Nihil Me Terret Quam Fortissimus

Phoenix · May 14, 2025, 4:58am

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I was out too early for the day, I spent time disassembling and assembling the bike a sponsor gave to me that unfortunately broke during a triathlon race. It looks alright now I give it a ride to my newly established travel lounge away from a bus terminal. Usually it is the terminal where business is ideal, I argue that was an old narrative - I don’t like to eat or feel relax if everything is moving fast or when my mind is still spinning from the trip. That’s why I put up a travel lounge a little far away from the terminals. It is not the first one, I am confident that it will click.

Curious with the other topic, I was intrigue with the way competition are done (election, pageant, or even in business). This is intended to highlight the paucity of losing one’s life to the pursuit of fame and fortune, to ideas of ‘winning and losing. Many people would often seek fame rather than wisdom. In the election for example a candidate can distribute money to influence people to vote for them, fame can do that. I have done that without even costing a fortune, so what is the best choice fame or power?

Fame, if used with the correct motive, can influence people, and it influences people to get to know themselves. But if you had power you can acquire fame.

Both power and fame can influence, control people but there is one thing unique to them which is integrity. If someone does not have integrity then everything he or she do don’t make sense.

Even if we have the power which requires enormous energy that would drained all our strength whenever we loss our integrity.

At the end of the game, all the pieces go into the same box.

Phoenix · May 16, 2025, 12:49am

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In the past I used to have fear of taking risk whether it is financial, relationship, etc. - I tried that many times but only regret it a hundred fold - now it is different, I would try a lot even if I know that it will surely fail, but out of those failings, riding on the coaster ride I seem to enjoy the danger and the more I had it the more I’m getting good at it not getting used to it. I become the masterpiece of doing the best even if everyone else consider it hopeless.

I learn quickly but it is even more potent that I know myself doing things that needs planning before getting it done.

In political scene for example, you need to have a good political background in order to convince people to choose you. I may have the influence from my business circle but fame is unnecessary (I do not like to be popular). I listened to advice from elders and when I talk I assert issues direct to the point and don’t repeat mistakes from the past. That is what happen in our society, lawmakers are not up to serving but protecting their own interest, protecting their people but not the masses.

I don’t walk on street to protest but I make sure my presence is big enough for them to be blinded, I guarantee my smell will suffocate them and will always remember me in their nightmares.

No, I’m no longer the rebellious type, just the kind of person who loves to help people in need.

Today I am juggling my time to fit on the conflict schedules they offer me.

I still have slow morning, I never rush for work but sometimes noon is a boiling point where I need to release the steam a little bit. On those little break time I had where I get so tired I used that time to reach out to people who are in need of basic needs and I have done these for many times, I get to recharge my batteries even if I didn’t get a short nap. That’s the secret I been doing.

Phoenix · May 17, 2025, 10:41am

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If I had to compare between Emperor and Khan, I would say (as I’ve been switching two months exclusive) - In Khan I end up like a playboy always with beautiful women on both arms and I always have quarrels with my own girlfriends, it makes me really sexually tired, it makes even more fun if I mixed it with Wanted Black and Diamond.

Emperor is more reserved, I used to spend my time in one of my restaurants - using what I know from previous interaction with friends, I switched to modular configuration so I can arrange it to the way people won’t get bored seeing the same setup forever, it change it’s color like a Chameleons and I don’t like to discriminate with people but I disappoint troublemakers.

Most business I had is in autopilot, I only intervene during a storm, I love to spend most of my time outdoors camping with my nephews and nieces. Since still I don’t have a home on my own I sleep at a friends yacht in which I had good times, then I tried a real fisherman old boat - it took five days for me to get some real sleep (probably my body has no choice but to sleep).

According to one of my girlfriend I am now an official Nomad - a person with no permanent address.

Phoenix · May 19, 2025, 12:33am

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It may be observed that when we feel bad the world will slow down, we spiral and some things are against us (it gives us a hard time), and when we feel good everything will go faster, we sync with our world.

My martial arts teacher keeps reminding me to always breath in and out - and how can you do that if it wasn’t your focus, how would that even be possible if your losing a fight.

