Not sure what to do

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#1

So the past 3 weeks or so, ive been seriously doubting my custom. It really doesnt feel like i have any results and i have a really big desire to add stuff to my stack or even replace it entirely. So yeah… classic recon.

That said it has gone on for so long and i honestly just dont feel satisfied with the results im getting right now. My productivity has been nonexcistant, i barely have any ambition and still feel like i lack the social skills i desire.

Heres the kicker though, the cause of why i feel like this, is the exact same as the reason why i made the custom in the first place… im far to much of a people pleaser and care way to much about if other like me and fitting in. This is the reason why i even made a custom in the first place of wich a big part consists of trying to make people like me even more. But that desire cant really be fulfilled since the thing preventing me from that… is the fact that im such a peoplepleaser. If i managed to overcome that though, i in turn wouldnt even care about my custom.
Running the custom feels somewhat like a selffulfilling prophecy right now where the fact that i run it, means im not achieving what i desire.

For this reason i really feel like i should stop running it and create an alpha base for a couple months to really focus on myself (wich in turn would also work as a washout for my current custom) and than possibly run it later again.

At the same time though im extremely aware that this could easily be recon and that dropping my custom is actually not a good idea.

Im not completely sure what im trying to achieve with asking for help here tbh, but what do you guys think i should do? Drop my custom and start with ascension or HoM, or stick through? I tried doing a washout for 1.5 weeks at some point, but honestly, it did nothing.

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#2

Did you run anything else before building the custom or is the custom the first sub you ran from this company?

#4

Why don’t you run Ascension or Ascended Mogul for a few months to help you get your life on the right path then move on from there.

Maybe try to washout for a few weeks to even a month. It could be heavy recon, it could also be that you need to push yourself to take action even when you have no motivation to do so.

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#5

:point_up_2: :point_up_2:
This right here…

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#6

Everything about my behavior seemed to be socially appropriate and really classy when I was on HoM. Subs like Ascension, Starkq, HoM, and Emperor are really good for when you need to take a stand about anything. I’m sure there are other subs that are good for that, but those are the ones I’ve tried. If you meditate, Aaron Doughty’s meditations have been truly life changing for me.

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#7

I started with DR way back when that released, and than went to WANTED and stark, so i have quite a bit of experience with subclub subs.

#8

dude im in the same boat as you are,

had a 3 month run with Emperor and i feel very disappointed with the progress almost no results which is sad, Stark had easy results on me almost in 1 week

idk whats up with alpha subs,

but im doing a washout thought it would help with this thing

#9

also how many cores is within your custom? and how do you run it

#10

I was definitely thinking about this exactly. Possibly a stack of ascension and HOM, or possible asc solo. You reckon that if id switch my stack to that for now it would count as a washout for my current custom? or would a washout first before switching be a better call if i decide to do so?

#11

thats the thing, my custom isnt even neccessairly an alpha sub lol. Its very much based around stark.

#12

Stark is an alpha sub i think

#13

3 cores and 17 modules. It is a bit on the dense side, rn i run it 1 loop every 2th day.

#14

first time your running those cores?

id say give it time its a 3 core custom

but i feel like shit as youre, i hate when time goes and no results happen

#15

nah it isnt, my 3 cores are stark WANTED and daredevil. i have quite a bit of time on both WANTED and stark, never got that much out of stark though so wanted to create a custom to make it more effective…

this so much. It really feels like missing out on so much. Especially when you read about all the other people having such incredible results in like 2 days.

#16

You might be on the verge of change. There are times when we feel down and under before emerging up again. Don’t drop your custom as you said, remember that this is a custom and the changes are going to hit you deep and true.

Now, I’d suggest you take a week off like it has been suggested and add Ascension to your stack.

Next, what are you doing for action and what have you STOPPED doing as well? You have to let go of the people pleasing behaviour and whatever causing a trigger to react as that self. Hanging out with bad seeds? Drop it. Porn? Drop it like its hot. Not standing up to yourself? Stretch and stand tall. Are you doing things that you want or are you just dismissing them? These little things will go a long way.

Have you read the Rational Male and No more mr nice guy?

I hope this helped out

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#17

lol exactly whats on my mind and what i was about to say

especially that i really vouch for SC to my friends and their products, but then i look at my journey so far,

and im not happy at all with it.

maybe it takes more time than usual.
Saint said that some people might take more time than others due to their upbringing and they will take really a long time to see results that makes them blow smoke out of their mouth

he said he had a 8 month period before stuff started to kick in,

for the time, i dont think adding or changing subs would be a good idea,
since its a custom and 1 file

i had 3 programs on my playlist, but i dropped 1
to let more space for faster results, but you dont have that option since its a custom so stick with it

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#18

Hey,

If possible to tell us some background
Like what’s your job/business?!
Or what are you busy about through your day ?!
Do you have friends, family you meet regularly?!
Did you go to pubs , parties , ?;
Can you start learn smth where you meet new people, like dancing for example?!
Did you read , watched movies ,documentaries about role models to aspire to and smth to inject inspiration into your life?!
Do you have goals just to direct your attention?! That are written , clarified detailed (just for the purpose of guiding the sub consciously at least )

Regarding your productivity this smth understandable

Wanted need a lot of energy. It’s simple when you don’t have energy to move .you need rest . Rest means regenerating your battery … it doesn’t mean your falling out .

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#19

That’s recon

If it wasn’t helping you towards realizing that you have a huge issue standing in your way that means it was useless and you’re fully stonewalled

The fact the gears in your brain turns means something is happening and it’s not always the best feeling as you’re supposed to shed a lot of past beliefs

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#20

Also one more thing

Run it way less than you do sometimes the recon is so bad you don’t see the results, let it process properly and bloom to action

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#21

Im in college rn so in a lot of ways taking action isnt even really a choice, to a large degree im forced into scenarios where i need to be productive, social etc etc. As far as action goes its definitely there.

I havent actually, ill def check them out!

This is such a hard question, honestly, i have no freaking idea what i even want. Were products of out environment and ive never been outside of this environment. I def do want to finish college, but outside of that? Honestly i just do a bunch of nothing, wasting time on youtube, and the occasional party or social gathering. The former is definitely not something i want to do but i also wouldnt know any alternative rn.

So yeah, im in college currently. Im a very mediocore student as far as grades go, a large part of that is because i have such a hard time being productive and usually spend very little time actually studying.
I do have friends i meet with somewhat regulairly, either my friends that i sport with and a few that i sometimes go out with.
Aside from that i ofcourse also have a bunch of college partys where i constantly meet a shitton of new people. I usually get along fine with most people i meet but i rarely feel that i become particulairly close with anyone from college if that makes sense.
A big struggle that causes this is, what in the ADHD world is unofficially referred to as “RSD”. Basically due to how much i care about if people like me i sometimes get anxious when i dont feel included (wich is quite often) and can either shutdown or try to find an escape and go talk to someone else.

I really dont tbh, i went into this with mindset of, just finish college and have fun. Rn i kinda want to have something of a bit more substance alongside that but i have no idea what that could be. I def feel like i have to much free time, im thinking of looking into either trading or possibly some kind of business.

This is probably a good call lol. So far a washout or more rest days hasnt really changed anything though, so perhaps, like florida said, i really should take a 3 week break or something to completely reset from the custom before starting again.

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