My Journey to Olympus

[Apollo]

Cycle 19, Day 2: Rest

I didn’t have it in me to write on my journal as much, I’ve been running Emperor, and right now I’m still deciding between that and Khan.

I attended an event today and my mind was elsewhere.

I was feeling some anxiety, some rumination’s and I couldn’t focus on the now. In my mind, I wanted to be elsewhere.

I probably wasn’t trying too hard, I simply didn’t think much about the present.

It was a disservice to myself. It’s a moment I can not get back, and yet I was letting it slip by.

I wasn’t appreciating the moment.

That is until a performance came up, and with that a lovely song.

It caught my attention, and warped me back to where I’m supposed to be. I was finally in the present.

I found myself humming along until eventually I was immersed. I dropped everything, every baggage, every noise, so that I can enjoy it unhindered. I wouldn’t let anything else disrupt my enjoyment.

I found myself singing along(not disruptive, not my style), without any worry for much else.

I was simply enjoying the moment, the tones, the melody, the lyrics and the talents of the performers.

Music is a vehicle for the divine to touch my heart when I’m too closed off that nothing gets through.

ABBA is right, thank you indeed for the music.

I have to give credit to RoM which I ran on my last cycle, and which I’m tempted again to run this time, but life goes on and material issues are… well issues.

In any case I ran Khan yesterday, and it’s probably why I am journaling now.

That’s the thing with Emperor and my personality; I still have the tendency to retreat in my head, which is something I’ll try to mitigate with a custom, along with some of the newly released modules which I’m excited to try.

[Apollo]

Cycle 21, Day 7: Khan custom, HoM (all ZPv2)

I seemed to have been having some recon with ZPv2, and earlier today I decided to run both titles, 7 minutes each.

Seems to be working well for me. I feel pretty enthusiastic, optimistic, I also find myself more social, and less overthinking.

One thing very noticeable, (though I have seen this in every ZPv2 customs I own that contain Khan, Wanted, Emperor or the majors) is the improvement in the sexual department.

Felt like a champ. I remember using these words back then on Emperor Q, but this champ can beat that champ.

SM is alive and well in Khan ZPv2. Love it.

Now for wealth stuff.

[Apollo]

Cycle 21, Day 8: Rest

Still on the fence on my current stack, but so far it’s helping me be more social and focus more on the positive. The bright side of life so to speak.

I didn’t want to run a heavy stack and if I notice some substantial recon, then I might have to trim down the stack once again.

So far I’m liking HoM ZPv2, as it makes me feel more social and I want the wealth scripting. The demeanor of HoM (if it’s there) might also temper my (at times) tendency to gravitate towards sex on Khan.

It’s good, but not a priority. Khan I believe is much more.

I don’t think I have ever combined Emperor and Khan, but it’s not something I’m considering at this point. It could be too much.

Still thinking it through, and I’m open to running other titles I haven’t tried extensively in the past if it will help me find what I’m looking for.

Wealth, health, success and peace of mind.

The courage, discipline and internal strength to carry on and go forward.

My true talents if it’s in there.

As I understood it, there are several titles and combinations to attain that. What I’d like to figure out is which titles work the best with me.

I’ll have one more go with Stark for the wealth opportunities, talents and the intelligence boost. Crossing my fingers of that.

Stark almost always gave me recon in the past, but perhaps in ZPv2 I’ll have a better time.

AM is also a candidate that I’m looking into if my current stack isn’t for me and the new Sanguine Elixir.

That said “this” looking into other titles might also be a form of recon so I need to be aware of that.

[Apollo]

Cycle 21, Day 10: Rest

End of the month so bills pile up. What can I say. Aside from that, so far I’m feeling better than I did the past few weeks.

I think I made a good choice with these particular customs (Chosen-Khan-Wanted centered). I keep coming back to them even though I have made some iterations after.

A part of me wants to reserve one spot for QL, perhaps if I was intelligent, productive and talented enough, things would be so much more different.

However, it is with that same reason why I am leaning towards EoG as well.

Clearing negative manifestations on ST1 would be nice. I wonder if Rich and others has that feature. That would be very helpful.

So the plan is two customs, then EoG.

So far I still need to figure out the best runtime for me on ZPv2.

