Ascended Mogul. Definitely. All the way.
@robocop You can only afford one program right now. Ascended Mogul (AM) is the one that will give you the most bang for your buck.
On the one hand, it will start to strengthen your internal frame and structure. On the other hand, you’ll strangely start finding money and money-making opportunities opening up for you.
(Actually, I would have recommended RICH as your first program, but I think you may need the Ascension element in AM to help you take action.)
I’d say this:
Run 1 play period of AM. That’s 21 days of alternate day listening, followed by 5 subliminal-free ‘processing days’. Know this: the rest days when you’re not actively playing a subliminal are equally important, sometimes MORE important than the days when you’re exposing yourself to it.
Keep writing here during those 26 days. Complain. Philosophize. Whatever. Just express yourself. For the more private stuff, keep an offline journal.
See what happens moneywise. Try not to be desperate; just curious. As much as you are dissatisfied and numb at your parents’ place right now, it does nevertheless provide you with a safe place to incubate. And @robocop, Incubation is exactly what you’ve now started to do. This may sound far-fetched right now, but it’s going to be good.
Run AM and you will find that over the next 2-3 play periods, some money will come. Probably not the freaking lottery, but some money. It may “come” in the form of the idea to mow somebody’s lawn or pick up deliveries or you may just get some weird gifts or opportunities.
Once you get enough of that money to buy a 2nd subliminal, I’d invest in Regeneration.
Now the idea will be to do 2 play periods of Ascended Mogul and then alternate with 1 play period of Regeneration. Or you may choose to alternate 1 play-period AM to 1 play-period Regen. I’d use 2 on Ascended Mogul right now, though. You need a bunch of strengthening and you could use some encouragement. AM will help with that. Regeneration will help from the other direction. It will open up your heart and begin reminding you what you care about and that you are a feeling human being.
Gradually those two programs will meet in the middle. Your opportunities will grow and your heart will be a bit more whole. You’ll also feel a bit tougher, more resilient, and able to cope with a bit more. That will help you to get out there and find some activities that feed your soul and others that feed your wallet. It might be slow, but it’ll happen.
In the meantime, as you get enough money to buy a third subliminal, I’d recommend that you invest in RICH. RICH is, essentially, a free money subliminal. I know. Crazy. Anyway, that’s what it is. Now that your situation is improving, you’ll benefit from having a bit more money flowing in. In addition, RICH can be your Free Subliminal Plan because you can use the money it attracts for you to buy all of your future programs.
Once you get to that point, it may be somewhere from October or November 2022 to January or February 2023. You’re feeling a bit better, still frustrated, but the anger goes outward more often than being directed at yourself all the time. You’ve found that you can create some opportunities for yourself. You’ve realized that no damn letters can tell you who you are better than your own heart and mind can. Not ADD, not PhD, not ASD, not HSP, not DSM-5. Fuck those letters. Only listen to them if they help you to live your life in some way. Otherwise, who cares. Every single one of those letters describes some people who are doing great and some other people who are doing terribly.
As your strength grows, so will your ability to transcend some of these categories. But don’t worry about that. In the meantime, keep learning to fight smart. You can do that even before you are able to fight strong.
Everybody has needs. When they’re not met, we get tired and uncomfortable. And then we go numb. All your past experiences mean is that you’re freaking human. And that same humanity is going to help get you out of this mess.
Okay. Back to the point.
So, 4-6 months in, you’re feeling strong and frustrated-but-cooler than you were before. Now, it’s time to turn to something like Emperor. I’d give Emperor a couple of months to keep that growth going, and that’s when shock time comes; because you’ll start to not recognize who you were 8 months before . No biggie. Happens all the time here.
Throughout all of this, there’ll be a bunch of confusion, desperation, hope, discouragement, and some nice little bank change rolling in. Your intuition about the subliminals will be growing until one day you’ll look up out of your front door and see this:
and that’s when you’ll know…
And we’ll see you then.
Next chapter of the adventure.
In the meantime, journal online and offline through the whole process. Complain. Brag. Celebrate. Mourn. It’s all good. But stay engaged.
You will get there. It will happen.