Sounds like a good plan brother 
As a Khan you have to live your life the way you want it to be and not according to those around you, and by not doing that and listening to Khan, it will eat you from within.
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Day 18: Rest
Some musings and my own immaturities.
Was at a bank today to sign some paper work, and I suppose Stark is starting to come online.
Thereās this nice lady probably in her mid to late 20ās thatās assisting me.
Initially she was very helpful but then I noticed she was increasingly getting more curious about me, trying to make small talk and asking me questions that to me, didnāt matter much.
At first Iām thinking alright, this is probably just routine, or maybe sheās just being friendly or cordial but then the questions and further attempt for small talk went on further and it was starting to make me slightly irritable.
At one point another lady co-worker around the same age chimed in and tried to strike a conversation about me being a long time client. I really wasnāt feeling it.
That said I know itās not her fault, itās me. What I want is to be polite but to be done with it as soon as I can.
I was getting hungry and I donāt like going to banks. My thoughts was revolving around Wendyās at this point and the sooner Iām out, the better.
The flavor of the day is probably the combination of Wanted and Stark, maybe even Khan, but Iām excited to test the effect when Chosen is paired with Stark.
Perhaps Iāll like it more, and Iāll be more open or willing to converse, or perhaps slip out of a conversation I donāt wish to continue with more finesse.
Sadly I was irritable at the fast food too for that matterā¦ folks getting really too close for comfort was bothering my ocd. A salesperson got a bit too close too in a store when I was checking out some stuff and it turned me off from looking further.
Could be recon, could be a bit of Stark but regardless I suppose rereading what I wrote here tells me Iām going through some recon.
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Day 20: Rest
Woke up from a poignant dreamā¦ itās not an outright bad dream on the surface but itās a harsh realization of some sort and a particularly deep stab for me.
In my dream, thereās these politicians that I didnāt much care for, and they were in my house. I personally think they are ignoble but I digress.
I couldnāt remember every detail but we were up on our roof for some reason, maybe hanging out, checking the views or having some drinks, I couldnāt recall what or why exactly.
My thoughts were, although this is my home, and these are my guests, Iām the smallest here in terms of my achievements. Essentially, I felt dwarfed, in my own home.
To be the least important person in oneās domain and play second fiddle made me felt pretty upset. I did not like that.
A coward dies a thousand deaths, and the dream reminded me of that.
Then I woke up.
Among the titles Iām running, I feel this nudge is from Stark and perhaps, a head shaking tsk tsk from Khan.
I have drawn closer to the conclusion that Stark was involved because when I woke up, a voice inside my head had a harsh follow up feedback; A sort of a post script from the letter that was my dream.
Iāve read journals where Starkās commented about a sort of a Jarvis moment, and I was surprised to experience it for myself for the first time in my recollection. The experience was brief but very unusual.
As I write this, what this tells me is that the subconscious programming Iām nourishing my mind is coming online and digging on deeper levels that only ZP was able to.
I want ZP to dig deeper. Cheesy as it may sound, I wish to be unshackled from the chains of my own creation.
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Day 1 of 5: Rest
Some brain fog the past few days, itās like my mind isnāt working at the capacity I want it to but I expect it to.
I know itās going to be capable of so much more once Stark gets smoother. I wasnāt too bothered.
I have been racking my brains on how to include QL in my stack while retaining my favorite ones. Custom is the answer but I couldnāt make a custom with QL until I have gone all stages on ZP, and I also want to see the wealth, cognitive and genius benefits of Stark alone.
I have run all stages of QL on Qv2 but like Khan I wish to start from the beginning.
Like before, I noticed Iām fixing small things in the house. Little inconveniences that slightly bothered me but didnāt find the time or was pressing enough to attend to.
I like this about Stark. Thereās a sort of increasing effortlessness and a magic touch. Even some things that was previously broken just seemingly fixed itself with minimal tinkering. Happened to me twice.
What held me back from enjoying Stark fully was the interactions I had on the previous Q versions and how I felt internally.
As for reception on ZP, the halo and favored person effect noticeably dwindled in my day to day interactions; again only temporary and usually happens a week or two in when I change my stack or when Iām going through recon.
As for Chosen, I like the effect Chosen had on people around me, and on me. Hopefully Stark has something similar or more.
