My Journey to Olympus

[Apollo]

Addendum:

I was driving earlier and a song came up on the radio. “You’re living in dream time, you want to run away, you’re living in Dreamtime… it’s time to shape up…”

What an apt song for how I’m feeling at the moment. Perhaps a manifestation, a kind nudge to wake up and shape up.

Then Bee Gees came along and told me I should be dancing, so that snapped me out of the trance.

I have this intense love for music, and I see that dwindle when I’m going through heavy stresses.

I have seen a spark for that love of music, and I’m attributing it to QL.

I recall when I ran Emperor Qv1 a year or so ago, the Quantum Lite in it was such a marvel.

Music sounded so much better and I could hear and appreciate details I didn’t before. I want to recapture that feeling of awe and surprise.

Basing on the descriptions alone, I feel RM would also be a great fit with how I’m wired, but I’m not in the arts and I could use the boost in IQ and learning from QL.

Time to shape up, learn new skills, pave a new road.

I’m hoping QL would also help wrangle this restless mind and give it structure.

Spartan is also a candidate for this but I should take things one step at a time.

[Apollo]

Cycle 13, Day 12: Rest

I feel my customs are working well. I was at a meeting yesterday and it got tense, yet I kept my cool and composure and I was able to stir the group conversion into more fruitful and objective matters.

I feel Khan, Wanted and Chosen has a good frame and it showed yesterday.

In hindsight, I wish I was more articulate and masterful with my words, but perhaps in time that will show.

Regardless, I’m glad I have these subs with me, things could have gotten out of hand, and a win-win situation would have been farther in sight.

As for the modules that stood out in this experience, I believe Stress Displacement played a major role, and so does Natural Winner and Transcendental Connections.

[Apollo]

Cycle 13, Day 20: Rest

Getting ready for my washout and I’m excited to try the latest experimentals.

Now to figure out and find within myself the titles I need. On one hand, I have a soft spot for Emperor, it’s my favorite title in Qv1; Wanted and HoM on Qv2, and Chosen on ZPv1, but then again there is always something about Stark that draws me in, no matter the recon I get with it.

I’m simply compelled to keep trying from time to time until something clicks. The promise of Stark has always been a dream.

Genius, prodigy, playboy, philanthropic, billionaire.

One whose a winner, intelligent, admired, positive, capable, competent, respected, wealthy, successful, attractive, happy, charismatic and socially masterful.

LBFH remains compelling. I have had quite the recon on it the last time, but seeing the initial reviews, it’s definitely something I have to consider.

I have been smoking again and missing out on my workouts, also been eating unhealthy foods. I tried the discipline from Spartan (it helped in other areas of my life as well) but perhaps a title centered on an extreme love for the self, joie de vivre and self-esteem is another avenue I could explore.

The new Wanted is definitely in the roster, I’ll probably test it out tomorrow. It’s always been a constant companion since SC’s generosity when it was new. I recall losing a lot of excess weight and looking great the first few months of running it. Looking back, I was awarded a free title when I was on Stark.

Another point for the luck of Stark, in my book.

As for Chosen, I have a few customs with it. I have two incoming customs, one centered on Khan and one with Chosen and QL, and yet the experimentals are compelling; I got to test it. The new stack would probably two Ex’ and one custom.

I’m happy with Khan, but being very sexual or actively looking isn’t my priority. Not at this time.

On EQ, I was sort of aloof, focused and nonchalant and yet they just came. The combination with PS certainly helped, but I still feel Emperor was the draw, it’s hard to ignore, and PS honed my skills and made the whole process enjoyable. What a tandem.

If I could find the same alpha feel, sexual prowess, social dominance and adeptness with the same primal inner strength that makes me feel complete as a man, while maintaining extreme attraction that would leave the option open to me at anytime I wish, yet with more focus on the self, achievements, status, wealth and success, then I’ll be very happy with Emperor or Stark.

Last runtime tomorrow for this cycle and then a new cycle starts anew after the washout.

[Apollo]

Addendum: Thank you SC.

While in this cycle, I finished my first certificate, IT support, and I couldn’t be anymore pleased.

I’m no longer a spring chicken and I’m at the cusp of transitioning into a new chapter in my life.

I wish to explore, to do something new, something I would find fulfilling.

I wish to find my meaning, one step at a time.

Right now, I feel fulfilled, and productive. Two sentiments I’d like to hold onto and remember when I need it.

A line in Kirk’s Ulysses when offered immortality.

To be born, to die and in between, live like a man.

and that resonated with me. I know I will not live forever, but I want to truly live, and be the man I always hoped I would be. I wish to achieve and realize my full potential.

