Notes From Along The Path

The Emperor's Lounge
#1

What Is beneficially unfolding right now that I am able to see? Experience? Feel? Observe? Intuit?

We, being an aspirational community, are understandably often future-focused, goal-focused.

But the seeds of everything good that you will ever experience are already here. Sometimes, yes, buried in dirt and s**t. And so difficult to see.

But this is an experimental thread for describing the fruits of the path from on the path.

Not about what I will become or when I will become it.

Maybe for those moments when we momentarily shift from a particle paradigm into a wave paradigm and are able to note the dynamic change that is already inherent in this moment.

This is an experiment. Maybe it won’t work. Maybe it will. Let’s see.

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#2

The sands of the long abandoned desert of youth are being dug out.
Memories, excavated. Studied like an archaeological site.
The chthonic parts lay terrified in the cave.
They are taken back to the refuge to be healed and held.

The roots of fear, exposed.
Yet, they cannot quite be pulled out.
More digging is necessary.
But finally they are exposed.
To the air, the sky, the light.
They wither under the heat.

The distorted faces graved on the walls seem to lose their power, ever so slowly.
They are revealed for what they are, shadows of the past.
The roots retreat back into the sand, like wounded tentacles.
The excavation continues.

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#3

One thing i’ve noticed recently is i used to hammer myself about how i looked constantly

It was fuel for a while, I thought I needed that self criticism to stay sharp in the gym but at some point it just… quieted

Not because i decided to accept myself or had some breakthrough. It just lost its grip and the effort didn’t drop

And that was my fear, that if i stopped beating myself up i’d get lazy. But that didn’t happen

The thought still shows up sometimes, it just wears a different mask

But the relationship to it changed without me steering it

That’s the bit that’s hard to explain to people. you don’t always feel the shift while it’s happening. Sometimes you just look back and realise the thing that used to run you doesn’t anymore.

I think Love Bomb and Regeneration helped in all of this. It’s like my relationship with myself has been dramatically changing over these past few months I’ve been running them

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#4

Thank you for expressing this.

So, so profound.

Ideas, concepts, and beliefs deserve their reputations of importance. They’re influential and they matter. The bedrock and EARTH of our identities.

Yet …

beneath and beyond beliefs, we (and reality) also exist.

Beyond (and before), the land: the ocean, the sea.

Sometimes we have the time and the capacity to stand right there at the edge, where one becomes the other.

We don’t “HAVE” to go.

The sea will still be there, even if we don’t visit.

But standing at the edge, from time to time, can remind us of processes, resources, and possibilities that we might otherwise forget.

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