In my previous experience, Chosen is very likable and quite assertive in a non threatening way. It very much resonated with my own values and how I wish to treat and be treated. With honor, with truth and with respect.
Chosen is extremely charismatic, but one thing, I didnāt notice a lot of real attraction, but I understand there are other subs for that.
On this run, I want Stark ZP to be more attractive, dominant and respectable. Halo and favored VIP is always good as well.
Iām going to test it with Emperor and see the beauty of this fusion.
My ultimate goal is to find my true calling and what Iām truly good at. I want my life to have meaning and to enjoy it fully. I want my existence to be a benefit and not a detriment. I wish to be the great hero in the tale of my life.
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Day 3: Rest
Strange recon. My fuse is very short lately and I feel like I want to shout. Thereās so many expletives towards circumstances in my life and in my head but out of respect for SC Iāll keep it in my private journal.
Thereās no obvious reason why Iām feeling this way other than that there are some deep recon happening during my rest day.
Good.
Whatever useless garbage is in there, recon the hell out of it. Life is too short and I want to enjoy it.
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Day 5 of 5: Rest
Wrote a long entry but decided itās best to include it in my private journal.
Gist was I have having a few epiphanies during my rest days and Iām crediting Stark with these sudden and to me, exciting insights.
One insight made me see Stark in a new light and I think this would immensely improve my experience and my journey.
I should stop getting in my own way and focus on whatās in-front of me and let the titles Iām running do their thing. A synergy or a sort of symbioses that would culminate in reinventing myself.
Itās my wish after all, to reinvent myself, have great experiences, achievements, successes and become enamored with my own life and my own story.
Iām appreciating ZP by the day. It truly is revolutionary.
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Day 5 of 5: Addendum
I was going through (maybe still) some recon the past few days but Iāve had a small experience Iām chalking to Stark.
I like colognes and perfumes, and the other day I noticed a top note from a perfume Iāve owned for years. I donāt recall noticing this before. Not even at the height of my hobby.
Stark is probably healing some pathways in my brain that made me aware of this note or making new routes, which is even better.
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I have a close dream like this but with rich ultima
Instead of ploitations there was one known billionaire and other rich family members . We were all having dinner at the same room . But I was on a different table and the table with the billionaire and the other family members were in a shadow part on the room . And I felt the same , āfelt like a little manā
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Indeed. In my mind, aut Caesar aut nihil. Either Iām the ruler of my own life or nothing at all.
The subs are probably bringing out my truest desires without the nonsense of my conscious mind and reminding me of what would truly make me happy in this lifetime. At least that how I interpret my dream.
Truly zp works from within. Continue the journey my friend.
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8th Cycle, 4th day: Rest
Had a great day yesterday. Lots of IOIās, Clinginess, cute jealousies and whatnot.
Confidence, swagger and attention was very obvious.
Huge boost in income as well, and the day felt very smooth.
Some recon at the back of my mind, some minor doubts but Starkās core outshined whatever that was.
I think changing the way I see Stark is also helping me in this journey.
I have had my own inhibitions about the movie interpretations of Stark. Itās not been my favorite. Then I figured surely there must be other Stark-like personas that would inspire me, and there it is.
Perhaps an NLP-ish way to reframe and clear the cobwebs and nonsense that was holding me back from fully embracing a brilliant creation. Stark was forged with the hammers of the Emperor, why shouldnāt it be equally magnificent.
This Stark is some kind of wonderful.
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You are doing great, brother 
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It is a breath of fresh air. Things feel like itās looking up!
Iām cognizant about recon, still. Just today I lost it a bit but my sense of balance is stronger than months prior.
Cheering for you too brother, itās time we get to truly enjoy what life has to offer. We got this
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8th cycle, day 6: Rest
Spoke too soon, been stressed for a bit after my last entry with some mishaps and nonsense creeping up into my life.
Could be amplified by reckon, but Iām not in the best emotional state to figure that out right now. Iāll try to keep it together and carry on.
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What is your plan for listening for the next 10 days?
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If youāre going through hell, keep going.
Thatās what I plan to do brother. Just keep my head down, function and keep it together.
I know reconās can be tricky, this isnāt my first rodeo, as the saying goes.
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Day 8: Rest
Things are mellowing out, not out of the woods yet but I have been noticing something remarkable thatās been going on for several days now, and that Iām remembering my dreams. Very detailed dreams.
