The difficulties and limitations that you face in life do not represent your weaknesses. Such is the thinking of the unwise.
The difficulties you face represent the challenge and the potential of your evolutionary path.
You are here precisely to face them. The outlines of their silhouettes limn the shape of your purpose.
(Jumping into my cynicism bag for a minute here)
Definition
Attractiveness: The capacity to inspire someone to pretend that they like you for a while.
got to learn how to see a whole circle.
otherwise, societyās biases and cultural standards will be mindlessly translated (by you) into self-derision and self-rejection.
All of subjective experience, of so-called Reality, is a virtual avatarācontinuously generatedāof
I am feeling called this morning to honor three women who have been my Mentors.
Each an intellectual giant. Each of whom, in her own way, left a significant mark and an influence on the course and trajectory of my life such that, had I not encountered her, the result would have been something very different.
the late Carol Pulley McCormack - Professor of Cultural Anthropology and Medical Anthropology
You, who upon taking the time to seriously read the rough reflections of an earnest and unformed 17-year-old, observed to me: āyou are a mysticā and changed the course of all that came afterwards. That simple sentence so generously offered from you became a touchstone, a talisman, and a reminder that Iāve carried with me in the decades since. It helped me to remember who I am.
From your obituary:
She enjoyed doing fieldwork as a periodic dose of humility, often feeling
that villagers regarded her with good humor as a promising child. Try
as she might, she could not knot a fish trap that would successfully trap
fish, nor keep a head load balanced long enough to carry it anywhere.
But out of the fun of trying to understand many things, both material
and spiritual, she often felt at one with people in many places: in a
womenās secret society in Sierra Leone, in a Buddhist monastery in
Burma, or among Jamaican market women. And she was quick to
recognize the vibrant spirituality of people in diverse religious systems.
Huang Shizhe - Professor of Linguistics and of Chinese Language
Kindness, compassion, vitality, fun, and intellectual rigor, pride, and professionalism can co-exist within the same person; in harmony and with no conflict. You are an admired role model and a motivating encouragement of what is possible.
Mary Deschene - Professor of Cultural Anthropology specializing in South Asia and especially the Nepal region
You modeled, and continue to model, intellectual sophistication and grounded political responsibility. Your intrepid spirit. You traveled by bicycle for somewhere between 500 and 1000 miles or more. Most selfishly and importantly for me, you introduced me to the work of Gregory Bateson which changed my life; and because of you I followed the course that eventually led to meeting my wife, and to many other adventures as well.
Respect and gratitude.
I donāt know how long it will take for my stack to show major results. Iām choosing to just let that be okay.
Most people want to be around someone who makes it easier for them to be themselves/be the way they want to be.
12:45 pm. Havenāt even meditated yet.
First day in weeks that Iāve truly gotten enough sleep. (Had commitments that required me to wake up early. And family members with different schedules whose movements might wake me up at 3:30 or 4 AM unless I was truly exhausted. Iāve usually been a pretty light sleeper throughout life. And am also a āthinkyā kind of person who doesnāt fall asleep very easily.)
But today, got up at 6:45 AM and then decided to try to get more sleep. Woke up at 10:40 AM or so. And could feel that Iād had enough sleep. But also felt that kind of physically depressed feeling. Low will to get up. Iāve had enough ups-and-downs in the past to be grateful that it was primarily physical, and not an intense emotional feeling of despair or overwhelming emptiness.
Energy levels and focus levels.
As far as subliminals, Iāve been sticking to a Monday/Thursday play schedule. 2 Customs + 2 Boosters. 2 loops each, usually.
On Thursday, I didnāt play Paragon. Time didnāt line up right. And I ended up deciding not to do overnight play. Feels right to my intuition.
Lately Iāve been reading through this book:
I felt pulled to it. Iād read pages here and there in the past, but this time I decided to read the whole thing cover to cover.
Iām about halfway through. A great many insights.
This definitely feels like the work of Alchemist. Guiding me to read it.
Think of the next year with gratitude
Realize that things are, on the whole, getting better and better
Trust yourself. Trust the process.
So true. This is the basis of friendship. And a bit of this for lovers too.
Use your spirituality to compensate for the deficits and lacks of society.
Society is, at times, a one-size-fits-all shop.
Spirituality is the tailor who alters the clothing so that it fits you properly.
Honor what you are and what youāve been given; whether or not society does the same.
The perceptual orientations and ontological configurations represented in your astrological birth chart are the Cosmosā priceless gift to you.
Recognize them as such and steward them.
Been diving into this recently with the help of @friday
Ever since I aligned myself with that life just works out better and I feel a lot better.
On the path.
Highly recommended.
I think itās important to see the gift and evolutionary promise in every single position and placement.
Some may say that the Summer is best. Otherās say itās the Winter.
Ideally we can see the potential value in each phase and each moment.
Not saying that itās easy (or even, necessarily, attainable), but itās my ideal.
Thatās what the circle means to me right now.
The intention to recognize and honor the complete phenomenonāa complete cycle, not just one portion of it. The whole journey.
Iām still definitely in a Working Phase.
Physically prone to tiredness and low energy; emotionally and mentally, prone to depression and self-doubt (not self-donut).
Iāve just found myself pulled to closely read through that entire book on astrology by a really great teacher Steven Forrest. Iāve completed 9 chapters and have 3 more to go. Also, when I really want to read something closely, I read it aloud as I walk/pace. I record it with my voice recorder app. Itās just the way my mind has always worked a bit better. (First discovered this when I was about 19 or 20 years old. My thinking (certain types of my thinking) works best when thereās that combination of auditory expression and ambulatory, kinesthetic stimulation.)
Anyway, I think that the mood and energetic aspects may be a feature not a bug. I think that I may be feeling this way precisely because of the work thatās happening inside of me right now. It needs to be managed, however. Useful processes are happening, but I can still burnout.
This is my sense of it.
My last listening day was Thursday, and my next scheduled one is tomorrow, Monday. For now, Iām planning to stick with my scheduled day. I trust my mind to let me know if thereās a problem with that. Itād make it hard for me to listen in some way. So weāll see.
Started today with a 6:39 am to 7:39 am PATHS Terminus meditation. Laying down for a bit (giving it some space to process) and later Iāll start my loops for the day.
Some sort of interesting dream last night. I was with a group of people preparing to be filmed in a movie.
At some point, I must had the thought that Iām not an actor, so the dream revised the scenario to make it an audition.
Iād never actually watched the movie Limitless before.
Today, I watched about the first 45 minutes of it.
Why did you stop there?
I think itās a great movie if you watch it with the premise that he doesnāt access to his ābrainā via the drug, but to his subconscious. I think, anyone on SC would enjoy the movie like that 
I had some other things to do. haha.
I think the main character would have supported my decision to stop and watch the rest of it later.
Itās not a need, itās a want
itās not a defeat, itās a challenge
If youāre experiencing gratitude, you havenāt lost.