I feel it’s more powerful, or at least the message it wants to deliver is permeating my mind a bit faster. At least faster than what I was accustomed to on ZPv1 320. (And that’s great)

I have a Stark custom on standby. Aside from the marvelous recent reviews of our brothers here, I was drawn to it to help me find a way.

A way out of predicaments and a way in, myself.

Find talents in there that could have been dormant, if there’s one.

There has been some things said, and circumstances that happened in my life that I wish never did, and I want to conquer that wound.

Be that as it may, in my heart, I want the best life for those around me. I have always wanted a win win situation, and to be a force for good. Someone big enough to make a positive difference, and that will always remain.

I’m looking forward to the planned Commander/Chosen (or GLM).

I enjoy Chosen, but I’m still looking for a… hmm a more accurate word escapes me… but less selfless version.

More wealth, more status, more dominant, more attraction, more intelligent version.

Perhaps I can let go of Khan at that point (not easy, sexual performance is great on Khan)

I find positivity, courage and hope drives me more to stay in this squared circle of life. Why? It’s been scarce where I am in. It’s a light on the other side of a long tunnel.

A beacon even, or a lighthouse. Like Ulysses guiding his way home.

I don’t wish to be an angry man, nor to take away from others. I want to be a good man, a strong and a successful man, but with the strength and ability to defang vipers along the path to my own Olympus.

[Apollo]

Cycle 22, Day 6: Custom, RoM (5 mins each)

Cut my other cycle short to make way for this custom, EoG ST1 and RoM.

Only running it for 5 minutes to see how ZPv2 affects me with lessened runtime compared with ZPv1.

The more I read about RoM the more I am drawn to it. It has so many objectives I desire to incorporate into my life.

Gratitude
Stillness of mind
Productivity
Intelligence
Courage and bravery to tackle the unknown, or perhaps even peek through and have a glimpse of the arcane and many more.

I’m not very spiritual, but when the body and mind suffers, I feel so does the spirit.

Or perhaps it’s the other way around?

That said, I have RoM in there to help me in this journey of the mind and the spirit. (At least before I am able to pair it with RoS)

I’m observing myself, my thoughts, manifestations and simple nudges with this custom.

I wanted to name it Santiago, as an homage to a shepherd searching for a treasure and meaning in his life.

I hope the combination gels with me, it’s been a while since I ran AM and it’s not a title I’ve ran as extensively as Emperor, Khan or even Stark.

On another note, I was already planning to run RoM the 6th day of this cycle and last night I believe I’ve had some Presults.

It was not intentional and I was only looking for something to keep my mind off things and yet the topics of Stoicism, Taosim and various philosophies from Descartes to Musashi appeared continuously on my feed and indeed I was intrigued.

After the 6th or so video I realized, hmm this must be a presult of RoM which made me smile.

I was not intentionally looking for it and there I was, if only for a short amount time, captivated by these videos.

It will take more reflection and understanding but some of what has been said quickly resonated with me.

Lastly, I couldn’t wait to enjoy music again as I did the last time I ran RoM.

The divine touches my heart through music when nothing else gets through and the noise and the muck is too much out there, and like the painting of Adam reaching out to the Father, mine is too.

[Apollo]

Cycle 24, Day 12: Emperor, HoM

Will probably cut this cycle short in order to let my mind rest and focus on this stack.

Initial effects, I noticed my voice became deeper.

Something I did not notice on AM.

I feel pretty good right now, somewhat stoic, more solid.

Khan still felt the best in this regard, as it added that somewhat playful and alpha, winner mindset.

I have things to deal with and yet somehow my mind is like repelling self-defeating or stressful thoughts.

I like that.

Stack is very promising, but I’m considering adding LoTS for the physical, and health benefits.

I tried Genesis once, but the recon I felt from that is similar with Stark.

I’ll run it again in the future, one loop is certainly not enough to form a concrete conclusion if it gels well with me or not. The reviews are excellent and the description is nothing short of amazing.

That said Chosen is still that one title that seems to gel with me the most, the effects are almost instantaneous.

I’m also reading very good results from Khan Black. I have it, and will run it once I feel things in my life are more stable.

More energy, more self control, transmutation, charisma and a solid self-image and self-esteem. Definitely a title for the ages.