There’s always been people in my life that rely on me, and that’s okay, it’s the story of my life before becoming a teen, but I want to do it right.

I want to do right by me, and I want to do right by those dear to me and those I encounter in this lifetime.

What I’m doing right now isn’t what I want. I want something else, a new calling that’s very different from this current path, and I’m on a journey to find it.

I’d like to learn more, and I feel I’m ready to take on more advanced steps. To hell with outside stresses, my time is finite.

I am thanking Khan, Wanted, Chosen, QL, Spartan and Limitless executive, titles I ran, sprinkled in different cycles.

Some notable modules in my customs that I felt helped keep me on track:
Potentiator
Way of ROI
Carpe Diem Ascended
I.Q. Cognitive Booster
The Streams
The Lines
Victory’s Call
Machine: Action
Productivity Unleashed
Stress displacement
Natural Winner
Overdrive
Deep Sleep

I’m in no illusion and I understand it’s not that big of a win for others who have achieved much, but for a person in constant and in the midst of dealing with a lot of personal and professional stresses, financial instability, bouts of ADHD/ADD, lack of focus, past traumas, depleted energy and at times a feeling of deep sadness and regret, I feel it’s a great first step towards climbing my own Olympus, and another result in my journey with SC.

Writing it here to remind myself. Every small win counts, then comes the big wins and victories.

[Apollo]

Cycle 13, Day 21: Customs, LBFH ZPv1 2022 Experimental

Had a pretty good day yesterday. The day was pleasant, productive, and light. Just the way I like it. Not intentional but was flirting with two women at the same time as if by instinct. No conscious effort on my part. It was lighthearted and I’m not really interested, but I was feeling more playful than usual.

I usually don’t talk much about this stuff, but I’m documenting and attributing this with both Wanted and Khan. It did make me chuckle. I like the levity and the lack of seriousness of the day.

After typing this, I realized the levity could also be a manifestation of that “trailer effect” but with LBFH Ex’. I have seen that phenomenon written in some journals and that happens to me as well from time to time.

I recall there’s some few instances when I have a module in my cart and somehow some glimpses of results or objective pertaining to that module shows up in my life without even running it yet.

Happened a few times to attribute it to placebo. Regardless, noticeable weight-loss before the fat burn, glimpses of good looks and appreciation before physical shifter, unexpected luck and synchronicity before Fortune’s favorite etc. Why not.

The subconscious mind is truly fascinating, and powerful and can be life changing if mastered and respected. It’s not my place to judge what it can and cannot do, but I want it to work with me and make my life more pleasant, and live the dream.

As for today, I decided to run LBFH Ex’ along with my customs. It’s the last day of this cycle and I want to experiment, perhaps lift my sub journey to new heights.

That said, I’m still torn between running all Ex’ for my next cycle and completely forego my customs at a later time to more accurately gauge how the new build gels with my psyche.

[Apollo]

Cycle 14, Day 7: Customs

I’ve had an interesting yesterday. I was out and I have been joking around for quite a bit, and I felt pretty comfortable and at ease within myself. One of my main issues is overthinking things, or over-worrying, and right now it’s one of the issues I’d like to tackle with a custom.

I’m still searching for the perfect module to address this. Candidates I haven’t tried are Inner Voice, Iron Frame, Nonchalance and perhaps Gratitude Embodiment.

Speaking of modules, I noticed “The Lines” showing up yesterday. It’s not a big thing, it’s actually in a moment of relaxation. I was watching an engaging movie which had a few twists, red herrings and curve balls thrown so as to make the story unpredictable, and I was enjoying predicting in my mind what’s next, even technical stuff that the protagonist might do, which I only have passing knowledge about.

It’s not a big deal, as it’s only a movie but I was surprised with my accuracy. I know movie etiquette and I kept it to myself, not to spoil my companion, but the realization that 'hey, this feels like The Lines, at work here" made me smile, and I had to note it in my journal to document how the module is affecting me.

Right now I am tempted to once again try Stark, it’s a new version and if I could make Stark gel with me, I’d be very pleased.

Genius, Charismatic, Playboy, Philanthropic Billionaire, and one who has found his unique and natural talents… Sign me up.

A moment ago, I entertained the thought of what it could be like, mixed with Emperor Black as it could address one of the things I noticed with Stark when I run it. Perhaps to find that balance I am looking for.

I know I shouldn’t and it’s not really the purpose of the title. I probably won’t anytime soon, not until I run the new title extensively and find for myself how it affects me.

Somehow I feel like my boundaries aren’t respected as much, unlike when I’m on Khan, or previous version of Emperor or even Chosen to some extent. An irritating comment, or some opinion I didn’t ask for, shit tests, or a hurtful joke etc.

