I haven’t done pmo for a few days, I did it again today, and now I have to deal with addiction.
I once thought I had beaten it, but I fell into the same trap again.
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A bit of unsolicited advice here: NEVER think that you have beaten PMO unless you have abstained for more than a year or more. This addiction is weird that way because just when you think that you beat it, it does a full frontal attack on your senses.
I once abstained for 2 months and thought that I have beaten this addiction. But in a few days it felt like someone took control of my senses and did the deed.
I just had strange dream. I was hallucinating.fuxk.i was scared,I was screaming in my dream and after this I had 2 more dreams that I remember, different dream.well 3… I don’t know why I had such a dream.
Yesterday I read sth about dmtx but ironically what I read is dmt doesnt have this effect on mind,and I saw some allien thing on twitter. Is that why I had this dream? I dunno. But rn time is 3.22 am and I don’t have sleep too much. I am writing this
And also I have too much to write that I have been procrastinating about ten days,more than ten
is it true still
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I am not writing for a long and will I able to regularly write here don’t think so much.
I don’t have much time now.- though I wasn’t writing when I had free time-Cause I have job for the first time in my life. I didn’t want to sit idle at home.i need make money I am 20(funny though nobody believe that I am 20 cause people say I am lookin like child,baby-face, …but no.) and I am away from home.so I am busy and I have been studying additionally since the day I started the job.
This year will be important for me And I also want to say that it’s going to be hard. I said this because when I said this people may say itis self-fulfilling prophecy( that’s what I was thinking too)
but no it will be tough I admit that.
I have a lot to write. But i can’t write now all of them maybe I never will all of them .cuz some of them very personal . Here’s what will I say:
I failed at uni entrance exam(exam for go to university) cuz I didn’t study properly. I ran limitless executive for this and I didn’t see any significant effect any. The funny part of it, that a few days after the exam was over, I felt the urge to study.and I never felt urge like this before the exam
But what confuses me more… spirituality.
This confused me for the last few weeks
I need to write. Because when I don’t write, then I see other people writing similar things to what I think on the forum and it feels weird.i have to write as soon as insight, realizations come to my mind.but probably i’wont do that.
And right now I’m not running any subs for ten days.
I was planning to buy paragon but at the moment I am undecided. I am at worksite now and I am staying here. I can’t go home. So I don’t want to deal with side effects if there are any in Paragon. I wanna now is there any physical side effects is paragon
And I will receive my first salary in August. That time I am also planning to buy LotS.
Actually I wanna buy Alchemist but it’s very expensive for me. This morning I was thinking Alchemist, Dragon Reborn:limit destroyer and paragon would be good stack for me maybe it would be heavy idk
And funny thing a few months befor this I wrote this “I feel my self like a dragon in chains. And I need to break this chains” in my offline journal. And today Dragon Reborn:Limit destroyer released
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For a few days later uni exam results will be published and my family say go this etc. But i am not gonna do that yeah even with that I can go uni and i can do that last year too but no I can’t I now I have potential I don’t wanna waste in 4 years at medicore bad university.
My family and people around me will put pressure on me to go to university but i am not gonna do that no.the thing that I fear my family and relatives will say stupid things and i can get pissed of. I don’t wanna break anybody’s heart.
I have to study this year properly. I have to,must to
I I started studying, but most important thing to achieve this exam consistency. İ have to ensure that
And i have to very clear my goals. But still I don’t have any clear life purpose
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I was reading kybalion before I started the job and now I can’t read the book since then. I don’t have much time and energy to read if I have energy i am using for this to study
And also have very good books to read I don’t know which one to read.
Probably I am gonna read kybalion now
After ten days washout last night I listened LBfH, probably I will stack with Ascension
And I don’t know why I don have energy today. I feel exhausted
And forgot to say i’ve been clean nearly a month (no pmo)(I don’t know exact number). And like 2 years ago I read the book called “easy peasy way to quit porn”. Actually I didn’t read all book,but after this I didn’t pmo for 6 months. it was very good book. And i should read this book again. But atm i don’t have time or energy for this
you check out Genesis?
cheers pergen
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Yeah I look at this,but i don’t know it doesn’t resonate me so much now. Actually I think RoM would be much better for me, this sounds more appealing to me. If I begin university this year maybe I could run genesis. But right now I don’t think so much.
