Every time I ran it it very strictly made me go this process of figuring out which sub club titles suits me right now
Thatās interesting. That seems to fall in line with the āfinding your purposeā aspect.
Itās actually part of the script leading you to the most optimal Subliminal Club program that furthers your journey.
I think this part probably activates when the program indicates you are ready to move on or something.
I replaced my PS custom with the new S&S and have been using that since the day it came out.
Two of the girls that I have been consistently talking to both immediately seemed to āturn upā a notch in our correspondences.
For example, one of them has told me:
āAnything you need as a man, Iām going to provide as a woman.ā
āAs long as youāre fucking me, Iām going to give you anything you want.ā
āYou can have a girlfriend Iām not tripping but I want you to keep giving me that d*ck.ā
āIām going to bring girls for you for us to enjoy together.ā
And more.
The other one, the one I mentioned from church previously, was there today. Weāve been texting but havenāt seen each other since that last time a couple of weeks ago.
We went from casual flirting through text to things escalating, with it starting out cuz I told her that I like her lips and her responding that theyāre soft, to the point of her telling me that I need to be careful, or else āsheās gonna be giving my daddy a grand child.ā
She asked me if I wanted a kiss after church and being the wonderful guy I am I said at least one so after we got everybody settled in our respective duties, we walked around the church just bullshitting back and forth (she informed me that Iām ādangerous but in a way she likesā) then she stopped in front of me.
We stared at each other and she blushed and walked off but I stood there just grinning with my thumbs tucked in my pocket and waited for her to stop and look back, which she did. Then I slowly strolled up, taking each step with exaggerated care and stopped in front of her, grabbed her by the front of her shawl and pulled her in slowly while just staring at her.
She acted like she was gonna dip her head to escape me but I kept pulling ever so slowly till she tilted her head.
Can confirm, lips were soft
Running 3 minutes Smooth Operator, 3 minutes S&S, full AsC.
Hung out with my next door neighbor yesterday, just noting it here.
Damn youre doing good cinnamon bun
30 seconds S&S and WB custom.
Picked up Khan Black today. Ran 3 minutes of ST1.
Ran Khan St1 (3) and AsC (full) two days ago.
Deciding now if Iām going to add my customs to the mix yet.
Note: Did not play anything today.
3 minutes S&S and Khan Black ST1
How is KB going?
30 seconds - same two.
Itās been pretty neat.
The first day I played it, I recall feeling what many others have reported with the warm energy flowing, though mine was more localized in the genitals.
I also recall a nice sense of peace.
The next day after my first loop, on and off throughout the day I felt tremors in the testicles. āLurchingā is a word that comes to mind. As I was typing that I felt it again.
The other day when I was laying down simply observing the feeling and allowing whatever to come up to come, the feeling became damn near pleasurable.
Pornography, which I started sliding back into with WB and my WB custom, has no interest to me. I donāt think Iāve even been tempted to look, whether it be the mainstream websites or even checking out (peeking at) girls on Instagram.
My sexual desires are a bit āmuffledā. I wouldnāt call it a flatline, using a NoFap term. It feels to be more that theyāre regulated. Cordoned off/redirected/repurposed.
Iām also noticing my conversations with others are improving in a way Iām not sure how to describe.
Iām sure I have much much more and Iām glad you decided to ask my experience so far because Iāve been planning to journal on KB to note things while theyāre fresh but, alasā¦
Procrastination š«
I read this back again while gauging my physical and emotional response and there was literally no āblipā on any level of desire/temptation/urge.
Of course, this isnāt unexpected. I retain as a habit and I donāt normally watch it as it is but, I did go on a little binge on and off for a bit there.
Ran 3 minutes of the updated WB major title, running AsC 7 minutes.
3 minutes S&S, 3 KB.
Woke up this morning first the first time in awhile pulled into the desire for sex.
Church girl told me last night that she talked to her godmother about the fact that she thinks that because I have two kids, my stroke game must be on point and that sheās tryna fuck around and find out.
Got head from the one neighbor lady mentioned a few accounts up a few days. She got upset I didnāt cum. I did not
Ninji āzults!
Reconning today.
Being tempted to linger on my Explore page when suggestive content catches my peripheral, feeling sad when out and about with my parents and angry about something; not sure yet what.
Feel like isolating myself.
I donāt usually note recon as much anymore but, as of typing the past couple of words, something feels like it lifted/lightened already.
3 minutes of updated Wanted Black this morning.
My kids mom texted me saying that there is no one around our kids anymore, that he āpassed this morning.ā
Iām taking it with a grain of salt as Iāve never seen the guy and it could be one of those damned manipulation tactics but, I have in the past been through the emotional ringer based off of what people ācloseā to me - those Iāve been close to, weāre distant physically and emotionally now - and just before that text came through, I had sat myself down in my room for a good little private weeping session.
I feel a bit better now.