Also truth be said, I seldom like having sudden social visits, calls and whatnot, even from close friends specially when I am relaxing.

aaand I could use the boost in focus as well and status.

I know it’s really on me, and I need to find a balance. No man is an island and I want to cultivate and improve my social skills, and desire to socialize, while also preventing myself from overthinking or over analyzing useless things.

My plan right now is to finish this second cycle with these customs, upgrade to v2 and go from there.

[Apollo]

Cycle 14, Day 12: Rest

Remade my Khan-Wanted custom, to amplify the physical shifting and to test it in ZPv2. Being and staying attractive can help in many ways.

I’ll be running that on my 15th cycle, with my Chosen-QL custom which I have yet to upgrade to ZPv2.

I’ll probably remake that as well, rather than upgrade, perhaps to add more positivity modules. I have a tendency to overthink, and how I wish I was overthinking positive and wining thoughts instead.

When I woke up, I had a surge of emotions. Regret, and perhaps lamentation. I recall some of the best moments of my life. I was in Highschool, with my friends, nothing to think about but girls and studies. No bills, no true deadlines, no health issues, or dreading every year I become older.

There’s so much possibilities there, so much promise. If only life could be one of those games where you could use a save state and go back whenever you fumble.

To start anew, and fresh, equipped with the knowledge and experience that took a toll to realize.

I don’t like these emotions. They are bitter sweet. A reminder of the good times while being haunted by the realization that this has passed and there’s no way to get back home.

Moving on. I have been smoking for quite a bit. It’s not good. I’ll be running Spartan along with my customs to help strengthen my will and perhaps remove the very temptation at its core. A title to help both my body and my mind.

I’ve done it in the past with Emperor and what I think is Spartan-lite in PS. If I did it before, I can do it again.

Emperor Black is tempting just for this endeavor alone. One of these days I’ll get to enjoy this title.

[Apollo]

Cycle 14, Day 19: Custom, Chosen, EF ST2 micro loop.

I was going to cut off this cycle on day 17 but since my freshly remade Khan-Wanted custom arrived I had to test it even once for this cycle. Washout starts tomorrow.

I was purchasing some groceries earlier and a female tripped infront of me cause she kept staring. Another female, not 5 mins later also in the same store made it a point to brush up slowly against me even though there are plenty of other ways.

Noticed her eyeing me from afar before then.

Also got a random message from out of the blue.

I wouldn’t normally write about these things in my public journal, but these small incidents coincided with my first run of this custom in ZPv2 or experimental and I’m noting it for my future reference. I feel this is mainly from Wanted.

What this also tells me right now is that ZPv2 is more potent and the aura may have also been amplified which is great.

Makes me want to test Emperor and its wealth, respect, VIP aura and R.I.C.H. manifestations once again but I have to run this custom first for at least a cycle to accurately gauge how the changes in the build are mixing with my psyche.

As for my demeanor and feeling. Maybe I’m feeling some slight recon, and I’m not feeling as at ease as I could be, but it should pass.

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Just while I was typing this, something came up and I need to tackle something. Looking forward to a good if not a great day. Way of ROI, time to shine.

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And another message. Seems the situation was fixed. What the… Hahaha! Yessss

[Apollo]

Cycle 14, Day 20: Rest

Wrote a long-ish entry but I figured it’s best to leave it in my private journal. Some stress and also feeling what could be a slight recon at the moment. It’s probably best to talk when I feel I have more mental clarity.

A tad mental fog, and a bit of unease. It’s not that surprising. End of the month is coming up and with it bills.

Can’t wait to live life without having to spend one iota of a minute worrying about bills.

[Apollo]

Cycle 14, 5th day of rest.

Have a brand new Khan-Wanted custom in experimental or ZPv2, but the call of EB is very strong.

I want to kick this smoking habit once and for all and update my skills. My only hesitation is that my temper is better on Khan than Emperor and I tend to be aloof and introverted and it shows.

Perhaps one cycle of EB, with my Stark-Wanted custom, and EF will be enough to kickstart what I want to happen.

I have until tomorrow to ponder and decide.

[Apollo]

Cycle 15, Day 1: Emperor Black, EF4 (15 mins)

Decided to run EB this cycle, foregoing Khan. I’ll be back on it, but I’ll let EB do its thing for a cycle or two.

I want to take this time not only to learn new skills, but to learn more about myself.

Not a lot of extreme results today, but subtle. I still smoked but I wasn’t too keen on it. It felt like a chore, and I liked that. I know where this road will lead eventually. This is similar with how I felt the first time I quit smoking on Emperor Q.