The results of the university exam have not been announced yet. but I know that my results will not be good and I will prepare again to go to the university I want.so I wanna sub right now that I can focus more my inner life,my mind,reveal mysteries.And also RoM has something like mathematic module.
And in sales page it says find your purpose etc so It would probably be better for me.but I know also it says RoM an advanced title. Maybe that’s why it would be much better for me to run this title with DR: Limit Destroyer
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Never allow your fear to dictate your life.
Prior to taking my board exam in engineering I dreamed of having a huge party but I don’t know what that party is all about. I give that some meaning (always stay on a happy feeling ). On the exam day I prayed, thankful for having passed the exam with a big score.
I bought a newspaper on the day results will be released, I could not find my name on it but I cannot explained the beating of my heart. I look again, scanning right to the bottom - it reads, “nothing follows” but right next to the few spaces it says, “continue to page x” so I go to that page. It is a list of deferred examinee, I was barely 21 years old when I took the exam - I can take it but I can’t practice the profession yet. And I saw my name on the list.
LBFH Love is distinct to everything, because it has no limitation. Once triggered you may not find a word to explain it.
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4-5 ago I was studying good but for the last few days my performance has dropped. It could be lack of nutrition.cause at the moment I’m working at a job an it is 10 hours 7 days. I can’t pay attention to my nutrition.hopefully I’ll go home this weekend, and i will bring some healthy things
i can hardly focus my studies here.but i wanted it to be like this. I’m 20 and i have to make money somehow.i am thinking of working this summer at least.it would be enough for me
İ said nutrition.but i am just studying geometry and mathematic(algebra) right now,so might be bored just studying theese.
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i feel pretty fucking exhausted.but i have to keep pushing.but at least generally Iam healthy.
I’m grateful for that I know how important this is
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I know how that feels. 
There aren’t any side effects as such. But When you listen to it depending on person to person, it would either energize you or make you really sleepy. So first see how you react to it and then plan your listening time accordingly.
I know what you mean that is the same thing I have decided too.
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Thank you
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i didn’t buy new program right now maybe I can buy in a few days but actually I wait August 20 cuz this day I will get my first salary.i can’t get this month because I begin job lately for this,but they will give money when I want quit.
Actually, 2-3 days ago I had a fantasy to run 4 programs: Ascension,RoM,Paragon,LotS.
it would be fantastic if could run these at the same time.i could run them for a long time.
And even five i want to add DR: Limit Destroyer
DR:Limit Destroyer is what I need.it would solve many of my problems,obstacles alongside other programs
i want Ascension and RoM to basically find myself , to give a direction to my life, gaining power … for ascension 
And obviously i want Paragon and LotS for pyshicsal change. İ don’t wanna deal health problems during my journey. And atm i have some minor and major problems to solve.
And i want LotS to be more handsome.most of all I want this for my hair. (i am not bald though).And i don’t find myself ugly actually people says I am handsome Especially 2-3 days ago when I was getting my hair cut, people were telling me I am handsome.but honestly I didn’t care much about it.it is not important for me what people says about this
i don’t find myself very handsome or ugly.
Also When i ran LBfH like 2-3 months ago although there was no physical change, I was constantly looking in the mirror and thinking I was handsome. i am running LbFH again and finding my self handsome again sometimes when I’ am on LBfH I pay more attention to my appearance. it is really beautiful sub
I said I want LotS most of all for my hair because I know if I lose my hair i will look bad.my head is not suitable for this.it wont go well with me. i am not balding now but i want more fully hair.My hair has been a little thin since I was born.
And maybe when I get home i start going to the gym like September-October.
And i want run DR:Limit Destroyer to defeat everything holding me back, all the limitations…
To get more results from the subliminals actually from life.i want them to execute properly, flawlessly to my life
I said I want run 4-5 subs at the same time. isn’t that even a limit even it is for general safety.
i actually want run Ascension,RoM, Paragon and LotS. Can they work together? As i right above I am thinking each 2 subs for my 2 goals