[Apollo]

Cycle 25, Day 3: Khan Black St1, Ultimate Programmer Ux (5 minutes each)

I’ll probably try 7 minutes next time, but so far so good.

As for recon, it’s very manageable. Just some slight head pressure that went away quickly from the custom (5 mins) on the first day, and feeling a bit low on energy today, as if I’m sleepy.

Nothing a fresh cup of black coffee, or a hearty meal later on won’t fix.

Off to attend an event.

[Apollo]

Cycle 25, Day 6: Rest

Probably recon but feeling the urge to take a step back, shut up and just focus, not only on myself, my life but also what sub I’m going to run.

Perhaps I should just stick to one title for now, and go from there.

2-3 years ago that would have been unthinkable for me, I felt like a kid in a candy store, I justified most titles I could find.

I need this, I need that, I must have this, oh no this stack is incomplete without that. Blah blah blah.

The mind is so wonderful that it can generate the best and smartest of ideas, and at the same time the dumbest mental chatters.

There are lots of things going on in my life, constant pressures and whatnot, harsh words within and without, past mistakes coming out of the woodwork, so the external world is certainly not helping the internal.

I’ve had some moments of bliss, and then I’m reminded of that external, so that takes away from my energy.

I’m feeling some anger as of now, some melancholy, but I couldn’t explain if it’s anger with myself, some people, or just life in general.

Recon to be sure. Noting it here for my future reference, and a reminder to keep it together, focus, and life goes on.

And more rest. Oh yep.

Addendum:
Don’t know if this recon is from any of the titles I’m running in particular, like I said my external is crap to begin with, but that being said I have been retaining sexually, just to add a boost to my inner strength, and I have done it pretty successfully so that’s good.

[Apollo]

Cycle 25: Day : Khan Black ST1 (5 mins)

Not sure which is which but I’m leaning towards this title being the catalyst that helped me quit smoking once again. It’s been a week or so since I last smoked cigarettes so that’s good.

Emperor Black helped me quit almost instantaneously perhaps due to the added willpower or strength of mind that it tackles.

The habit is not only useless but detrimental, and therefore it needs to go.

Wish I thought that way all the time, but in this life, there are moments of weakness but then moments of strengths. I’m running subs for more moments of strengths and victories.

KB probably helped me in a different way from EB, perhaps not only mentally but also energetically.

As it cleanses or breaks down blockages in my energetic channels, it may have had a hand in pushing myself to quit a vice that is certainly making me feel weaker, both physically and mentally, and perhaps even spiritually. All I know is it’s a crutch to an imaginary equilibrium that needs reinforcement a pack a day.

The push from the KB ST1 could have had a role in my improving self-esteem, energy and mental clarity. All good ingredients to set one’s mind straight and quit any vice much easier.

P.S.
After some obvious recon the last time I journaled, I will continue with this title, 5 mins probably ran alone in a run day, while I’m also observing my custom which has some modules like Cosmic Wealth etc that I’ve never tried before, but I feel is starting to give me some results.

(KB might have also had a hand in this btw… to my knowledge, more energy, more beneficial and on point manifestations)

I’m seeing some improvements in the wealth department… I’m trying to be objective but I might have found what I’ve been looking for all this time, so finger’s crossed.

I’ve almost always added FSRS or Sultan in my customs, and I don’t see myself spiritual; This is my first custom that has this module but I’m pleasantly surprised by Cosmic Wealth.

—

Quiet, the King Speaks.

Oh yes.

I had some not so noble and toxic people in my orbit for several months that has made life extremely unpleasant, stressful and almost unbearable, but now a week or two into this cycle and I don’t see or hear as much from these people.

It’s been very minimal lately, if any and what a respite it is.

Wonderful silence indeed.

Stack is promising and the future is exciting.

[Apollo]

Cycle 25, Day 16: Rest

Quick notes.

Not sure if LoTS in my custom but I joined a running marathon. It was fun but am I out of shape. I definitely need more improvement.

I feel very good. Exhausted yet exhilarated.

Several varying degrees of IOI’s. I’d say, almost everywhere I go there’s one or two, or more, that would show an obvious interest.

I’m very appreciative of the feminine beauty. One of the aspects that Khan rekindles in me, and which I like.

