Sage’s Rise: the Wanted Son of Lightning

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#467

I played my stack last night before I went to sleep on ultrasonic.

At least, I remember playing it. When I checked this morning, it was displaying like I hadn’t started the first title yet (00:00). But I distinctly recall starting Sexual Mastery X, noting the seconds begin to tick and going to bed. So tomorrow, I’m going to have to dummy play it again to see if it loops through from SMX to HS to SoL, and see if the thing then returns to the beginning of the playlist.

All of that to say, I feel great today. Keep in mind, I’ve been indulging in porn a LOT lately. Today and yesterday I didn’t feel like looking it up, but honestly I did it out of boredom yesterday and wasted hours smh.

Not today.

When I woke up this morning, I was a bit tired, but I had energy (oh, my ultrasonic playlist. Sexual Mastery X, Heartsong and the Son of Lightning), which I was totally not expecting as I had edged an unfortunate amount of time up until midnight.

Regardless, somehow, I’ve been operating pretty damn smoothly today. I feel friendly, open. People are responding to me with open friendliness, even here at work. And that’s not something I expect from here lol.

I also started to feel an optimism begin to swell within me. Those that follow this travesty of a journal may remember my post about the seed the other day.

I’m pretty sure this is that shift.

More later.

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#468

I just noticed I skipped this part. No I don’t own it yet, but just a ten second skim makes me wonder why I don’t.

It would make a fine addition to my collecti- erm, stack.

In all seriousness, thank you for the suggestion. Your insight is just about always welcome. 'specially since it happens to be useful just about always.

#469

I missed a virtual court conference call that I remembered AND set an alarm for because I was busy in a customer’s home.

Seeing as I set the petition to be served in order to have this happen in the first place (paternity case), I’m a bit irritated.

I’ll edit this with more later but I needed to get that off me.

Edit: so yeah. Today was pretty decent besides the previous entry which is totally on me. I could have had my phone on me instead of in the truck, but I’m so used to leaving it there while I work, it slipped my mind that it wasn’t in my pocket.

I was with a different driver today. Real cool cat, older and respectful. I like his energy. Today was a pretty smooth work day.

I had a minor scare when an elderly guy wanted to verify for himself that what my driver was saying was true, and got down on the tile and under his sink to check his water valve.

He got down pretty well, honestly. He saw my driver was right and tried to get back up, but, alas.

For he could not.

So, after much consternation on the part of his wife and my driver and much calculation by myself after he made a funny sound on our first attempt…

We hooked our arms under his arms and hauled him up in two seconds, chastised him for not acting his age, accepted a Gatorade and left.

I like this work and being able to encounter different people every day. I was going somewhere else with this and I weep for the sentence I know I’ll lose because of this, but I just had the funny thought that I might or might have already encountered a SubClub person in their home :hushed:

Ahhh, but it is there still, hell yeah. So yeah, I like meeting people in their homes. I sold Kirby vacuums for about two months (2/10, wouldn’t recommend) and anybody that knows about Kirby’s know that they’re sold strictly door to door. They’re not advertised on television, and no wonder.

Most sell for 3k. And that’s just here. In California, I sold four on a weekend road trip at 4k, I think it was.

Issa scam, though. That same weekend’s paycheck for me, top seller over even the vets who had been there for ten years, was $180.93

:expressionless:

So yeah, seeing as I’m not typing this from a cell, I think I made the right choice to close the door on that particular venture that was costing me my relationship at the time for literally no gain…

(besides learning that my fear of sales was actually I’ll founded and that not only did I love selling those, I excelled and that I’m amazing with people and can turn strangers into friends inviting me to dinner and plenty of other great things, and I refused so many tips from people that could have easily paid my check instead of my boss…)

… And move on to other, greater things. Now, I’m not in sales, and no, I don’t have to sell myself and impress anyone seeing as they’ve already bought the piece(s), I’m just installing 'em.

My point is I like interesting people, and people are most interesting to me in the comfort and safety of their own home. That’s when the masks we don are most slipped, and I can see the real individual without them attempting to posture. If that makes sense?

I like to see what people have in their homes, too. I’ve met motorcycle enthusiasts, truck drivers, witches (looked at me weird when I asked her to sweep up a mess. Kidding), gun lovers (that invited me to go shooting with them when things clear up), military folk, and so many more. And they all have their story. Some people are stoic and silent, some awkward, some hilarious and some ya just wanna lovingly shove from under your armpit and work space. It’s not that bad, really… But only cuz we don’t let them be.

