My Journey to the Unknown 🙇

Journals - Major Programs
#64

22nd day -Rest day
°Woke up early morning by 5.10am I couldn’t sleep again I had to read my physiology, I noticed this started since I started running Am.
•I ran up to 300pushups seriously energy was insane!!
•Headaches started up to 3hrs I had to use binural beats from Brain FM, I tried sleeping but I couldn’t.
•I noticed I started seeing the beauty in women like I come to like them not on sexual levels,I can’t even explain.
•Am seriously worried about how to do about my Copywriting skills…I even started rewriting great Copywriting ads in swipe .com to make them become part of me.
•i started feeling euphoric at some point
•i started feeling empty and sad , always thirsty and drinking water.

#65

23rd day
•Woke up early as @5.08am with a strong Erection.
•I Ran around 120pushups, upper body aches mostly.
•My friend wanted to borrow money from me, I had to meet my guy who has , to close the deal with interest of 50% within next week.

•After successful transfer I mistakenly transferred $20 to my simcard, seriously I didn’t even know how that happened, I have to call the customer care to know if I can reverse it back but they said No!! I had to share it to another Mtn user and the person will give me cash, it took long after going around the streets and finally found a friend who helped me convert it to cash again with 20% as his commission.
1 Loop of Ascending Mogul**
• I noticed am more aware in my environment looking at females like I have seen them before, most of them looks at me weirdly as if they have seen me somewhere.

•After walking around for a long time looking for who to share the airtime to, I went to bank and later back to my room to meet the guy I transferred money to , he called me telling me I should send my account Number that he has to return the money that he didn’t use it , seriously :roll_eyes: I has like I taught you said next week you will give me back with interest? We argued on the matter for long and later I agreed for him to send to money to the guy that sent the money, I realized so people can’t keep their words.

•Stayed up to 24hrs again without eating because of tight schedules.
• I rewrote a great copy written by Gary Halbert on my handwriting and read it out loud for the skill to become part of me , I learned it from BORON LETTERS
•I experienced Headaches after some mins running the subliminal.

#66

24th day …Rest day**
•Woke up early around 5.18am.
•I ran 200 pushups with Short rest intervals
•Left my room for some school fees and payment, noticed am more calm and energetic, a girl caught looking at her many times at a point she asked me why I was looking at her😌 I just replied you looked so Xute.

•I noticed my aura makes girls Fear and even some guys too, some see me and start hailing me .

√I seem to be more direct and clear even to my senior colleagues in medicine.
• I tend to kind of manipulate guys I stay with to my liking, to get them do what I want.

•Still more focused on learning how Sales works and left my medical studies for some days now…I hope this won’t continue when we resume fully.
• I noticed am more free and living like am in the present.

•Played FIFA with my classmates up to 2hrs .

#67

25th day
Woke up around 6.50am, though I woke up around 2.00pm with Strong urge to urinate.
I Wanted to skip gym but decided to just go there and look even if I dont gym.
1 LOOP OF ASCENDING MOGUL.
•Left for gym around 8.00am, reaching there I started bench press and started listening to Am subliminal with my earbuds, I lasted for 1hrs 30mins in Gym center.

•Came back took shower, started feeling calm and collected, few minutes later -Headaches kicks in I had to push through my plans on Copywriting (to rewrite one great copy everyday)

•Started feeling sleepy, slept off during afternoon to ease headache , woke up after 2hrs .
•Grabbed one medical material we did last semester to reread and grab the concepts well.

•I noticed I barely answer questions about why I do things asked by my mates, at a point I noticed that some questions are just supposed to be left unanswered.

•Currently am broke like shit due to unforeseen circumstances concerning medical school and the university.
The system just uses the students to generate money, I cant even boost of next week source of Survival, though this is happening I noticed am a bit unconcerned…why ?

•I notice am no more external validated especially to women .

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#68

I have this feeling too. Been running Ascended Mogul Qv2 and now in a custom for a couple of months.