Noticed a lot of respect, or VIP vibes. Not in all interactions but the majority.

I wasn’t too much in my head, anxious, stressed, thinking about problems and whatnot. I felt light and carefree for the most part.

Spent some money. Within reason, but didn’t give a damn. (Don’t regret it in the morning, please)

Irked by someone I know. It was justified, I didn’t overreact but reasonably expressed my dislike. All is well, and I was in the right.

Was told I “glow” or it’s though as if I had a spotlight on me which I found amusing when I’ve heard it before.

It’s not the first time I’ve been told this. One instance, I had Ethereal Presence in my custom.

I don’t have it now in my current custom, but I heard it again today. King’s Radiance perhaps or maybe even Khan itself, or Khan Black.

Majority of my interactions are pleasant, and my confidence, assertiveness and social ability during the day was steady, and internally I felt pretty solid.

It’s not just all fun and recreation, I am also noticing an increase in my productivity. When I work, I focus on nothing else.

It’s not tedious. I want to finish my task not for the sake of simply finishing it and moving onto something else.

I’m genuinely fulfilled handling a task as best as I could, giving it my undivided attention and knowing the work I did commensurates with what I am capable of. No corners cut, no shoddy work.

It feels very good to be internally solid and at peace, while being relentlessly productive.

And here I was considering if I should quit KB for the next cycle. Tsk tsk tsk.

Here’s your answer Apollo old boy.

P.S.

Thought this was going to be a short snippet because I’m pretty tired, and here I am typing away.

[Apollo]

Cycle 25, Day 19: Rest

A mixed day but a very eventful day nonetheless.

Something happened and it was not good. I offered help but I felt a person close to me sort of tried to manipulate me into doing something I didn’t want to and tried to pressure me. I got angry and some words have been said.

Anyway moving on from that. I second guessed if I will share this, but it was something that made me think, and it made me feel; And so it should have a spot in my journal, even as a tiny snippet of my inner thoughts, and an insight for future me to ponder once I read back.

I went out and had a meal, a person, probably a teenager or early 20’s with disability came in and gave cards to the diners to explain his situation, and asked for some financial assistance.

Some did and some didn’t.

Situations like these breaks my heart, because I do believe in a higher power, and at times it makes me question why.

I gave what I could. I know it’s not enough, I wanted to give more but I hope it will at least pay for a meal or two.

The world can be cold and cruel out there, but there are still those who have warmth and kindness in their hearts and I hope people who needs it will find more of that on their journey.

I know some of those close to me will say charity isn’t help blah blah blah. I don’t care for opinions like that. Life is too short, either you help your don’t. I want to help, and I will in ways I can and want to.

As the day went on, I felt very little to almost no social anxiety in my dealings with people. I felt relaxed and as the Khan had promised, unabashedly myself, and how good does that feel.

I actually did something I didn’t think I would be able to… or at least it was very unlikely cause I’m quite “shy” to do it. I probably looked like a tool doing it, but I didn’t care, I had fun and I felt great.

Unabashedly myself… oh yes.

It’s wonderful what a few minutes of an audio can do to one’s inner world. I’ve always liked Q, it’s effective and well made, but ZP is definitely special.

The light comes from within, and it grows as time goes by. I feel the ember that is in me is getting stronger and stronger, and the future looks bright.

Only caveat is one must find the right title. At least I think so.

I didn’t feel this way towards every ZP title I ran, but the ones that gelled with me… what a joy.

Last day tomorrow and then onto rest days.

Addendum:
10 mins seems to give me recon that day, but the effects are excellent the next day.

7-8 mins is my sweet spot at the moment, even when running heavy titles.

[Apollo]

Cycle 26, Day 16: Rest

Recon.

I’m looking forward to ending this cycle, and hoping the next stages will rejuvenate me once again.

Just like how I felt with DR, I feel like I’m paying my dues, and I’m clearing up what needs to be cleared.

That said I’m not very much into healing at this point in time, but I suppose it had to be done.

I don’t like the general thoughts I have in my head right now, and the winner mindset isn’t as pronounced as the last one.

The sparks of Joie de vivre is still there and makes my days more enjoyable, but it’s dwindled for the time being.

