Notorious Spartan Supersoldier

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#41

i have to say i dont know if this is just how reality transfers between major programs but i much prefer wanted to khan, Khan made me super social but underneath the surface ive always disliked it. Wanted is more my flow, introverted generally and very extraverted when in my happy places. I also prefer the enigmatic man persona as girls will always chase that type of man infinitely more than they would the conqueror, to a degree i felt like females submitted to me to make me happy, when they cant stop thinking about you, they submit because your very thought makes them happy

the aspect of density, recon, and action taking makes more sense to me as im not in desperation mode like i was with my last custom stack. My actions are lining up nicely to a sweet spot where i feel im moving forward steadily, and can add steam to the tank once im into my emperor phase.

the attention from females is something that naturalized but it just came to me, its unreal. i THINK every attractive female ive come across in the gym has had googly eyes for me, i also feel a lot calmer and in control of my own alphaness, i walk like a king but i care so little.

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#42

the recon im feeling is something now im starting to understand is manageable and isnt just a “it is what it is” thing, i can control how i handle recon, i can even make it fuck off completely with enough calmness

my reality is coming closer to what i would envision for myself if given full reign in what i want rather than some cookie cutter tailored version of #goals

i am with people i love being with, i love like i want to love, i fuck like i want to fuck, i eat like i wanna eat, i think like i wanna think, i dream of things i really want.

ive created a bit of a meta empire for myself i realize, regardless of my material possessions, the things i have in my life and the feelings i feel and the things i am getting is like ive built my very own empire in my own mind

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#43

Final post today

I finished my chest delt tricep workout

I mewed from start to end and I never breathed heavy through my mouth

It was beautiful, truly feeling my body becoming that of a barbarian

My emphasis is on my life now in terms of my mind, I’d love to just work on my inner self whilst enjoying my life and working smart towards my goals, rather than brute forcing things

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#44

Okay another day another thing

i had a very strong breakthrough today, yesterday was my loop of my custom and i was very dazed and confused after it, I slept a lot when i did sleep, taking another nap later and absolutely just dying in the bed

i woke up to an immense sadness that made me flow into a newly found happy place, that ive been renovating since starting this custom, and it really did make me feel amazing, the amazingness of my feeling helped me open up to myself about my inner sadness, i swam in it and stared at it and i re evaluated many things in my life

i also think ive aligned enough with my custom to stop postponing my “healing week” as stated above ill be using khan stage 1 on random weeks through my wanted custom, so lets get after it.

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#45

okay im starting to detach completely from all the things that used to drain my energy, such as overthinking romantic relationships

i had a major anxiety attack the night before yesterday, its the newness of my stack coming into play

my workouts have become more effortless due to my new breathing techniques during workouts, in on the down, breath out on the up

after loops i seem to become very meh, morning after loop i am unstable, a few hours into the next day im euphoric

my diet has fixed, i lost 2 kg in 2 days

my jaw has undergone some “interesting” developments and changes

my anxiety is finally dying

im at peace more with this stack, but it aint a walk in the park

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#46

finally im no longer anxious about my way of life and the things i enjoy, it seems so stupid to put my essence into the judgement of the crowd, im more trusting of where im going and how ill handle even things designed to break me, its all part of the game really

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#47

oddly im aligned with wanted, the progress on khan made me slide right into the mystery persona and im enjoying it greatly

thats external, internally im way calmer and more life loving and a less more nonchalant towards things that formerly made me dwell into thought

my anxiety is dying and im settling into a reality i can actually enjoy and grow on, partly this is due to going to a huge stack to a single custom, and its also partly due to the fact that i take more risks in regards to how i envision my life and how i want to live

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#48

I’m feeling better, longer breaks are better for me as I’m feeling a strong bloom.

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#49

What is your listening pattern? After how many days do you feel a bloom?

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#50

48 hours, so the moment I’m supposed to be back on stack it blooms, it’s been 72 hours almost by now and I’m very much enjoying my vision clarity of mind and willingness to take action

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#51

So today I feel a sort of strong bloom, I’m renovating my life currently and I seem to see things a lot better, I feel a spiritual experience on mind’s eye

In combination with dominion this is letting me see clearly where I’m going

#52

I also feel a lot more mysterious whilst wanting to talk more at the same time

I’m working on increasing my entrance fee to the ride, so only those worthy get in

#53

Feeling a very strong bloom today, this is one of those of those lessons that becomes a permanent result

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#54

im having a good bloom and with it some recon as a precursor, im being more mindful with my days and loops as to milk the most processing and execution from every single loop.

things are slowly moving i can see the path diverting slightly, but thunderously

a part of me has to invoke what i learnt from the Khan spirit and it’s skyrocketting what i want to be with wanted

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#55

@Yazooneh how’s revisiting KhanST1 been for you?

#56

fuck me i cant believe i didnt say it but i never did, I rolled on with wanted as the alignment segement is gruelling and im getting there, once im in the flow of the custom ill trinker with additions

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#57

Worddd no worries bro keep that focus. The healing from KhanTB can be brutal at times and may disrupt your momentum so I feel you on wanting to take things slow with WANTED custom and feel it out.

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#58

Ive developed a mantra for the first time in my life, a very powerful one
even as i was falling asleep yesterday and my brain wasnt computing anymore, i kept saying it, even though my brain was struggling to put the sentence together

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#59

so ive come out of the haze that is the initial month of running a new custom and i have to say that i have a new way of lookng at things, my anxiety was worked on in a far greater degree than it did with Khan and if anything, something very interesting happened. Khan bloomed full force, stronger than it was when I ran the program, a mantra was gained to immortalize it

my work online is growing too, my wanted fitness stack is giving me enough confidence to find out that I got it in me to lead whatever it is I want to lead and win, so i skipped the whole artist stack journey.

my horniness is intense, its no longer just this horny dog feeling but a strong surge of power inside me, with 5 months on my last custom and only 2 relapses in that 5 months, i found that what i worked on previously in channeling my sexual energy is coming to fruition.

all n all, im happy.

im curious to see how QZP stacks, and if i need wanted qzp to enjoy max effects, or if i can keep running my wanted custom and have it “upgrade” to qzp results due to being listened alongside a zp

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