Just this morning I woke up from quite a trip. I was in a sort of last days of the Ottoman Empire timeline and there was a coup, and the court was scrambling to get out of dodge. So many interesting characters, and they felt so alive.
What a trip.
In any case not all of my dreams have been as exciting to me as this. The other day, I have dreamed of people I wished to forget. It was very vivid and detailed, and though it was a dream, the feeling is real and it torpedoed my day.
Iām attributing this very deep healing with Stark. This is my 2nd cycle with it, and I want to see where it takes me.
Btw, also won something yesterday, itās like cents but amusing all the same. A win is a win. Perhaps itās a sign Iām on the right track.
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If you need more rest days, fewer loops, lower volumeā¦ then just take it.
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Day 21: Chosen, Wanted.
Dark thoughts but I feel Chosen is helping me fight my way through that. I missed this title quite a bit. It is a masterpiece.
Iām torn between Emperor and Khan. The primal alpha in Khan is probably integral to what makes me feel very good as a man, but at the same time the great focus on sexuality and being sexual all the time isnāt my priority at the moment.
That said, the alpha feel of Khan is outstanding. I felt like a Lion, calm for the most part but ready to pounce when needed. Itās a one of a kind feeling, itās almost ineffable.
Khan is almost ineffable.
That feeling of being so self assured, brave, confident and solid feels like a breath of fresh air in my tumultuous reality, filled with ups and downs.
A side note but interestingly, Iām noticing more general attraction on Emperor. Perhaps when Khan attracts, it attracts big time.
Thereās a couple of very intense ioiās Iām attributing with Khan. The kind that can be very flattering but can also be uncomfortable in that moment. Itās very amusing though and I want more of that. Being desired at that level, why not? Just no stalkers.
As for Stark, Iāve seen quite a few posts about not being able to lie with ZP, and this is probably whatās happening. Try as I may, there maybe certain aspects that donāt gel well with my personality.
I wish to be very good in conversations, comfortable and excellent socially but at heart Iām a very private, introverted person and maybe the fame part and high approachability is whatās causing my reconciliation.
I donāt know, but itās a title I want to master because of itās promise but thereās something blocking my way.
Iām tempted to suggest an innovative billionaire, alpha, playboy, genius title thatās also very productive, masterful socially but with more oomph in status, attraction, reputation and respect rather than fame and celebrity.
Emperor is close but I want the kind of intelligence, wealth and manifestation Stark has going on. I can see life becoming a lot smoother on Stark, and at my age and what went on in my life, itās what I want right now.
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Running: Emperor ZPv1 320
Iām supposed to be resting; 3rd day actually, but I felt compelled to run the new test version of the Emperor. Iāll just adjust my 9th cycle start date depending on how Iām feeling.
On that note, I also have Chosen: Way of Nature to test, I enjoy the city and the cosmopolis/metropolitan life but I respect and adore nature, I can certainly use the internal respite and grounding.
Perhaps reconnecting with Mother Earth on a more meaningful level is what I need most at this moment, and to be honest I want to be in love with my life once again. This part of the objectives compelled me the most to make my purchase.
To be more accurate with my observation, Iāll run it later today or most probably on another day so I can focus on Emperorās effects.
Iām running it 15 mins, one loop.
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Played: Chosen Way of Nature
Decided to run it as well and reset my rest day starting today.
Iāve received some bad news the other day and I was pretty upset about it. Still am. The first night I was so bothered I couldnāt sleep properly, and I kept waking up at odd hours. It was exhausting.
Fast forward to today, after my run of Chosen Way of Nature, I felt somewhat at ease. Iām not around nature in my current location, but I had to look out my window and admire whatever trees and whatnot I could find outside.
Anything to keep my mind off things. Anything to remind me of a much bigger world out there. That any problem I have now is irrelevant in the grand scheme of things.
Itās a nice thought while in the thick of it. Itās a fuel to go forward.
A small manifestation: Before I finished my loop, I received a message with a photo of our pets. This sounds like a small thing but seeing the photo made me smile, a real one, from my heart.
I know this is from the sub. I almost never receive messages like this, and the first time I ran this sub, a minute before the loop was over, here it is. A random message that would uplift.
Perhaps itās natures way to remind me that I can still control my reality, and also to make make me smile, and that it did.
Onto rest days, and my stack for my 9th cycle.
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