Today was my last listening day for CFW solo. 21 days complete, now for a 5 day wash out.
Things I noticed since I started. (This is my first sub w/subclub)
My worry reduced a lot.
Anxiety reduced a lot.
I’ve felt numb or indifferent but in a positive way. Maybe internally impervious?
A lot of mini scenarios or situations appear in my mind and my self talk is consistently positive. (I’ve always been pessimistic and cynical)
Less effected stress, I see what’s stressful but it doesn’t get to me anymore.
I stopped chasing things…goals, priorities, desires. More content and a feeling of “it’ll happen, I’ll get there, relax”.
Impulsivity and compulsive behaviors dramatically reduced.
I struggled with comfort eating/stress eating which didn’t stop until about 15 days in. I had a binge then the anxiety and desire died. I’m now on a juice fast for past 7 days.
Everyday since starting has been positive or at least neutral. No bad moods.
Emotional regulation for sure. My mind just feels less noisy, like it’s been cleaned out.
A sense of quiet calm. Less fear in uneasy or tense situations. I’m Less reactive internally.
Things just don’t bother me as much as they used to. I’m really grateful for this as I’ve always been sensitive to stimuli. Having ocd since diagnosed at 8 years old.
I plan to continue with CFW after the 5 days washout and add regeneration.