emptiness that comes along with the so-called success.

Bottom-line: processing a bunch of astrology at the moment.

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In the past few days, I was experiencing depressive sensations.

Today less so. They’re still there, but decreased.

I label this as Processing.

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My anger is my own. It’s in my body.

Don’t blame it on other people.

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The irony of discouragement and of pessimistic expectations is that they actually worsen your performance.

You wanted a perfect 100. The reality is that if you gave it your all you could’ve gotten an 85. But now that you are discouraged, you end up performing down to the level of 40.

Especially if you’re not perfect, discouragement is a luxury that you cannot afford.

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Man, these pictures deserve to be in a book.

TRUTH!

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In the past 2 months, there has been a lot more rain and storming in the region. It’s normal for this time of year, but, particularly after a realized that I could get my 10000 steps inside of the apartment (and read while doing it), I had about a month in which, more often than not, I walked inside.

Now, it’s true that there are health benefits associated with getting 8000+ steps per day no matter where those steps are taken,

BUT!!!

There are major benefits of walking outside that just are not there as strongly with walking inside. And this seems to have had important ramifications for processing subliminals.

From June 2020 to May 2021 (or so), I walked outside most days. And about 1 to 1.5 miles of the walk is up a respectably steep hill. I walk up to a place that could be called ‘the top’. (It’s really more of a top than it is the top.) Then I turn around and come home.

Pretty much about 100% of the times when I take that walk, I return home and think, ‘That was medicine’. Feelings, thoughts, and sensations get processed. And I feel that some important healing has happened.

In May 2021, I started my new stack. I was in the middle of a very busy work period, and I also attended a 5 day workshop. All at the same time. That busyness extended until the end of May/early June. And it was stormy and rainy. So, it was natural for me to walk outside less.

Here’s the interesting part. For the last week or two of June, I found myself processing difficult realities in my life and having some depressive sensations. Heavy limbs. Tired in morning. Pushing past or pushing through heaviness in order to move. I described it a bit above. It wasn’t overwhelming. But it has been significant.

Fear, which is an important energy for me, also seeped out and laid on me a bit. Fear is secreted by our own system. And then we pretend that it’s about some external object. Like the way tinted glasses work. I could feel the atmosphere of fear laying on me. There was a pull to look at scary things to kind of ‘confirm’ the physical process that was already in my body.

Two days ago, I walked outside again, and it was like it was physically clearing that accumulated energy. I could feel the load decrease. It didn’t clear completely the way it often does when I’ve been going every day, but I felt the atmosphere dissipating. So, interesting. Then last night I went again, and the effect extended.

In contrast to walking inside, when I walk outside my heartrate increases, I breathe hard, I sweat a lot. There’s more (satisfying) effort involved. I think that is a big part of what makes the difference. It’s also true that as a person with withdrawing and isolationist tendencies, going outside shakes up my inertia and gives me a little reality-check.

It’s amazing to see what a difference it makes.

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I think that my current stack is activating my insecurities and my areas of doubt. I keep processing them. Much more than I normally might.

Maybe it’s Pride Unbroken and FEBRUUS.

My dysfunctional coping strategy of choice is numbing and avoidance.

Engaging a healing program is, sooner or later, going to challenge your dysfunctional habits. The issues that you like to tell yourself you had already ‘dealt with’ are going to seem to ‘reappear’ or ‘get worse’.

The fact is they were still there the whole time. Now there may be a chance to work through them more effectively. Hopefully.

Can fully confirm this.

Walking outside helps 10x better with processing. I guess it’s the fresh air.

Glad it works for you.

I like this journal a lot :muscle:

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I will note here that in yesterday morning’s meditation, I found that my attention wandered freely at certain points and I experienced sensations/views of particular locations. It was a bit vague, but it occurred to me, as I reflected on it later, that this could be the first stirrings of developments from Astral Projection and Remote Viewing.

I’m keeping those modules strictly for fun, appreciation, and enjoyment. Not homework. I’ll continue to meditate and, for now, allow those capacities to freely and organically develop as they will.

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Am now getting used to this Monday, Thursday listening schedule. Tomorrow is week 5.

Seems to be proceeding okay.

Alot of things that look and feel like losing are not actually that simple. But it’s very hard to see this unless you get what you (think you) want or at least come close to getting it.

What have you considered using?

Hi @RVconsultant, I’m referring to the modules in my current custom: Pride Unbroken, FEBRUUS. Faith Unyielding. I think that Avatar might also contribute to healing/Inner growth effects.

Whatever it is, I’ve felt it pretty strongly.

In my case, FEBRUUS has a lot of work to do.

Life is not a contest

Life is a poem

Make yours beautiful

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If life were a contest then it would end differently for different people, depending on how well they had performed

But it doesn’t

It always ends exactly the same, no matter what came before

With an Exhale

Release oppression, whether external or internal in origin, and strive to honor every inhale and exhale, up to the last

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This looks like gentle healing.

What are your thoughts on I AM or DR or Elixir or Rebirth?

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The last two weeks haven’t felt gentle at all. Depression (low-level), fear, and constantly processing my actual and perceived mistakes and limitations. When I started returning to my daily 90 minutes of vigorous hiking, things started to improve.

I’m planning to run DR in the future when I feel that I’ve plateaued. In the meantime, I’m very motivated to stick with what I’ve got.

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As is usual on my subliminal play day, I started with a Terminus meditation. Felt good, though I was a bit sleepy (and still am now).

Two online meetings to start the day. I played the masked tracks (in a channel that only I would hear). That seems to have proceeded quite smoothly.

Now I’m playing my 2nd and last loop of the 2nd custom.

In other words, the playlist so far today:

PATHS Terminus (meditation)
PATHS Standard Qv2
NAISSANCE Standard Qv2
PATHS Standard Qv2
NAISSANCE Standard Qv2

I chose this order of the playlist today. Afterwards, (possibly after a short break) I’ll play Jet Stream B Ultima.

Tonight at bedtime or possibly before, I’ll use Paragon Complete.

And the beat goes on…