Now for a common recon; title FOMO.

A part of me also wants to try WB, though I still have have some questions at the moment, and if it’s the most optimal title for me at present.

I’m also not discounting the fact that both my hesitation, and even the strong desire to run it is brought about by recon itself.

I like the idea of being so Wanted and getting my pick anytime I want. Always did, and yet as does everyone have their own motivations and wants, I’m increasingly pickier with those I want to be involved with.

I recall it’s one of the reasons why I switched out PS, because I felt a great desire to boost my numbers.

It’s great, and it’s perfect if that’s what I want to do at the time. Perhaps in my teens or 20’s that would have been my go to. What a blast.

Anyway PS will always be there, ready, locked and loaded when I feel like it.

I’m not young anymore and money issue is still the sword of Damocles hanging over my head. So a title mainly focused on seduction isn’t a priority.

A title mainly focused on being desired, getting what you want, looking your best, feeling your best, being wanted, respected and appreciated, I suppose is almost always a benefit in any goal.

Anyway I digress.

There is something about WB and the results I’m reading that piques the interest of my primal desires.

I hope I’d see a similar boost in Khan and Chosen when they get updated to ZPv2 max or QTKS levels.

So far, among Emperor, Stark and AM; Khan and Chosen are the titles that gelled the most with me and made me feel the most alive.

I still don’t feel that way towards EoG, but I’m giving it time.

All the being said, this is my second cycle with this Chosen/Khan custom, and so far this is the best candidate for my first QTKS custom when I’m ready and able.

EoG let’s go.

[Apollo]

Cycle 26, Day 19: Khan Black ST2 (3 mins)

I did it.

Almost done with this cycle without letting go of KB ST2. I was very tempted to either go back to ST1 or jump onto ST3.

Yesss

I think just like with DR ST2 years prior, my aura or how I come across is not optimal. There’s probably a lot of internal turmoil being addressed and that seeped onto my external interactions.

I didn’t feel as magnetic, solid, brave or as charming on ST1, nor as productive or as “alive”. I also didn’t feel that wonderful joy of life I felt on ST1 as much, and yes, IOI’s are slim as well.

ST2 for me is probably where the brunt of the Crucible part comes in. Where the junk and the ordinary is transformed into the priceless and spectacular.

Now that I’m close to my rest days, this is probably where the transmutation, and true benefits of ST2 comes in.

At the back of my mind, I hope I feel better on ST3 and far much better results on ST4.

As much as I understand healing is good, I’m not able to stay on healing long term.

The joy I felt on ST1 is what I need and more of it.

Life is too short, specially as I get older, that realization is coming up more and more.

I lost people dear to my heart, and to this day pinches me from time to time, and now their journey has ended. It has made me realize how precious life is, and how one person’s time is finite.

I want to enjoy, and most specially make up for the lost years I’ve spent on personal setbacks.

I’m glad SC is adding more focus on the physical joys and pleasures, and that includes wealth, and enjoying life as well.

That is high up if not the top in my list of wants in my subliminal journal. Bend reality. A game shark for life.

To level the playing field, where anyone regardless of the background can also live life like those born in purple if they so chooses. The power of the mind, truly unleashed.

I’m looking forward to ST3 because that’s probably where it really starts coming together.

Seeing as ST3 was recommended for stacking, I believe this is where the sexual energy is truly utilized to improve one’s life and go after one’s goals.

The inner kid in me is saying this is probably the stage where I finally go super saiyan, and then of course onwards to the enigmatic ST4, where the beauty and majesty of Khan Black truly unfolds.

[Apollo]

Cycle 26, Day 5 of rest days:

Getting ready for KB ST3.

I don’t have much experience with WB but I’m missing Wanted though. It’s probably the third or fourth cycle of running my stack without it.

Not sure why precisely. Seduction or adding new women in my life isn’t a priority but I suppose I want to feel as attractive as I could be every time.

It’s an ego thing I’m sure, but I’m not a monk, I’m human, a man, flawed and all. Oh well.

Looking back, I guess the boost in the bedroom department is what stood out the most whenever I was running Wanted.

I like the boost in masculinity, self esteem and confidence as well. Though they ebbed and flowed. Sometimes I feel like the man, sometimes I want to bury my head in the sand.

