How much reality do you want?
When you see a body, will you include, in your vision, the bones, the blood, the shit, the nerves, the fat, the organs?
Or do you prefer to focus on the skin and the general shape?
Both views have their merits and enable different options and experiences.
But if youāre allowing yourself to see whatās underneath, then donāt judge yourself and your experiences by the standards of those who emphasize the surfaces.
As usual, I feel that gratitude is a (subtle) physical orientation. Like learning to stand in the flow of a riverās current.
Internal and External conditions can often seem to work to push us into a default position: reactive, curled up and flinching. Venturing little and distracted by vigilant waiting for the next blow to strike.
I think what people often overlook about gratitude is that it represents a radical grasping of power over the narrative. Gratitude is a power move.
In a worldāand with a mindāin which it is so easy and effortless (and legitimate) to focus on gripes and dissatisfactions. To pre-emptively hide within negative perspectives before we can be shocked again by externally-imposed negative force.
To me, gratitude looks those mental and social/cultural forces straight in the face and says, āFuck that and fuck youā. āYouāre going to have to fight meāevery timeāfor every inch of wellbeing that you take from me.ā āAnd even in the times when you win for a while, youāre going to have to respect me because Iāll never be your slave.ā
What can I say? I like that.
Get discouraged after youāre dead
Thereās plenty of time then; (itās even somewhat appropriate)
While youāre alive, keep going. Keep going.
You canāt afford to feel bad about who you are and where you come from.
You canāt even afford to be less than enthusiastic about it. That goes hand-in-hand with a whole bunch of unwanted outcomes.
Find your superpowers. Recognize and revel in them.
Everybody has them.
They may not be the ones you would have asked for, but they are still awesome
Iāve tried not to be a fool, but Iām just so damned good at it.
nice talk.
randomly appeared today.
Memphis Jookin
Incredible
(Charles Riley)
Here in the context of the video.
Consider this:
During every phase of your life;
whether you were up or whether you were down,
whether you were the big winner or the low loser;
you still found things to love,
you still found something beautiful.
Donāt care if this is relevant to anything. It makes me happy.
Thanks to @hyperbeam I just re-read the support article on Subliminal Washouts and cross-referencing that with @Azriel 's experiences, it seems that I needed more frequent washouts. This is a part of subliminal use that Iāve neglected. Primarily because I never experience overwhelming reconciliation. But thereās more to a washout than just managing recon. Thereās also managing stonewalling, and thereās just overall Integration, in general.
Itās a bit hard for me to gauge this process because I donāt generally get a lot of subjective fireworks and pyrotechnics with my subliminal use. Just results.
One question that I have is: I just participated in the Zero Point trial for 2 months and did not play my stack until 8 November. Does that count as a washout or partial washout?
In other words, Is one possible Washout/Integration strategy to simply play another title for a while?
I suspect Iāve guessed the answer to this. Itās probably that doing so can be a partial washout, and it may support integration, but it will do so over a longer period of time. Thatās the logical answer. This is another reason that Iām thinking of Stack Rotation as a useful strategy.
But it also seems that periods of just complete āradio silenceā are a very good idea.
Just like the feast-famine concept of healthy metabolic maintenance. Itās not simply that eating is good or bad, or that fasting is good or bad. Itās the alternation between the two that keeps the bodyās systems well-tuned and responsive.
What would you consider more frequent?
I see washouts as no input whatsoever. I think for integration itās really important. Having no stimulus or input gives the mind space to form the neural connections in the brain. I mentioned it before but I see rest days or washouts as transitioning into a more diffuse mode of thinking where your brain starts tying concepts together. As opposed to the very focused mode of thinking when actively listening.
Itās also good because you get a better feel for how long this subliminal input stays with you and is continually worked on. I know for me not listening I had to fight this sense of ānot doing anythingā. Itās just a long standing habit of the days of 8-16 hours of subs every day before subclub.
Q: What if every angry or ignorant thought you expressed cost you $100?
A: It does.
And now, back to my neglected journal.
Opening For Business
Music Made During ZP Trial
That first track is killer. Immediate thought is in those old RPGs when youāre about to hit a big journey but itās the lead up and tension to something big coming. As always super uplifting stuff.
And Kwisatz 2. Nice. I didnāt catch that verse at first and a re-listen had me thinking, hold up I remember these rhymes! lol. Some proper old school flow on that, like Eric B and Rakim. Solid.
Your stuff always has a very firm identity to it, thatās what I appreciate about it. Glad you got to explore more of this during the ZP trial. Iām hoping it helps connect me with my most authentic self for my music as well.
Did you feel like you were able to get in the flow more when writing these tracks?
I was like āRakim?!ā and then I re-ran it in my head and I know the main part that would sound like Ra.
Itās āand back up your stacks/ organize your tracksā
also he does a real flat, straight-ahead delivery of his rhymes. not a lot of dynamics or emotion. Which is the same way that I said that rhyme. Though in my case it was more unintentional haha.
Last night was my first time playing Chosen ZP since 19 November 2021 when the trial ended. Played 2 loops at bedtime.
Woke up this morning: meditated, hiked for 6.5 miles, came back, barbered my sonās hair. Showered. Bought us a nice lunch from a new taqueria.
Since then havenāt done much of anything and am now about to start getting things together.
Iāve been thinking about my own roadmap; especially now that these Zero Point resources are available.
My main objective is Self-Determination. Kujichagulia as they say.
I will definitely not throw away the ability to lead others. But my dream is to feel very clear about leading myself.
The Sub Club programs that seem most focused on that are Ascended Mogul and Emperor. Interesting, because I never really had those as my most important programs.
In this exact phase, healing has seemed most current.
I have some things that have needed to be addressed.
So, my stack right now: Dragon Reborn and Chosen ZP.
With the support of the Zero Point effect, Iām playing with the possibility that I may be able to run each stage of Dragon Reborn for about 45 days. that means 6 or 7 weeks. Who know, could even be less. Iām really thinking 6 weeks.
At some point, while Iām still working through Dragon Reborn, Iāll be bringing in my core Qv2 custom: Naissance.
So, itāll be Dragon Reborn, Chosen ZP, and Naissance. Eventually Dragon Reborn will be taken out. And Chosen ZP may be replaced by another ZP track. Weāll see.
Looking forward to listening guidelines, etc., for ZP.