I briefly saw some other points in your previous entries. It seems that internal changes are happening to you (for the better). Keep it up.

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#69

26th day: Rest day
Woke up around 4.30am , I had to study my book a bit before I zoom off for morning jogging.
At 5.30am I left for jogging, jogged about 30mins and came back on foot after about an hour.

•Started experiencing tons of headaches, today’s experience was crazy, I persisted to rewrite a dollar letter bill by Gary halbert which lasted for about 2hrs, actually it wasn’t easy to copy under heavy headache and brain fog but I had to.

•After the rewriting of the copy I had to take a nap which lasted for 2hrs ,while sleeping I dreamt , series of dreams I can’t even recall , the last one I did recall --people trying to pull me out of a room I struggled to stay in that room with these set of people dragging me out , finally I resisted and our hands broke even, I woke immediately breathing heavily!!

•Started revising my last semester medical materials to let them stick better…am planning adding limitless to my stack after 3months solely on AM.
•In the process of studying I planned to only revise one chapter, bit I kept on saying let me read this last one until I found myself reading up to 5 chapters.

•I noticed am more direct and clear when It comes to telling people what I wanted.
•People complaining am Sarcastic :roll_eyes: both men and women :thinking:.

•Noticed the feeling of watching Porn and masturbating is gone.
•Am always in my head thinking of what I could do to learn sales or become a better self.

•One of my fellow reported I somehow looked like mark zukerberg which I doubted,I went to the mirror to check out myself.

• My brain tricked me, I was watching selfconquering latest video on YouTube and I came across a woman tweaking video from there I started browsing about tweaking videos at a point I started watching porn, I was just skipping around one porn website looking for tweak videos , I started downloading tons of them which I couldn’t calm down to watch, I was just fast forwarding the videos and later deleted them, a voice in my head shouting at me, man this is FAKE if I continue like this am going lose my accumulated energy I have under my dantain

I slept off because my phone went off … woke up the next day and started watching porn again ,I started hating the hardcore porn I loved before, it looks unreal , I dived into softcore watched about 3hrs looking for my fix…bit I couldn’t see myself masturbating to it…I deleted all

•In my head I was looking for a new perfect porn to watch ,at a point I noticed it’s all the same thing, I want to master my sexuality, .I have spent tons of bills to get rid of this idea of watching pornography, one of the reasons I purchased Am.

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#70

27th day : Rest day
Woke up late , started endlessly browsing porn…for like 3hr, exhausted all my data.
•I ran up to 150pushups
•Started revising my books (medical materials) lasted for like 3hrs .
•Went to take my bath :relaxed: with my phone started with one particular porn I have masturbated with for like 10times I redownloaded it and jerked off with it.:disappointed_relieved: I noticed some sort of release but I was still energetic unlike before when I cum I feel weak and wasted. I also noticed my semen was very thick and plenty .
•After taking my bath I continued studies and last about 2hrs and headaches sets in even up till now as am typing this.
•Started feeling empty within me
•Currently playing PES 2020 with my classmates.

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#71

28th day
1 loop of Ascending Mogul
• Woke up early today 5.30am, went back to sleep with plans of visiting the gym today later woke up around 6.30.
•Postponed visiting the gym and ran pushups up to 250 in 40times for set interval .
•Left for school around 9.30am , I kinda notice I walk like one that owns the world.

•Strong female eye contact when my eyes meet with them , some girls will look at me and won’t take away their eyes, at a point I had to go to the mirror and check myself out. I noticed female wanted my attention mostly through negative means like argument, trying for look for trouble.

•I noticed am more open, outspoken and direct.
•i kinda feel feminine energy more like seems all girls I saw today look more beautiful or something.

•Erectile contraction with no sexual thoughts, even a feminine sound or voice makes my dick spike up.

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#72

29th day : Rest day
Woke up @6.00 am , started getting myself ready for gym,left around 7.00am which lasted for like 1hr 30mins.
•Meet one female classmate who started asking my name because I said Hi.
•Consistent headaches, I had to push through and still rewrite a copy by Gary halbert.

