I’ve gone back and forth about staying with stage 1 or moving to stage 2. Sticking with Khan TB is something I might do.
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I’m still feeling Khan ZP Stage 1 working on me. I think there is a lot in me that needs to be sorted out before anything else. I will go with Khan TB for another cycle.
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Woke up this morning feeling Khan ZP Stage 1 working strongly. The rest days really are important because that is when the sub really does its thing. During my first cycle I was listening to 2 loops every other day. I will be trying 1 loop instead, already listened to it this morning.
ZP is truly powerful. I listened to 1 loop of Khan ZP Stage 1 yesterday morning and I am feeling it really strongly right now. Not sure how to describe but almost like my mind is sharp and sluggish at the same time and maybe focused and unfocused. Something is being worked out, not sure what.
Edit; I was hoping that typing this out would help in clearing up the recon and it did 
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Khan ZP Stage is definitely digging away at things. Had sleep paralysis last night. The form of recon that I am dealing with more than anything else is the desire to switch. I now its recon because it does eventually disappear. Woke up this morning feeling the sub working, feeling something clear now. Haven’t listened to my loop yet for the day, will do that a little later.
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Felt pretty chill today, woke up feeling decent. Just feeling a bit impatient for results and still feeling the urge to switch but that comes and goes so I know that is recon as well.
Listened to 1 loop of Khan ZP Stage 1 in the morning, recon hit me that night. Had thoughts of stopping Khan and switching to a different stack. In the end I decided to go to bed and sleep it off. Woke up a bit groggy with some recon fog but ready to stay on the Khan path.
With Khan ZP Stage 1, I feel myself changing and maturing. I am looking at certain things and asking myself “Why did I do that, say that, drive like that?” Things which I used to do such as watching youtube or anime is still appealing but not as much as it used to be. Porn is something I am just not into anymore and and fapping feels gross now. These 2 things have been such a big part of my life that it feels weird not having it to occupy my time. Not complaining though, it is for the best.
Edit; Feeling a little anxious right now, kinda energetic. I think quite a bit is happening in me right now, either something has been released or is about to be released. I also have that feeling of breathing in really fresh air.
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I think you’re starting to reach the high point of the hill so you’re starting to see what lies ahead
Keep going you’re on the right path!
I’m glad you decide to kept going and delay the gratification of mooving through a stage, you’re reaping more of it’s reward, now ease yourself into your well deserved result just keep the observation of yourself, it’s going to show more and more you can be sure of it
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Thanks @Melior , Stage 1 has been quite the ride. I might move to Stage 2 at the end of this cycle or I may go another cycle with Stage 1. Still early days.
Last night I had karate and it felt good getting that work out in. I am not in the best shape but still felt the need to keep going even though I had to pace myself. Today I’m feeling the opposite of what I felt yesterday. I felt a bit anxious and amped but now I’m feeling pretty chill and laid back.
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The office was busy yesterday and with Khan ZP Stage 1, that day couldn’t finish fast enough. Wanted to go straight home and almost did but the front tires on my car need changing and balancing. Went to the garage and did that then forced myself to stop at the supermarket to get somethings I forgot the last time. By the time I reached home I was tired but proud of myself slightly for not putting those things off.
Rest day today and felt a headache coming on this morning. Turned into a full headache when I reached the office but I feel it starting to subside and I feel something be cleared.
Spoke a little too soon about the PMO. Porn feels gross but still fell victim to the desire to fap; once on Saturday and once on Sunday morning. From Sunday Afternoon up to now I haven’t felt the desire. Today is a listening day but haven’t had time to listen to the loop of Khan ZP Stage 1 yet. That being said I am feeling it work right now. I feel almost like my brain is enjoying a gentle cool breeze if that makes sense. Also feel like I’m breathing in really fresh air. Might take today and tomorrow as rest days since I did get headaches twice over the weekend as well.
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Decided to listen to the loop last night while I slept, found it hard to fall asleep though. I have also been waking up early in the mornings I forgot to mention. Currently in the office, the air from the AC smells quite fresh as usual when I’m listening to subs. I guess its the feeling that something was processed.
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Recon gets me in the form of impatience, sadness, the feeling that I am missing out and memories from the past that I haven’t thought about in a while (things said and done). The form of recon that persists is the desire to switch subs. It fades after maybe a half an hour or so but it always pops up. The feeling I get when it finally passes though always feels good.
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This morning I felt a big release and I’m still feeling it now, it feels good, I’m pretty chill right now. Not sure what healed for me but I’m not complaining. I’m glad I stuck it out with Khan ZP Stage 1.
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When I was on WANTED I meet a girl who at the end of the day never liked me. I pulled the plug and blocked her on everything. I just got a notification from Instagram that she wants to message me and now I feel shook. Has anyone experienced this on Khan Stage 1 before?
Edit: I’m in reconciliation. She can’t even message me because I blocked her on everything. The message from instagram is only that she wants to message me, and that is all it took. SMH
Edit 2: The recon is starting to pass. I got through it.
Can’t put a feeling on what it is I am feeling right now. The best way I can describe it is that I am okay and not okay at the same time and hopefully things tilt over to being fully okay.
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Okay so I spoke to her, and the conversation was brief but civilized. She apologized to me, explained that she just had a terrible time in Jamaica (I have to admit, she did) and she said she wanted to come back. I told her I couldn’t help her come back and she said she understood. I told her if things changed I would let her know. I can’t say I trust her but if nothing else the conversation helped me with a release. Its a little embarrassing to admit that I was that hurt but yeah I was. I forgive her.
Edit: The whole thing had me fantasizing about stacking WANTED and PCC, but it faded. Reconciliation I tell you.
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Been starting to feel real sexual for a while now. Sad to say I gave in to the urge to fap this morning. Interesting I was just packing some things into the car when the gardener complimented me on my cologne. Been wearing the same cologne for over a year now. First time anyone has said anything.
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