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My girlfriend got me a black and mild that she surprised me with today. I had smoked the last bit of mine several hours before and was low key fiending for one, so I’m grateful for the manifestion.
09/17/21
I felt drawn to get Limit Destroyer. I’ve been fighting the urge thinking it was probably just recon, but paying attention to my thoughts recently, I’ve got a lot of limiting beliefs that I are really holding me back.
During the loop today, I felt periods of clarity then fogginess and back again. Having finished it, my first desire is to clean my house. So that’s what I’ma do
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I also felt the desire to go to the gym. Not an intense urge, but a calm intention. So I texted my friend to see if he wants to go, but he said later on. I may just go myself.
As I’m cleaning my apartment, I get the normal thought of wanting to just do a bit and leave the rest for another day, only to feel a surge of optimism and almost enthusiasm that’s completely undermining the procrastinating, lazy thoughts.
Cool shit, imma keep updating as I’m noticing stuff.
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As I was listening to LDU, I decided to focus it towards helping me with releasing my habits surrounding porn. I’ve been fine the last couple of days, but I’m really over it.
I did so, and let it go and moved on to something else. I was on the forum a bit later and while reading, I realized my mind had gone back to a memory I forgot about, back when I was a younger teenager. I was home schooled at this time and I was downstairs using my parent’s school laptop for my studies.
At least, that’s what they thought. The laptop hadn’t been hooked up to the internet before, but I soon remedied that oversight and was playing Internet games like Ball Stick Arena and other Xgen games after I had powered through whatever it was I was supposed to do.
That turned to other games. There was a site called Newgrounds or something that had a bunch of free games of all sorts, from arcade, to strategy, to action… And mature 
Well, that expanded my horizons. The sequence of events after that are pretty linear, so I don’t need to go into it Long story short, I do believe that was actually the genesis of my consumption of erotic material and the fact that the memory popped up so soon after I set the intention is marvelous.
I did eventually end up getting caught by my parents because of a virus from some web game and though she couldn’t prove it cuz I was pretty damn sneaky, my adopted mom figured it was me. That was actually the part of my memory playing in the back of my head as I was reading, and I wonder if I’ve harbored some kinda emotional energy from that and later things.
I was very closely watched from then on and actually did get caught with an impressive amount of downloaded porn on my school laptop when I was in high school by my adopted mom. That was because my blood bro was spying and saw me watching two females enjoying each other’s existence and snitched. I never did get him back 
That was pretty embarrassing as they (the parents) made a show out of it in front of my eleven other siblings and humiliated me.
So okay cool, I’m glad I typed that out cause now I realize I’ve got some shame/guilt thing tying me to porn.
Back to cleaning.
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Storytime with the Sage Ninjistic.
Always welcome and always a good time!
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Yeah, this is true for me.
A form of light action I’m setting an intention to repolarize this within myself is to at least attempt light conversation with women that trigger this within me, to show the part of myself susceptible to this girl-nosis that no matter the woman, she’s still human and approachable.
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With that being the only objective, not to pursue anything outside of retraining
A customer gave us fifty dollars in order to move his old fridge to his garage. Easy.
I received another twenty dollar tip from another custom, so with the split of the previously mentioned fifty dollar bill, I got $45 in gratuity today. The same guy also wanted my contact information because he likes the way I work and says he could use me for gigs coming up.
I honestly didn’t give this a moment’s thought until now but the guy works with pretty well known people. A couple of months ago, he was on set working lighting for an Usher video. He works with Hollywood execs as well.
I’m really concerned with my priorities in not having realized I was in the presence of a guy that might be good to know…
I did end up getting his contact info and I texted him right when I got into the truck, so I didn’t totally fumble.
Today was a good work day, though it was easily the most I’ve had to do since I joined here. It was my first time in awhile doing a local route, and though there wasn’t three hours of driving there and back again, I still ended up clocking out at like almost 1835.
I clock in every morning at 0500.
I tend to get back at around 4 or 5 usually, but today was quite hectic with delays. We went to deliver to this one customer. This poor lady’s washer we were delivering had an offensively huge dent on the back of the washer, at the very top. Like, it was bad.
It looked like someone had sized it up very carefully, walked away and came back with a wooden bat and thwacked it three times superstitiously before shoving it over onto its back, picked it back up, apologized profusely, and proceeded to drop it on the side of the highway.
The lady was displeased.
Another lady, we delivered a 3 piece to her and we had got the dishwasher in, the range installed, and had lugged the dismayingly heavy refrigerator through the door and up the stairs, to find that the steel water line connector we were installing was just a smidgen too small to hook up to the water connection on the wall.