•Slept to Ease the headaches, I started dreaming when I woke up I can remember a bit of them but now I can’t remember shit, I don’t know why this happens :thinking:.

•Started studying physiology (medical textbook) which am still currently on as am typing this .
•I experience so sort of mental pain in my head the come and go in a short moment.
•I noticed I love teaching people what I learnt and flow more easily with my words.

•I also noticed I more connected to the environment and feel feminine energy than I do before, like women voice, air around me , even music give me some kind of vibes .

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#73

Day@30
•Nothing much… started watching porn lasted up to 3hrs, masturbated and slept off.
•Woke up late around 8.00am
Started watching porn again lasted for about 3hrs masturbated and stayed indoors throughout.
•Read my medical books after my masturbating session… slept off and woke up again to continue my studies.
*1 loop of Ascending Mogul
•Stayed at home thoughout today.
•Feeling of emptiness, pain all over my muscles radiating fro. different angles, I think its due to the gym I went to yesterday.
•Feeling of energetic Even after masturbating, noticed my sperm is a lot thicker and more in quantity.
•Read at least about 6hrs today due the slides our lecturer dropped is voluminous I had to finish it up before I sleep again.

#74

Day 31:Rest day
Watched porn staying awake up till 3.00am before I slept off.
Woke up late around 9.00am, I skipped lectures stayed at home,cooked my own meal and enjoyed it at home.
•Left outside am scared to go to, because I masturbated that day I have this feeling that my aura will reduce anytime I masturbate so I prefer staying indoors after the act. Left outside I noticed female attraction and my aura still radiates confidence knowing within me that I fucked up that day.
•So far I have been lazy rewriting copy I planned to do everyday, but I still read my medical books regardless,you must read everyday or else they will pile up which you might no finish before exams. So my motto is No stone is left unturned No Procrastination.
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#75

Day 32
1 loop of Ascending Mogul,1 loop of Executive.

•Woke up around to study my books,I ran 1 loop of Am while reading my biochemistry note. My studies lasted for about 3hrs.

•Went back to sleep @4.30am woke up around 6.00am full of energy and vigor but I found it hard to run my daily 200pushups. I had to break it into morning and afternoon session.
•Ran 100pushups in morning and 100 in the afternoon.

•Am always finding ways to correct people mistakes :joy: mostly those that operate on bad mindset or try to teach them when I had an idea of something related.People kind of get angry when I try to correct them.

•I noticed I now prefer to say in quiet environment and accumulate as much information as possible, either my watching on online YouTube guru or reading on book or the other.
•Recently stopped rewriting copies due to school overload,I had to compensate on other day.
•My life is kinda confused that I don’t even know how I am now . Seems my belief systems is no longer mine.

•My aura still makes people around me not able to talk to me or fear me or some sort of look me in a weird way.
•Planning to purchase a sexual energy mastery course to master my emotions as a man.

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#76

People don’t like to be told what to do. This is the ego trying to protect it self. If they don’t appreciate your input, best not to wast your time then.

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#77

8 days after…
Went back to school medical school is mentally taxing… materials to read here and there put am putting through.
So far I have been keeping up with one loop a day , a day off .
•Last week I have been experiencing broke(no money) I even find it hard to subscribe for data.
What I noticed so far
•Increased energy
•Postive vibes
•More aligned with feminine energy and nature.
•Depression and sadness, mood swings.
•More mental clarity.
•Trying to divulge more into mysteries and a some point discovering them, but I do pay to get that though.

#78

41 day …
1 Loop of Ascending Mogul
•Woke up early around 6.00am left for gym around 7.00am and spent 1hr 30mins there…
energy was massive and lesser reconciliation on my muscles. Am planning on eating 3hard boiled eggs every day to increase my muscle growth anybody reading this who has an idea should inform me on this.

•State of euphoria in my head like plenty rush of dopamine even when am just reading.
•Read my medical books at least for 4hrs today
•Girls I stare into there eyes look at me weirdly.

