Iām definitely in a periodic Doubt Phase right now. As Iāve mentioned theyāre a feature.
So I am taking my own thoughts with a grain of salt.
A great Buddhist master was once asked by an eager student what special powers he had attained up on achieving enlightenment.
His reply: āThe power to not believe in my own thoughts.ā
For now Iāll take my cue from that guy.
To me, doubt is, primarily, the cognitive manifestation of a low energy state;
Optimism and the perception of possibility are, in turn, the cognitive/attitudinal correlates of states of high energy.
At this moment, I have poured and invested a considerable amount of my available energy into the thought forms of my desired realities and dreams, represented by subliminals, intentions, magical workings, and prayers.
Now, rather than pushing forward in desperation, it is time to trust the process, and also to allow the energy of my system to gradually gather and reaccumulate.
Meditation is developing your ability to accommodate more reality.
expanding, extending, consolidating the capacity of attention and awareness
Monday was my first subliminal day for the week. And now Thursday is my second.
This will be the cycle.
Meditated a little while ago with NAISSANCE Terminus.
Now, Iām on my first loop of Naissance Standard Qv2.
Getting a bunch of messages.
Like:
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Eschew goals in meditation practice, instead just appreciate the experience of Consciousness. Like standing next to the Grand Canyon.
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When you experience doubt or low energy, be grateful. Your being is drawing energy away from the edges and back to the center in preparation for a new surge of growth.
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Trust the process. Lust for Results can also express itself in the form of an obsession with (the thought of) action-taking.
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Respect and love the mind. It is arranging things to develop beautifully.
There is a lot to be learned from trees.
You can see the cycle of Energy movement, of ę°£.
Wherever energy is actively moving, you will see life. This is not because energy brings life, itās because Energy is life.
If you live in a place with the āfourā seasons, watch the energy cycle of trees.
In the Summer, the trees energy is radiant and extended. You can see life extending from all of the branches.
In the Autumn, the energy begins to withdraw. If you are only watching the surface, it would seem to be dying. The growth on the branches dries up, loses its color, hardens, curls up, and falls to the ground. In fact, the energy of the tree is being reclaimed to the center, to the core.
In the cold of Winter, there is no life visible on the surface of the tree. Yet, if we visit the core, we will find potent energy flows, gestating within. The tree is wise and balanced with its energy. Winter is not the time for extension and radiation. It is the time for calm outward acquiescence and vigorous inward cultivation. The sun is farther away, and so its own energy reserves must be nursed and properly guided to support the inner foundations.
As the sun grows closer again with the coming of Spring, the tree begins to reach outward and allow the energy to extend again. Wherever that energy moves, we will see the evidence of life emerging. Leaves, new branches, flower buds.
And the cycle of radiating life-energy outward and drawing it inward to nourish the roots continues.
What better teacher could we ask for?
experiential learning
phenomenological enquiry
phenomenological framing and process
The apprehension of accurate knowledge is not a prerequisite for achieving wellbeing in life. If anything itās at most a valid context for building wellbeing.
Most people in the history of people have probably been inaccurate about most of the things that weāve taken to be the case. And yet, despite this likely fact, there appear to have been, throughout this whole human condition, people who were experiencing greater or lesser levels of wellbeing.
If gaining accurate conceptual knowledge (i.e., answering, objectively, the important questions) is not the prerequisite for contentment in life, then what is?
I would say itās this:
Getting the ratios right (either on purpose or by accident) of comfort to discomfort. The naĆÆve assume that more comfort equals more contentment. But we are creatures of habituation. If a particular, status, condition, or phenomenon lasts for long enough, we simply cease to register it. It gets filed into the mindās āNot Specialā box and we begin to ignore it or, even, to be annoyed and irritated by it.
On the other hand, if the exact same condition or phenomenon changes periodically, goes away periodically, or transforms, we respond to it as somehow more ārealā.
When the ratios happen to be in the sweet spot, whether by luck or by wise and deliberate intention, life looks and feels fresh and satisfying.
Too much discomfort and we become fearful and oppressed. Too much comfort and we become bored, arrogant, and depressed.
The Yi Jing is my OG.
Most of the time, when I consult the åØę, I receive a highly relevant response. Sometimes itās almost humorously relevant. Every so often, thereāll be something that utterly (EDIT:) mystifies me.
Anyway, Heartsong is a program that is highly in line with my lifestyle and my nature, but Iām busy now and my priorities are solid. So, itāll be in the queue for now.