I like travelling, too. That’s my thing and I will always seek work with some form of travel. Whether it’s because I’m a Sagittarius or I’m just a wanderer, I love new places and faces.

I’m not sure what possessed me to journal like this but I feel talkative. In other news, it sorta struck me like a lightning bolt to add Primal Seduction to my stack this morning. It’s dense, it takes awhile to see results, yada yada… That’s what my immediate thought was. But the enormity of the feeling of rightness was weird and, risking recon, I added it.

And honestly, I think I made the right choice. I’ve used it before but that was at the very beginning of my journey and this journal, so I do believe whatever bloom I experienced today was due to delay of use as well as the new tech. But man, it ain’t even about women, though the results there was nigh immediate. It felt like every (insert past posts I’ve made about female anxiety of any kind) had received the antidote I had been needing. Antidote is just the word that came to mind earlier.

I know the title is about seduction, but woman seeking desire faded during and after the loop.

I’m planning to play that particular title merely once every other play cycle. Por ejemplo:

Monday: HS, PS, SoL, R.I.C.H

Tuesday: Off

Wednesday: HS, SoL, R.I.C.H

Thursday: R.I.C.H

Friday: HS, PS, SoL, R.I.C.H

Why? That’s the idea that popped into my head when I finished it and I’m curious how it’ll play it. I think what led me to add it is the healing parts of it. Whatever it is, it had me vibrant and alive with everyone today. I had people laughing and smiling, no, beaming just the way I shined. And again, it wasn’t anything sensual, at least for me. I definitely had female interest but in an adoring way.

I haven’t researched here to see how density plays a part with this new technology (we’re still in Qv2, future, proud of me, me​:pray:t3::rofl:) but seeing as it is a very casual, almost experimental addition, I’m inclined to have fun and test some things.

My girl and I are still apart, but that hasn’t stopped her parts from calling to mine, so she’s come over more than she cares to admit and man. Sex Mastery is the bizness. I really only added it to see if I could get some benefit from it for my porn use, but while failing to help with that, it really did solve the issue I was really having, which was insecurity about having sex because of my porn use.

Funny how thoughts work, in retrospect.

This post has got to be the longest I’ve done in awhile and I feel no sign of stopping so I’m going to force myself to put a period here without saying more later.

Again.

#470

I need to create a template to fill out to track certain metrics. But, in keeping me my word.

I made $40 today. Simply by existing, lol.

A certain person I work with today did something that would be frowned upon by certain people that can’t be named, but really hurts no one so it isn’t a moral issue. Anyways, he didn’t have to break me off for it as I’m physically incapable of snitching even if I wanted to (I have stories about that :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:), but he did it because we didn’t get tips today.

And probably wanted to make sure I wasn’t going to snitch.

Edit to finish: I need to create a template that can track past, present and future earnings. Maybe I should do a graph, on a biweekly count, to keep track of pay fluctuations, as well as another graph to keep track of weekly/monthly tip revenue.

I wanna do this for multiple reasons, practical and more obscure reasons. One of the more practical reasons being that it’s obviously great to have an idea of what you’re bringing in, especially on a piece rate and commission based job. One of the obscure reasons I’m willing to share being I have a Servitor for this specific job that I have programmed covering exactly these things. I won’t go into much more than that, but one thing many ‘Keepers’ do is have objectives they keep track of on a predetermined basis.

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#471

What inspired the name change?

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#472

The reason for the name change is that my username that most people have gotten used to here, Ninjistic, is actually one I use for everything except this sort of forum :nerd_face:

Ninjistic is a word I (thought I) made up when I was like ten or something, cuz everyone used to say I was so ninja. So, me being a classy, intellectual pre-teen, I figured ninjistic should be an adjective and started using it (ninjistically) but never saw it on the Internet until years later on urban dictionary.

All usernames I had until seventeen were that word, until I finally tried to register it and it was taken!

Anyways… I’m not sure any of that is useful.

I usually use either Causmosis, which is another name I made up. Cause, because I wanted a constant reminder of the Law of Cause and Effect - and Osmosis, I was attempting to learn passively through osmosis by creating my own process. Sagittarius, huh?) which for some reason it didn’t accept when I first created an account, or some name with sage in it.