•I noticed am have more retentive memory maybe this is a semen retention benefit.
•I noticed I love to teach people what I know or learnt somewhere.
•Planning to play PES 2020 as am currently trying this but my inner self is shouting at me that it’s been long I practiced my Copywriting skills.

#79

42nd Day…Rest day
Woke up by 5.30am felt reluctant to go to church slept off again and woke up @ 7.00am.

•I took a short prayer in my mind, brushed my teeth and started reading (medical books) with no food in my stomach I read like about 5hrs with 30minutes Break with full concentration playing a 432hz sound in the background.I ate around 1.00pm.

•I went to barb my hair,took my bath and hanged out with one of my classmates that has been calling me , so I decided to feed her my attention. The hanging out went well but I came to understand that she has a different sexual taste according to her she’s saying she doesn’t like sex or dick , but I still don’t believe her because women don’t even know what they wanted.

•It came to reach the extent of her touching me playfully .
•Came back took a bit of dry gin ate dinner and slept off.

#80

43rd day
•Woke up early around 5.30am , ran 100pushups and left for school.
•I noticed a whole lot of Bliss coursing through my head , feeling like my head wanted to fly.
•Confident and attractive
•Also taking trying to teach on thing I learnt or other.
•Respect from my fellow me and also some trying to bring me down.
•Left for gym in the evening but the 80kg I used to carry is so heavy that I need to switch to 70kg. Body pains is on its peak due the former gym session.
•Spent about 3hrs on my medical materials and slept off on study.

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#81

52nd day… previous days with a day off a day on.
•It been Al long time updating this journal, school schedules are too tight.

•Am planning to updating my journal in week intervals to cope up with school and also focus more on offline journal which am about to start.

•I dreamt a scary dream one of this days since my absence here , they was a rampage in my school soilders everywhere and we students are on restriction not to move around, I wasn’t around when the restriction exercise started so I was outside, I came back to see that everywhere was locked I had to go to safer place on my way I met one security personnels he called me to discipline me for not obeying the rules,he started act weird at some point I caught him with my hands and hit his head on a big tree killing him instantly, the remaining sexuality personnel was trying to escape I caught him too and killed him, I woke up immediately after killing these two men.

•Am always asking myself questions in my head that most times I don’t even know the answers.

•Am able to manage my emotions so far, seems the sexual energy mastery course I bought might play a role.

•Increased confidence and feminine attraction.

•Increased mental clarity.

#82

So far so good 60th day
•i always Wake up early , I sleep 5hrs at night and I wake up with pulsing energy due to that I need to do some physical activities (pushups) to feel at ease or else it will be like I had a growth in my dantain.

•The feminine fears me even when I speak to them , eye contact is very crazy with them.

•My fellow men respects me or greets me when I just stare into their eyes.

•I Dream almost everyday most which I can’t recall.

•I experienced a weird feeling yesterday when I woke up I felt like my ears are blocked by a big pipe but the funny thing is that I can still hear. I tried using Sexual energy God consiciousness affirmation track to know if the feeling will dissipate but it didn’t. After taking my bath it reduced to the minimum which later fade off completely during the day.

•I’m more comfortable in my own skin
•I’m more present and able to disidentify myself from my urges so far semen retention has been great.

•I noticed increased memory and alertness.

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#83

Today 1 loop of Ascending Mogul
•Am more easy flowing
• Women are more behaving weirdly towards me,one of them calling me a macho Man yet coming to me and telling me that am becoming more masculine why ? I couldn’t answer that question.

•Strong penile erections sometimes unwanted one.

•Started asking myself why am in a relationship with a woman I don’t even how how she operates on normal ground.

•Decided to stop argument with friends because it brings enemity and haters because people don’t like hearing the truth.

•Starting thinking about writing a book with not specific title in my head.
•Feeling somehow like I need to drink water all the time.

•Hate watching movies to the core, now I have much time for myself but I spent most of it reading medical books which I want to devote some into other creative endeavors.