My Mental Software Updates

13/09/25 - Washout Day 1
14/09/25 - Washout Day 2
15/09/25 - Washout Day 3
Cycle Day 1, 16/09/25 - Wanted 3.30, RotNW 45s
Cycle Day 2, 17/09/25

New cycle time and trying out a title I wanted to try for a while, RotNW

I think Wanted was definitely shining more yesterday but I think a few more loops of RotNW will give me a rough idea of what it is like

I think I’ll drop GLM for now as there is a few titles I want to try before making customs of the areas I want to focus on. And dropping it for now gives me a bit of flexibility

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Cycle Day 3, 18/09/25 - Wanted 4.15, RotNW 1.00

Anti-recon feels different on Wanted. On GLM it is sort of detach and observe. On Wanted it is more stop trying to control the outcome

One thing I’ve noticed on Wanted is that immediately my attention and energy shifts towards my eyes. There becomes a sort of warm calmness I feel there. A very relaxed gaze

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Cycle Day 4, 19/09/25 - Rest
Cycle Day 5, 18/09/25 - Wanted 3.45, RotNW 1.00

Went through a ton of recon yesterday. Irritable. Argued with my girlfriend. Wasn’t my best moment but I could tell something was being worked on and released

Felt much better by the evening as my emotions stabilised

Was wondering if to listen today but my mind felt clear. Slightly lowered Wanted exposure this time

I am missing GLM’s anti-recon as it allowed me to be more detached but it is what it is

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You mean the detachment scripting in GLM? The anti-recon is all of the new titles, including Wanted which you are still running. But GLM really does a lot with putting distance between your calm Self and the turmoil of your emotions, it is really great for that.
Also, the scripting is processed for a long time in my experience. You were running it last week, so it is likely still processing and might be sort of the in the “background” for quiet some time. I think I saw Saint mention that it could be active for months on end, even when you stop actively listening to loops.

Yeah that’s the one, it seemed to work really well with the anti-recon

Not sure why I’m not noticing as much this week but I do suspect it could be that a few titles are catching up on the execution including KBST1

I’ll give it another week before I think about if I should build a custom with GLM and Wanted or if that was just a one off heavy day for me

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Cycle Day 6, 21/09/25 - Rest
Cycle Day 7, 22/09/25 - Wanted 3.45, RotNW 45s

Yesterday was much, much better in terms of reconcilliation.

Overall, a good day. Was at a tradeshow and found myself interacting with a lot of women in general.

I’m becoming more relaxed and comfortable bantering with women I’ve just met

IOIs are just becoming my norm

Even though I wasn’t even looking my best (my girlfriend commented I looked like a hobo with my unshaved look and out of bed hair :laughing: it didn’t affect me I still felt attractive)

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Thought this was a cool reminder for when we go through reconciliation

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Cycle Day 8, 23/09/25 - Rest
Cycle Day 9, 24/09/25 - Wanted 3.45, RotNW 1.30

I’ve been looking at how to create a custom for a while. Trying to decide how to stramline my stack have a bigger focus on manifestations.

I’ve been noticing a lot of manifestations have actually been happening in my life but I’ve not really been paying attention to them

RotNW seems to add an extra layer of smoothness to Wanted. Still feel like Wanted is doing the main driving of this stack which is fine by me as I wanted RotNW to just be an auxiliary in case I wanted to drop it

Recon is fine. Noticed I had a very sexual lucid dream last night though. It was almost a wet dream, I was laying in bed and multiple women would climb on top of me and have sex with me one after the other. Not sure how it almost became a wet dream as i haven’t been abstaining at all

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Cycle Day 10, 25/09/25 - Rest

Noticing the effects are carrying over into the second day which is pretty nice. It is usually the second day after listening that I start to feel a bit of anxiety creeping in

But I am actually pretty impressed with how much I am getting from this cycle already

Still going through the little obsession over building a custom. Tinkering and swapping modules in a spreadsheet I have. Pretty sure this is one of my forms of reconciliation but c’est la vie. I’ll take that over feeling miserable or something :joy:

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Reminder for myself on how NSE cores work

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Cycle Day 11, 26/09/25 - Wanted 3.45, RotNW 2.00
Cycle Day 12, 27/09/25 - Rest
Cycle Day 13, 25/09/25 - Wanted 4.00, RotNW 45s

Noticing recon was creeping in the more I increased RotNW. It was mostly anxiety and it was blocking what I feel Wanted wanting to express itself

Have dropped it back down to 45s so my mind can breath a sigh of relief

Have been toying pretty obsessively on the direction I want to go with my subliminals. I want to keep wanted but also boost my manifestation capabilities

I also want Wanted to be in full affect for a wedding I need to go to at the end of next month

So, can’t do custom as it usually take a month or so for me to feel them properly

This leaves Name Embed. But do I module it with Divine Dominion or leave it as it is.

If I leave it as it is I can have a direct comparison of how much better Name Embedding is for me compared to normal titles

But with Divine Dominion it is more stackable and longer lasting…

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Cycle Day 14, 29/09/25 - Rest

I actually thought of adding this journal last night because a thought occurred to me. There is this module called Naturalizer in the q store:-

I kind of realised this on reflection last night, all the changes that have happened over the past year feel like this module

You just sort of realise “Oh yeah… so that is changed about me. Forgot I used to think/act like that…”

Like I am a different person but I couldn’t say there was one big moment where I totally transformed. Just a lot over time

Interesting to realise that…

Something I’ve realised too is that my thoughts about sex have actually really gone down this cycle. Not sure if that is the bloom of KBST1 or effects of RotNW

Porn doesn’t seem to interest me. I actually loaded it up as a test last night and thought Huh? Unless I choose to PMO I am completely okay and disinterested in looking at this

Might be a temporary feeling or my brain actually rewiring itself, who knows

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Pulled the trigger on this custom:

WANTED Core
Revelation of the Nectar Within
Experimental ZPU Anti-Recon
Void of Creation
Pragya
Jupiter
Omnidimensional
Inner Voice
Epigenetics & DNA Modulator
Auric Overdriver
The Architect
Energetic Development XI
Joie de Vivre
Gratitude Embodiment
Direct Influencing Aura
Synergy: Primordial Aura
Synergy: Beyond Connection
Synergy: Beyond Seduction
Synergy: Secrets of Seduction
Synergy: Perfection Manifestation

Should give me enough flexibility to run main store titles on the side

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Cycle Day 15, 30/09/25 - Wanted 4.15, RotNW 1.05, Asc Ch 30s

  • Anxiety kicking in :white_check_mark:
  • Feeling needy and unnatractive :white_check_mark:
  • Feeling the need to change subs :white_check_mark:
  • Feeling the need for results to be faster :white_check_mark:
  • Getting annoyed at myself for feeling this way :white_check_mark:

Ah, don’t you just love recon

I thought I would listen to Asc Ch as it is something that gives me results a little while after I’ve listened in forms of strange synchronicities

It does give me recon though. The above I was feeling the day before as well

Its a result enhancer though so was curious how it would affect my stack

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Cycle Day 16, 01/10/25 - Rest
I’ll just have to let this feeling pass. Wanted started out outstanding for me but gradually this recon has been phasing in. Not sure if its RotNW or if something is being worked on at a deeper level

Its annoying phase where you just sort of have to weather the storm and trust the process

I do feel annoyed because I was doing so well but c’est la vie. Something needs to heal I am guessing

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Really liked this post, so putting it here

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Remember the temptation to quit is strongest just before you’re about to succeed…
Your survival brain is slick, it will say anything it needs to take you out of the game…

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