It felt like a chore, until soon after I felt pissed off with these things, that I couldn’t stand them.

Another observation. I was interested to use my Kindle again after a while of barely using it. Jumped directly to the start of the book and I ended up on page 146.

It’s been a while since I felt this absorbed by a book and I missed this aspect of myself.

As for calm, I suppose I was feeling calmer today. I’ll let it snowball. There’s lots of hidden cobwebs in my psyche that a specialized sub (EB) might be the right partner for the job.

I am reflecting on my sub journey, and indeed I have seen growth. I wish I had SC in my late teens and 20’s. The young here are so lucky.

Still there is something missing. I’m still not there yet, I’m still not happy with myself.

I tried the wealth route (Rich, AM), the intellectual route (QL, Stark), the emotional healing route (DR, Regen, Elix) the alpha route (Emperor, Khan) but what I haven’t tried is the spiritual route.

Perhaps addressing that neglect, will lead me to the breakthrough I need.

As I respect others beliefs, I too have my own, but an enlightened spiritual being, I am not. Far from it. I wish I had the wisdom, the patience and perseverance, but to simply endeavor being spiritually healthy might do wonders.

When I saw this subject is also tackled on an alpha sub like EB, I was intrigued. It’s brilliant, the more I think about it.

I’m still keeping with the guidelines. As much as I’d like to squeeze Chosen in there, I don’t want to risk derailing this cycle with recon if I go with four titles.

Perhaps in two weeks or so, when I feel settled in and if I feel it’s prudent.

That said, I hope I retained the lessons I learned from Chosen even if it’s not in my stack this cycle. Still my favorite ZP so far but it’s high time I also give the new Stark a go.

From the descriptions, there are aspects of EB that might tackle what I felt I lacked while on Stark.

Rest day tomorrow and then Stark-Wanted custom the day after.

[Apollo]

Cycle 15, Day 10: Rest

Mixed day today and a heated one yesterday.

Just as I thought from the description and from how it felt initially, (Emperor) black helped me kick cigarette smoking once again.

It’s been a week now, smoke free.

Just one listen this cycle, and just as it did two years ago, Emperor has set me free from insidious tobacco.

That benefit alone, to me is worth the price times over.

That said, I don’t think I can run it longer, as with previous Emperor’s, my tendency to be aloof is more pronounced.

It’s understandable and it does what it says it does. To me the effect is I retreat more in my own mind and my own world.

I didn’t have much IOI’s lately, but the few ones I did today, my initial reactions was either apathy, or a slight irritation.

As for Khan ST4 core in my ZPv2 custom, it’s either recon, or the mix in my stack, but I don’t like what’s going on in my life and my interactions lately.

I’m cutting this cycle short to give the subs time to “breathe”, and my mind to catch-up.

I’d like to continue typing but I’m dozing off. Pretty tired.

[Apollo]

Cycle 16, Day 3: Customs

Will run two customs for this cycle, plus one major if I feel the two are pairing nicely and giving me the results I wanted.

I had to cut the last cycle short, but Rich in my custom on ZPv2 seems to work better. Got gifted an iPhone and a watch the day after. It was unexpected and I’m crediting Rich for that.

[Tobyone]

@Apollo

I had to cut the last cycle short, but Rich in my custom on ZPv2 seems to work better. Got gifted an iPhone and a watch the day after. It was unexpected and I’m crediting Rich for that.

Damn pretty insane actually

I still have an Samsung S7 or something, works like a sharm still. What are they at currently S22 or something

[Apollo]

Hahaha, my reaction exactly! I could get used to this!

Hey I still have an old S7 and it still works quite well to this day. Battery is alright. Thing is, I had that around the same time as an old iPhone which suddenly got bricked.

[Tobyone]

The worst was back when I had an Iphone 5… It was always jacket up lol

@Apollo

Hey I still have an old S7 and it still works quite well to this day. Battery is alright.

Yeah same here, kind of crazy actually. Mine was lying without being used for 2 years as well

[Apollo]

Cycle 16, Day 14: Khan Custom, RoM

Expecting some good things but it didn’t pan out. I’m upset at this circumstances.

Challenges and whatnot. This isn’t what I wanted. I’m sick of this mishaps.

I’m questioning many things today including my own faith.

I’m cognizant of my emotions and perhaps once I’m thinking more straight I’ll regain my equilibrium, but for now, I’m frustrated.

Not all things are meant to be a lesson, or to make a person stronger. Sometimes, bad is simply bad. It shouldn’t have happened, it’s not deserved, yet it’s a there.

No gift wrapping it or feel good illusions. I don’t romanticize hardships or struggles. I’ve been around it and seen too much of it, not to be dazzled by its theatrics.