In one of swordsmanship - a sword wielding style that emphasizes on the opening strike and high stances. The wind breathing, a breathing style that mimics the wind, and replicates it with the martial artists movements, techniques and abilities. I often regard this as fictional just like in Naruto anime series. But when the martial artist on years of practice, wind breathing while constantly visualizing themselves seemingly creating and manipulating wind when unleashing its techniques - increases strength, then by utilizing fast rotating movements to generate swift whirlwind-like slashes while utilizing the air around them to deliver a blow towards an opponent - it actually gives one a more chance of winning than losing a fight. Even if it isn’t for a fight, doing will bend the current reality to side with you.

Breathing balances the body both internally and externally. Internally, it balances the body by moving solid, liquid, and gaseous particles present within the body, from high concentration areas to low concentration areas. This balance of the human body is known as homeostasis, which is extremely important for living a healthy, long, and a meaningful life. This homeostatic balance in the human body is most effectively achieved by breathing, which enables humans to live.

It balances the body by helping to regulate energy and maintaining the body’s center of gravity in everyday normal activities, by moving the body mass, from high concentration areas to low concentration areas. The objective is to make both the areas have equal concentrations, and thus, make them balanced. This balanced state of the body creates an internal environment that is constant and does not fluctuate. This constantly balanced internal environment of the body is a state of optimal functioning of the human body, and it signifies perfect health. Achieving homeostasis is the ultimate health objective of all living organisms and all medical systems of the world. And breathing is the foundation on which this mansion of perfect balance of the body is built.

I have noticed these in several gyms both domestic and abroad, people on the younger age are easily becomes tired and they keep drinking those energy drinks - that according to them keeps them ‘healthy’ and always on the move (but in reality rather the opposite).

In one of the Tai chi sessions with 70+ years old who moves like a snail but they never showing to slow down, they only have is this tasteless tea or just an ordinary water.

It is crucial for us humans to connect with nature otherwise we be draining most of the time and not knowing it.

Phoenix · May 25, 2025, 5:38am

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A Tiger Shark isn’t really that cute, it’s full of hate from the very start of it’s life.

It hatches with teeth ready for combat.

And uses them immediately

Especially the sand tiger shark

Its embryos develop inside the uterus

Multiple eggs are fertilized

But only one survives

The strongest embryo grows faster

Then it hunts and consumes its siblings in the womb

This is called intrauterine cannibalism

The survivor is born fully formed

Armed

And already victorious

Reproduction isn’t always birth, sometimes it’s elimination first.

Phoenix · May 26, 2025, 12:38am

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Martial arts teaches us to overcome adversity in Life. It forges an unbreakable warrior spirit within us. It keeps us optimistic even in the toughest moments. It empowers us to take control of our life.
We are warriors! We are unbreakable!

The cleaners took a day off, they had a good job making sure the place is well taken care of. We have lots of activities, it was the most full-of-fun and sweats of all the summer since I took the leadership role of this lonely place. Next month would be the start of another academic years but we are grateful to have a great number of students taking afternoon and evening classes.

The Tai Chi group are very keen on my presence - I do not know what their up this time, I am not anxious but it looks like their anticipating great things to happen. I bought them new chiropractor equipment with professional personnel for them enjoy but this will be a surprise.

Phoenix · May 30, 2025, 12:25am

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Martial arts is one of those rare pursuits that will give back exactly, and only, what we put in.

The way is training. There are NO secrets, NO shortcuts, NO excuses only passion, dedication and pain is a part of martial arts training.

All my ears are wide open to hearing out advice from fellow teachers, I am also careful where to share my energies into. Its good to have a circle of friend where you can enjoy having common interest with and solving problems together.

Everyone is unique we simply needs to embrace those things.

The kids are sharing their school projects with me.

The Tai Chi are a bit different but they have their own way of sharing their wisdom to the world - most people have coined the name for them - grand masters.

Phoenix · May 31, 2025, 11:20pm

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I have a lot of productive conversation with my martial art disciples today, often times they like to asked the same questions and I know they wanted an elaborate answer.

“I want to be like ‘him’ - I wanted to become just like you.”

“I wanted to fight like a real martial artists.”

So I told them.

We don’t train in martial arts to fight or to be better than others.

We train ourselves to be strong so that we are able to help others to do the same.

We respect one another.

We believe in discipline in reaching our goals.

We believe in compassion and kindness.

Then people will not judge your silence for ignorance, your calmness for acceptance, or kindness for weakness.