That’s human nature I guess, or at least my nature, which I aim to change.

I want to feel like the man constantly, evolving and growing. Brave and powerful all the time, or at least most of the time.

On my own perception of my physical appearance;

Per my previous cycles, nothing has topped Stark when it comes to beautifying self effects. Not LoTS in my custom, nor OG Wanted.

I almost always like what I see in the mirror when I’m running Stark. This did not necessarily translate into female attraction (that I could remember and at least not that I noticed) but my own perception of what I see in the mirror is very flattering.

I’d like to make Stark work for me, genius, billionaire, famous leader, irresistible, lucky all the time, and incredibly charming, but it’s just not gelling with me so far.

Back to the now.

I still see a performance boost as Khan has been constant in my stack for now the third cycle. I’m very pleased with that.

It’s just that, Wanted boosts, the boost. : p

As for attraction, I’m still looking forward to experiencing the kind of results I’ve seen on the WB thread, with my own favorite titles like Wanted, Khan and Chosen to some extent.

That being said, polyamory is not for me, hence why I’m second guessing if WB or the OG Wanted fits me more.

I understand all subs can be guided, but if OG Wanted aligns more with what I want and my vision of myself and my future, then it’s much more optimal.

Anyway, I do not know if this Fomo, or some last minute recon to convince myself to change my stack before I start a new one, but I’m looking forward to my favorite titles getting unleashed in ZPv2 max.

[Lion]

Hey @Apollo. Bro, do you think Hegemon and King’s Radiance are worth adding in a status custom or do you think they are more seduction-based modules?

Their descriptions sound like they have awesome alpha scripting but I keep wondering if it is for romance or for status or both.

[Apollo]

Hey there brother, it’s been a while. Hope all is well

Yes I added both of these modules in my main custom.

Seduction and attraction is almost always a plus for us, but I added them for the very reason you mentioned. Status and alpha.

So far I think I’m liking the effects.

I think I’ll even add them both again if I do remake a trio of Chosen, Khan and Wanted, on ZPv2 Max.

Right now I’m feeling out LoTS in lieu of Wanted.

I can’t quite pinpoint Hegemon and King’s Radiance yet cause my stack right now has very new titles like Khan Black, but I definitely noticed the increased external status and charisma, at least when I’m not on recon.

I also have a compliment repeated to me by a female that I almost glow or something when we are out and about, and that it’s like I have spotlight on me.

I was told this before, and my mind quickly thought about the ethereal presence I had in my custom at the time.

Same compliment with this custom, and this time I believe it’s King’s Radiance and perhaps on a lesser extent Hegemon having that effect.

I almost always add Chosen to mitigate my tendency to be polarizing when I’m on Khan.

Alpha and all is good, it feels great, but it’s just not optimal all the time. I prefer charisma when able, but I want the brawns when necessary.

I feel with Hegemon and King’s Radiance in the mix, it bolsters the status I see in Chosen. I rarely encounter negative vibes from other men, while I still feel I’m sufficiently assertive, with some finesse. (When not in recon)

[Lion]

Yes, all is well, brother.

Love the answer. I think I will seriously think of putting both Hegemon and King’s Radiance in my next custom.

And man! Women complimenting you left and right, and men respecting you? That’s a nice life to live.

And that’s Apollo the Handsomest God.

[Apollo]

Hahaha, I wish it was all the time, but looking back, yes that’s what’s I’ve experienced while running these modules.

I want them to snowball, and live the dream.

Looks and talents of Apollo, and alpha and status of Zeus! (And wealth of Hades for good measure)

We’ll get there Rap.

[Lion]

@Apollo

Looks and talents of Apollo, and alpha and status of Zeus! (And wealth of Hades for good measure)

Now that would be perfect

@Apollo

We’ll get there Rap.

Hell yeah, bro!!!

[Apollo]

Cycle 27, Day 9: Custom, EoG ST3

Rough day yesterday. Terrible. Not subwise but in my personal life. Some nasty people started showing up once again and disrupted not only me but my family.

Tempted to run a different title or custom but which, I don’t know. I’m not in my best form to make such a decision but I’m noting here while in thick of it.

My intention is to finish KB but RoM is coming up in my mind.