I believe that one of the first and only programs I requested here on the forum may have basically been this.
After I read the description, I consulted the Yi Jing about buying it and starting to work with it. I tend to type or write my Yi Jing responses in a journal. Hereās the response:
The response that I got when I asked about waiting is é. It is literally translated as WAITING.
haha. Amazing Yi Jing.
@Malkuth how are your results with using multiple customs? I like my current custom but miss the fitness ones I was listening to. Iāve been toying with the idea of putting a 10 module fitness custom together, but donāt want to diminish the results from my Stark custom.
After the subliminal break you just had did you notice a boost in results?
Do you think adding in a fitness custom would lessen the results from my wealth custom?
My fitness title is on hold now too.
Iāve still got Paragon Complete though. In the future Iāll integrate Paragon into a custom that has Fitness components.
Itās very early days for me, I think. Iām into my 2nd month of 2 Customs +2 Boosters.
Most of my action is around Naissance, my Inner Resources Custom. I can feel that and Iād say that half of the posts Iāve typed above are the result of Naissance.
My Wealth custom, Iām being patient with. Iāve got picky personal standards about money making, so it takes a bit more work to get it sorted out.
More titles equals slower results. Youāll still get results though. Iād say that if Fitness and wealth both feel like very integral parts of your lifestyle then it may be worth it to run them concurrently. In that case, you might not even notice or mind slightly slower results, because youāll just be focused on living and enjoying your life. When you really like whatās coming to you, 2-3 additional months wonāt seem like much.
But if youāre really focused on wealth and want to utterly maximize this period of time (maybe itās an opportune time for action-taking) then run the Stark custom alone until your busy season passes. You can always use the Beast Ultima for a quick workout booster.
Forgive any typos, Iām just dashing this off.
Hey, just wanted to drop by and tell you that your posts are inspiring, not just on this journal, but all over 
Thanks 
Still getting used to this play schedule. Mondays, Thursdays only. Kept forgetting and remembering every 10 minutes that I was not listening today.
Come to think of it, the way it forces me to adapt and to approach my listening with fresh eyes is a good sign in and of itself.
I like it.
One of my big dreams: To Work from Passion and Purpose and to become Wealthy doing it (and for that work to support and be in harmony with an overall lifestyle that I love).
Sometimes I get so focused on the Big Changes that I have to beware of ignoring and not appreciating the day-to-day changes that contribute to them.
So I need to acknowledge a result from last week Friday.
My current plan has two aspects. The short- to mid-term goal is to increase how much I do a certain type of work that is possible in my field. The mid- to long-term goal is to start my business that contributes to people in a different but related way.
In the end, Iād like the first part to account for 20-25% of my work, and the business(es) to account for 70% or so.
Well, last Friday, without having done any advertising, marketing, or publicity work, I got a WhatsApp. Someone was telling me that theyād referred someone to me to do the kind of work of my short- to mid-term goal. They asked what my preferred contact method was and I gave it to them. A potential client then contacted me and weāve arranged to talk later.
That, @Malkuth, is a result.
I want to acknowledge it. And to express my appreciation.
I am finding my mind developing, and easing into, new understandings of consciousness and phenomenology of experience.
I want to acknowledge that these are results.
In the process of white-knuckling my way to my current stack (and doing some other long-term growth related projects), I got into laser-focused, blinders-on mode. I ignored a lot of emails and only dealt with things that seemed essential. Now, Iām going back to clean up the accumulated piles of stuff.
Itās also estimated to peak at 11 billion before it surges way down.
Monday. One of my two subliminal days.
Todayās play situation got off to an odd start.
Usual meditation routine was thrown off somewhat. Fell asleep too late and by the time it felt right to get up, I was involved in household waking up routines.
Then had my two scheduled morning meetings. Thought that my subliminal was playing on Ultrasonic (for my ears only). Checked after meetings were done. Nope.
Did my meditation hour, with PATHS Terminus, instead of lunch. Sleep-deprived and uncomfortable.
After that, finally started my normally scheduled subliminals routine.
On the surface, that probably sounds like not a great morning. But it was pretty cool. Iām grateful that my day could accommodate a meditation hour at a different time. And as far as not playing the subliminal earlier, I have a feeling my subconscious had something to do with that. Itās the house DJ for all of my subliminal play. Occasionally, it steps in with an executive decision and arranges things in a certain way.
All in all, seem to be basically on schedule.
Now time to get more work done.
on a completely unrelated note:
What happened to @d1gz? You good man?