Nothing calls to me more than the word sage. I would describe myself as a sage guy. A girl I used to mess around with called me Sage, and I had never told her about my thing with that. My old best friend calls me pervy sage, and he doesn’t know either. I’m drawn to sages as well, and in past life readings of note (which was part of my question to the reader of the Akash), he told me I’ve had many lives as a mystic, medicine man, shaman, and he mentioned one as a Tibetan Monk, all of which sang with my soul.

My first profile picture here was I think Naruto in Sage Mode, but I had mindlessly typed in ‘Ninjistic’ into the username field like I’m still used to doing, lol. And until @Trader changed his awhile back, I didn’t know it wasn’t set in stone.

I have said before that my first title I was going to buy here was actually going to be the Alchemist or Mind’s Eye, but the Emperor caught my eye and I was thrilled to see if I could meet the challenge.

I’m coming up on my year anniversary here in about a week or two, and I haven’t even purchased it yet. I was thinking about this about a month ago and suddenly, every single solitary day since then, I’ve been seeing the word sage everywhere. I had had a small itch to ask a mod to change it before, but I kinda fell in love with my current adorable avatar and didn’t feel like switching to a more esoteric theme, and since I’m 65% percent silly as crack on here, I felt before I might as well leave it alone.

Well, like a week before Sage Immortal was released, the desire to change my name became more noticeable and I even caught myself looking at some dope mystic photos to change my profile photo. I actually went to send RV a message to see if it would be okay if I changed it or if I had to leave it since I have a somewhat established presence here already, but saw he wasn’t accepting messages, saw a shiny thread and got distracted.

Well, then it came out :rofl: and I have always had a thing since I was a kid against feeling like a follower or like I only did something because something else happened. I’m not sure that conveys it properly but, for example. Before Black Panther came out, I had been growing out my hair to twist it out and grow it long.

I had it going for about a year when one day, I saw a gorgeous female one day with blonde hair grown long on top but shaved low on the sides. Normally, I don’t favor that hair but it looked fantastic on her (she’s actually the girl from way back in my Emperor/PS days that hit me up to apply to be my mistress, when I was truck driving). I had the sudden inspiration to do that, but with locs.

You can see where this is going, I think.

I took the time to grow my hair out a few months longer and just when I was looking for someone to cut my hair the way I had envisioned it…

Michael B. Jordan had to show out like the badass he is, creating an iconic character in the process that had the exact hair I was going for.

So me, being the well thought out, logical young man that I was and still am, trashed the idea immediately and didn’t do it for three more years or so after that.

:slightly_smiling_face:

Ironically, the next few weeks after I did get my hair like I had wanted it, everyone called me Killmonger

Anyways, long story and post shorter, I was dumbfounded, flabbergasted, dumbstruck even when I saw the Sage Immortal post on the main page later on. I just had a small echo of it remembering lol.

Idk man. I’ll end up having a Way of the Sage journal at some point, but I need to at least complete a single road on a road map I set before that, in line with my current financial, career and romantic goals, before I step on that, cuz the day I buy the Alchemist, that’s going to be a permanent focus and fixture in my stack.

You type deep, sometimes extensive posts. I hope you don’t mind reading extensive rants :grimacing:

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#473

lol I didn’t even register that this is you. Cool fuckin name!

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#474

Lmao. You didn’t see the… Ninja?

#475

Been working all day so seeing glances at posts. Didn’t look at avatars haha

#476

That was interesting. Takes me back to my old comic book reading days when you used to be happy to get some much-appreciated backstory on an intriguing character. (‘oh! he was raised by wild cranes!’ or ‘ah, he rides a motorcycle and left a promising medical career to pursue training in the mystical arts’ hahaha.)

I’m not surprised about the Sage thing. Synchronicities do seem to abound around here.

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#477

I loved comics myself. I was a huge DC fan, but I loved Marvel nearly as much. I did study ninjas a lot as a kid come to think of it.

I was a fantasy kid, man. Star Wars books were my television. A therapist I had briefly as a kid once tested me and said that I read and comprehended at entry college level, and I used that as an excuse with my adopted parents to get books solely from the adult section, so I read everything from Lord of the Rings, to the Jason Bourne and Hieronymus Bosch stories. I am so grateful to the one that wrote the Hardy Boys series, they’re truly one of the favorite parts of my childhood.