There’s a quote that I’m definitely butchering but the gist was, I don’t feel sad that there’s only one Einstein, but I lament those who are equally as talented, but dying in a field somewhere because they didn’t have the opportunity.

Something like that and I agree.

I’ve lived on both sides of the spectrum, and saw incredible abundance on one hand; and the complete opposite on the other.

One thing I’m sure of, one side feels so much better than the other and I’ll take it any day.

In many tales I know personally, there’s no happy ending in the struggle. There was hope, there’s hard work, a carrot on the stick once in a while, but one day life stops. No reward. No treasure at the end of the rainbow.

There’s no romanticizing that. At least not to me.

I see abundance and affluence when I turn my head, and and extreme poverty, destitution and injustice on the other.

Who gets to decided who gets who and who gets what.

I am a fan of history and at times I ask myself, what made a feudal lord, a lord, and what made a serf a serf? Who decides the role one plays? Is it karmic? Soul lessons? Divinity?

The universe? A deity? Luck? The mind? Plain randomness?

Can the mind truly bend reality in ways that one can consciously win the proverbial “cosmic lottery” where everything works and flows and life is beautiful and wonderful?

These are the things that are running in my head while driving earlier and pondering what life is supposed to be and how to change it to my liking.

I’ll stop here and clear my head, but I’m noting for my future reference.

[Apollo]

Cycle 16: Day 4 of washout.

I started my washout a few days earlier. I find my stress levels were too high (not due to the subs) and I need to quiet my mind and to find my balance.

Just yesterday I said some words that I have now come to regret. I wish I had more patience, foresight, tact and finesse.

In a nutshell, more mindfulness and quick thinking.

Alas I’m human, but with that said, there is a new title I feel would help me in this endeavor and more.

I’ll be running RoM once again with my next stack. I find the description and it’s vision, compelling, and it resonates with one of my truest desires, which is to find myself, my unique talents, what I am about, and as a bonus, develop myself and my intelligence.

To be the best that I could be will start from my mind.

In my opinion everything is mind, it all starts there. It’s the driver of life.

A wonderful mind translates to a wonderful life.

I’ll be running it with two of my old customs (both still in ZPv1, will upgrade once able)

There’s a part of me that would like to experiment with 4 titles this time. Two customs and two majors.

RoM and RICH. I feel RICH v2 is more potent than v1 and I’d like it to be a part of my stack.

[Apollo]

Cycle 17, Day 1: Khan-Wanted custom, RoM.

Been looking forward to restarting my cycle. I’m back to my customs that I felt gave me the most results I wanted, and now with the inclusion of RoM and RICH, I’m excited for the possibilities.

[Apollo]

Cycle 17, Day 14: Rest

So far I’ve been having some strange and unusual dreams. Thing is I forget about them mostly but the one I had last night had a certain religious tone to it, which was a surprise.

I feel RoM is at play here and digging deep into the recesses of my mind that was left untouched for so long.

I like RoM, and from the description I feel it’s something I’m going to run for a long time.

I’m having some small realizations in the course of my days. What’s peculiar is that I don’t meditate or think about these issues, but some realizations pop up out of the blue, as if I placed something in the microwave, pushed the button, go about my business and then “ding” a pop up.

In any case these aren’t so big yet but I feel it will snowball into big epiphanies that would change the course of my life towards the best one I’ve been longing for. Success, health, wealth etc.

One question that I’ve been asking myself in the course of my sub journey is that what title or sub could replicate the joys of my youth.

That youthful exuberance where I feel I have all the time in the world, the world is my oyster, that invincibility, that optimism, the romances and excitements, that disdain for drama, that ambition and the absolute certainty that I’m going to be someone someday.

Even my kind of vanity… I miss it.

I was listening to a song, This must be the place by the Talking Heads, and though I’ve always enjoyed that song, I’d like to feel what’s being said there. I’d like to mean it when I say this must be the place. There are moments in my life when I somehow, do, but then it’s fleeting.

and I guess, that place is what I’ve been searching for, my own Shangri-La and RoM is most likely instrumental in this realization. Though I have desires for material comforts, it’s not what’s out there that is what I’m truly after, but me.

What was me, and what could have been me. A home so close, yet gets farther as time goes by.

The kind of me that would probably be upset with who I am today.

Anyway, I’d like to try my hand again with Stark. I have this overwhelming desire to run it all of a sudden. I have this modules, the wonder, Joie de vivre and the like which I felt would give me back that excitement.

RoM is stirring me again? Perhaps.

Does this title feels like a gift that keeps on giving? Definitely.