She took it better than the last woman, but she was understandably disappointed. As were my arms and back.
Nonetheless, with these and other minor annoyances, and having to manage the boxes and haul aways in the back of the truck, today was definitely iight. The temperature out here was ideal at 84° the entire day.
I also had the poorly covert attentions of a couple of wives today, which was mildly satisfying. A couple of (too young for me) girls also were fascinated with me in a way that made me unbomfortable, but we were at that stop only a short time.
When we did end up returning to the warehouse, the checkout girl complimented my lanyard. I’ve gotten a ridiculous amount of compliments on it from people in the last week I’ve been wearing it, which is awesome to me but leaves me somewhat bemused, cuz it’s a Naruto lanyard and while it’s a very popular show, I wouldn’t expect the people that have commented on it to do so.
I think I’m going to go to a every third day play schedule. The ‘head traffic’ I experience at times with Qv2 is manageable, but not something I want to constantly focus on clearing. I found that with the last few days of not playing subs and then playing them yesterday was a good move. It was kinda accidental…
But each day I just felt like…eh. Let’s give it another day. And I’m glad I did 
Somewhere in the distance, a proud man’s cry of jubilation is faintly heard ringing on…
More later.
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My coworker texted me last night, saying that we go in at 4:15 now, so I’m up at 3:30 from now on 
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just like that? starting from tomorrow?
sheesh.
hang in there, bruh.
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As of today (as we speak), yeah. I’m hoping there’s some silver lining lol
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Wise.
That increases the chances that you’ll find said silver lining by a hundred-fold.
Here at subliminal club, we make our own luck 
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Yeah, I try to ‘pretend’ that my higher self gives me challenging circumstances that turn out to be the best outcome for me in line with the highest good of myself and others, in order to (hopefully) manifest the same.
Nice that you caught on.
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Having not played anything yesterday, today I’m going to play a single loop of LDU on the way to Utah. (Edit: I’m not driving)
I’m in favor of following my new idea of:
Day 1: Stack
Day 2: rest
Day 3: Ultima booster (LDU)
Day 4: Stack
This plan will hopefully give me results as well as minimize the Looming.
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It struck me like a bolt of lightning yesterday that Spartan would be an excellent replacement core for the Primal core within the Son of Lightning. I have a new custom that I’m sitting on submitting that has Heartsong as its main driver. Whether or not I’ll have Primal in there remains to be seen.
I think the debate will come down to whether I want Primal or Sexual Mastery. I know the main store Primal title contains SM but as the support articles say…
"When building a custom, focus on which modules you want to include, and not whether a core contains a certain module. We cannot stress this enough. The submodules within a Q Core has been rescripted to support the goals of the Q Core, and not necessarily your entire custom. Of course, some effects will bleed through into the entire custom, but not including a particular module because it’s a submodule within a Q Core may lead to subpar results.
So, while a custom consisting of HS, Primal and SM would undoubtedly be potent, that’s way too much sexual focus for my objectives. That also removes my ability to have either PCC or IC in it, which is a no go. I haven’t decided which of those will be within my HS custom, but I decided when creating my first custom and reading on Inner Circle that its simply too powerful to not have.
I’m certain that were I to submit my custom draft as a support ticket that with HS, Primal, SM and IC that it would probably be approved depending on the modules but, one, I’m trying to avoid using 4 core customs and two, I take my subs kinda seriously and I’m not down for letting go of a car payment on an experiment.
Not yet, anyways 
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Do you know if there is a results enhancer that causes the contents of the core to support the whole custom? Is that sorta what Mosaic is good for?
She said, “Do you ever miss being aloone?”
I’m like, “Hell naw, I don’t.”
I’m not a big fan of country but I find myself listening to it more lately.
My girlfriend and I had an argument about whether I wanted her the other day and I got frustrated and hung up. As soon as I did, this song came on my YouTube. Like I said, I don’t care for country usually, but as I was returning to cleaning, feeling frustrated between screaming or crying in frustration, I heard that part.
I stopped and listened, marveled as always at instant manifestations, and texted her that song, saying “He says it better than I’ve ever known how”, and she thanked me and said that was perfect.
So Jason Aldean got me out of an annoying place.
I actually didn’t come on here to post that, I remembered it as I was typing this update:
As I’m listening to LDU, I suddenly had the calm desire to delete any and all bookmarks of erotic material. It was rather easy at first, till I started realizing just how many bookmarked sites I had. And THEN, I started coming up the videos I saved awhile back with that ‘perfect girl’ or ‘ideal hell yeah sex’. I deleted them with only slight misgivings, but those feelings helped me understand myself more.
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