I’m not sure why I feel like sharing today but I’m glad I went down that memory lane.

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#478

Not that these are adult books, but these and the Boxcar kids, Gentle Ben, My Side of the Mountain, Julie of the Wolves, and on and on… Thinking of these make my heart swell in a way I rarely ever experience anymore. I can tell I’m being guided back onto a path that I’ve allowed myself to fall from momentarily. I’ve been wanting to listen to audiobooks to go to sleep instead of watching YouTube, and the Kyballion is once again something I’ve been considering listening to, which is for me personally usually a tell tell sign.

But anyway :smile:

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#479

Hmmm…

Now that I think about it after moving on, I wonder if Heartsong might be beginning to show itself to me.

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#480

09/15/21

Yesterday, I got twenty dollars in tips.

Today, my stack is Heartsong, SoL and R.I.C.H. As I mentioned before, Primal Seduction will be on an every other play cycle pattern. This is to allow Qv2 tech a chance to work while hopefully maintaining results with minimal recon.

Yesterday, I felt a bit out of sorts and I’m sure that’s because of adding PS. I didn’t end up playing RICH as I normally would to allow full processing capabilities. I debated allowing myself another full rest day today but though my head is still a tad ‘staticy’, I think playing my stack will help.

My girlfriend and I are doing better and better but I’m going to wait before expanding on this.

Due to the current climate surrounding vaccines in America, my cop plans are indefinitely postponed. My desire to create a business has been growing in the past month and was solidified when Mr. Biden gave his speech calling this a ‘pandemic of the unvaccinated’.

The internet is forever, so I’ll refrain from adding more volatile words.

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#481

I like to share my title art.

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I do not own this image.

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#482

My girlfriend got me a black and mild that she surprised me with today. I had smoked the last bit of mine several hours before and was low key fiending for one, so I’m grateful for the manifestion.

#483

09/17/21

I felt drawn to get Limit Destroyer. I’ve been fighting the urge thinking it was probably just recon, but paying attention to my thoughts recently, I’ve got a lot of limiting beliefs that I are really holding me back.

During the loop today, I felt periods of clarity then fogginess and back again. Having finished it, my first desire is to clean my house. So that’s what I’ma do

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#484

I also felt the desire to go to the gym. Not an intense urge, but a calm intention. So I texted my friend to see if he wants to go, but he said later on. I may just go myself.

#485

As I’m cleaning my apartment, I get the normal thought of wanting to just do a bit and leave the rest for another day, only to feel a surge of optimism and almost enthusiasm that’s completely undermining the procrastinating, lazy thoughts.

Cool shit, imma keep updating as I’m noticing stuff.

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#486

As I was listening to LDU, I decided to focus it towards helping me with releasing my habits surrounding porn. I’ve been fine the last couple of days, but I’m really over it.

I did so, and let it go and moved on to something else. I was on the forum a bit later and while reading, I realized my mind had gone back to a memory I forgot about, back when I was a younger teenager. I was home schooled at this time and I was downstairs using my parent’s school laptop for my studies.

At least, that’s what they thought. The laptop hadn’t been hooked up to the internet before, but I soon remedied that oversight and was playing Internet games like Ball Stick Arena and other Xgen games after I had powered through whatever it was I was supposed to do.

That turned to other games. There was a site called Newgrounds or something that had a bunch of free games of all sorts, from arcade, to strategy, to action… And mature :woozy_face:

Well, that expanded my horizons. The sequence of events after that are pretty linear, so I don’t need to go into it Long story short, I do believe that was actually the genesis of my consumption of erotic material and the fact that the memory popped up so soon after I set the intention is marvelous.

I did eventually end up getting caught by my parents because of a virus from some web game and though she couldn’t prove it cuz I was pretty damn sneaky, my adopted mom figured it was me. That was actually the part of my memory playing in the back of my head as I was reading, and I wonder if I’ve harbored some kinda emotional energy from that and later things.

I was very closely watched from then on and actually did get caught with an impressive amount of downloaded porn on my school laptop when I was in high school by my adopted mom. That was because my blood bro was spying and saw me watching two females enjoying each other’s existence and snitched. I never did get him back :thinking:

That was pretty embarrassing as they (the parents) made a show out of it in front of my eleven other siblings and humiliated me.

So okay cool, I’m glad I typed that out cause now I realize I’ve got some shame/guilt thing tying me to porn.

Back to cleaning.

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