It’s weird reading the description for subliminals offered by others because I truly believe that what Sub Club does best is strip away all the bullshit and fantastical stuff to help you become the best version of you possible.
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My wife has said many times before that I have PTSD which is probably true but every time I run Rebirth the anxiety is unreal
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Have you seen a professional therapist with whom you have a good connection? If you have such a heavy reaction there might be a bit more deep trauma work to be done.
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Not yet but I plan to
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I will start going to one again upcoming weeks/months, I’m sure it’ll help. Even though I postponed it a long time. Remember it’s YOU that’s important, that means keeping up with your mental and physical landscape.
The fact you might have found a core issue is already more awareness than most people have. I highly recommend seeing a professional(and even better if you go through several ones to see who you connect with best). Remember, therapeutic success lays a lot in the ability to trust your therapist and work with him.
I am not sure what’s going on with you, PTSD personally from reading your journal I am not 100% sure. But you do have some deeper laying stuff, that might be too much to handle by yourself.
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Yes, I would definitely consider professional therapy in this case. The script of Rebirth is urging you to reframe past traumatic experiences from “this is holding me back,” to “I can use this as a source of power and motivation.”
Some experiences, however, may be TOO traumatic and your subconscious may have a hard time finding the “good” in it.
The anxiety itself is most likely caused by your subconscious not wanting to let go of this experience, as you’ve based your identity on it for so long.
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PTSD, in my experience with others coming from rough backgrounds, is very misunderstood. Many associate it with external events like war, rape, and physical abuse. And even to people unfamiliar with such backgrounds can say “something is different about him”. External factors are just one reason for PTSD.
For example, I’ve had some sexual abuse by a male family member, a one-time event, and lately I’ve had old bodily memories emerge. It’s not disabling for me, but I’ve been very “aware” around other males when in close proximity.
I ignored this for years. Then, one day , I decided to jump onto the recovery wagon, almost 20 years ago. And my bodily memories and emotions absolutely sabotaged me making progress. I’ve been through maybe 5 therapists. How could I speak of–and release–the fears I’d been using to “protect” myself. Talking about it encouraged hiding, minimizing my pain, and even denying it to myself. Handling this on a conscious level has not helped me. It takes brass balls and a ton of support to handle this in my conscious thoughts. (For years I’ve fantasized about a weekend or week-long healing experience) However, I’ve found subliminals much, much, much easier, for I don’t get in my own way. I’ve felt my internal resistance to facing feelings and fears associated with old memories, and I’ve moved farther with subliminals than any other healing modality. Living any day without fighting myself in healing is a treasured day for me. Those I seek; thus, Rebirth.
@James, I’d move slowly and carefully were I you in taking active steps to handle this. Ask for help from people who have been where you’re at. And guard yourself as much as you need to. Your subconscious is protecting your conscious mind from things it feels are dangerous to your existence, for your thought life is where you live day in and day out. .You’re not alone.
One of my biggest challenges of my past was the continual emotional abandonment I faced. I’m crying now, just remembering those feelings. People ignoring or coldly dismissing my emotional needs prompted me to expect others would also get irritated quickly when I had such needs. I have higher trust levels now, but I was an absolute recluse after moving away from my home. I was safe being alone, and I lived there. But seeing others who had joy with others touched me. I wanted that. My first recovery experiences were in a counselor’s office, then in Al-Anon, a group for families of alcoholics. It had rules which applied to everyone. Noone could correct me or interrupt while I was speaking. And though I was in my 20’s then, I felt extremely young. For I wanted to be real. And I soaked up those experiences. Lots of little successes I had while sharing, and lots of failings, I thought. Like sharing what I knew would be accepted vs. my real truth. Sometimes, I was just…surviving. Surviving was all I knew at that time. No kidding.
@James,… … you’re not alone. And you could feel proud of being so aware of your weaknesses. Our culture does not foster emotional healing much, as denial promotes more “productivity” in life. Well, a miserable productivity, from my experience. You are on a healing journey, not a destination. Look over your change, for even your present words are not as anxious and uncertain as months back. You ARE making progress!
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I think that’s a really good sign for you. I know the feeling must be absolutely miserable, but I’ve experienced intense anxiety, frustration, anger and loss of self-esteem right before huge breakthroughs since running Emperor. Seeing a therapist for your PTSD would be very good for you but I believe you’re making major progress.
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Copied from a reply to another thread. I thought I would update
I have been listening to Rebirth twice daily and Mogul V2 since its release. I just added Ascension V2 in a stack that I’m going to run with Mogul V2. I’m still feeling a bit anxious but nowhere near as much. I’m definitely not feeling stress like I did even a few days ago. The main downside if it can be called one is that I have literally lost interest in everything that isn’t moving me closer to my goals. Television , movies, YouTube, or the net just bore the absolute fuck out of me now.
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Because as I have mentioned before that my finances or current lack of is my biggest priority I changed my journal name to reflect this. I have been running Mogul V2 for no less than eight hours a day. Often beyond that. I have been running Mogul V2 since its release. Some days in a stack but now entirely by itself
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I agree, a Beyond Mogul Supercharger would be cool 
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Even more focused than ever on achieving my financial goals. Everything feels like a complete waste of time. I don’t think I have ever felt this focused or determined in my entire life. As cliche as that sounds it is still true.
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That’s great @James
I find that letting Mogul V2 run in alternation with Primal makes the results more balanced, so you’re both focused on financial goals, but you appreciate connecting with people and seducing girls.
If, someday, you want that balance, you may want to introduce Primal to your Mogul list 
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@AMASH I’m happily married so I have zero desire to be with anyone else . My reason for wanting to run Primal is more about the relaxed confidence and knowing everything will be ok. I’m over and done with stressing out about whatever. To get back in touch with what Robert Bly describes as " The Wild Man".
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Not sure how many days in I am with Mogul V2 but I continue to listen daily as much as possible. Like I keep saying I continue to or have lost complete interest in anything not related to achieving my goals
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I’ve added a few loops of Ascencion V2 to my listening. It has been a beautiful choice as I feel like I’m about to finally hit that point at almost 51 years old where I have finally learned to be fine being me and not give a fuck about trying to impress other people or what they think. I was asking myself earlier why I even care?
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It’s an awesome feeling and it drives the haters crazy!!
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