Hah love it. Indeed brother
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Day 17: KST4, Chosen
Iām having second thoughts or recon. Iām tempted to jump to Emperor and HoM for my 7th cycle while retaining Wanted, but Chosen has been a constant companion.
I also noticed it seems to make Khan less polarizing as I saw it on Qv1, which is nice. I donāt recall being as much on Emperor Q, just vip vibes, and maybe a bit intimidating at times, but manageable.
Very attractive though, and plenty orbiting around.
As much as Iād like to be the Picard to those I care about, I would also want to be a Picard/Kirk/Caesar to myself. To lead myself and build it to be the character I wish to be. Iām happy to encourage, itās in my nature, but there are times I ask myself what makes what I say carry weight when I have a lot of things to fix within myself and within my life.
I need to clear my head.
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Just a reminder what you wrote earlier. I sometimes too have thoughts about Emperor instead, but after I think it through I always find the reason is because Iām impatient and want things to move faster.
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Day 20: Rest
Thank you my friend Tobyone. I needed that reminder, and I appreciate the nudge.
Seems Iām not out of the woods yet. After waking up from a bad dream, Iām inclined to write recon infused thoughts and ramblings.
Before I embarked on this Khan journey, I told myself, come half of the year, this, June if I donāt feel like Iām on my way to where I wish to be, I go back to Emperor and bury my head in my tasks and keep going even if I exhaust myself, cause whatās the point in living a life that is not what I wanted.
Itās only the start of May, and I ask myself if recon is driving these thoughts or simply my current reality that I donāt like or couldnāt stand.
Perhaps this is recon and also the questions at the back of my head of what is Khan ZP (and Stark for that matter) is truly about and if a respective title is the best prescription for my current situation. The best tool for the job per se.
It wasnāt the rockstar or lothario lifestyle archetype that enticed me but my fascination for mythology and history that drove my decision to switch to Khan. I look to Zeus as the Khan archetype and Hades as more like the Emperor.
Though a formidable Temujin is an archetype, An elegant Ottoman Khan/sultan like Mehmet that is fluent in 7 languages, or a magnificent Suleiman are also the kind of Khanās I admire.
Julius Caesar is certainly an SC Khan in my book, as I understood it. One who conquers life and bends their reality to how they wish it to be.
In any case thereās some more soul searching to do.
I wonāt add to the pressure of the founders and I certainly understand itās not an easy task, specially because SC does it right, but Iāll be waiting quietly for the new objectives to be published and that should optimize my choices going forward.
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Day 4 of my washout:
Iām getting close to crafting a new stack (or back to old companions), and hopefully in the next few months or so, my first custom.
Iām feeling excited about things, about life. Thatās the wonder of SC, and even though the past couple of years was some of the worst; the silver lining is finding this place, and from that silver lining, what a great future I can build.
Day 4 of washout, and Iām full of optimism. The proverbial sword of Damocles is still there, but the more I influence this playground of the mind, the more Iām closer in finding the true joy and the meaning Iāve been searching for.
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An excellent plan which I too am following. Am not yet ready for the Khan lifestyle.
I so do want the casanova life but LOVE history and mythology as well.
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Always a kindred spirit. Weāre probably at the cusp of something amazing, and soon have our own epics to tell.
Cheering for you Lion Raph
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And right beside you, my sun brother. Cause both Apollo and Lion are āsun signsā.
I like that combo of names. Maybe my full name can be Raphael Lion. So when a pretty girl asks my name I can be all like āThe nameās Lion. Raphael Lion. And I like your loins shaken and stirredā haha
Cheers!
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Cycles 7, Stack this run: Khan ST4, Stark, Wanted, ASC
Recon. Irritability, brain fog, negative thinking.
Immense love for music is returning, reminiscent of when I was on EQ. Itās not yet as strong and as enjoyable but itās noticeable, I seem to be picking up more nuances and details; StarkZP seems to be firing off the music loving synapses in my brain.
I canāt say how much I appreciate that. Like sunlight, a good meal and lone walks, music has nourished this soul all these years.
And so timely, itās my only outlet right now and I donāt want people around me to notice my internal mess.
Few titles knocked me down like Stark. Q, T, Qv2, Ultima, ZP, any from the branches of the Stark tree, but maybe because it aims to deliver what I lack the most.
The last time I retreated from Stark, I wrote my experience is probably a case of when the student is ready the master appears. Perhaps, this time the student should tough it out.
Thatās what I intend to do this cycle and hopefully beyond.
My experience with ZP is that after the initial good feeling, thereās a few days when recon says hello and thereās usually some turbulence of varying degrees, and then it takes a few consistent runs for things to settle down before I see the seed grow. The momentum, however is beautiful once itās on. ZP is truly a gift, and til then Iāll wait out this recon until momentum happens and things flow.
As for other musings, I miss the grounding of Chosen, and the confidence and sociability is undeniable, so is the Halo effect and respectability. Iām expecting something similar from any if not all these alpha titles in my stack. I would be thrilled if Chosen or a version of it has more attraction, intelligence and wealth manifestation.
Khan, Alpha of Alphaās, King of Kings, Padisha, a son of heaven. Whatās not to like. The title alone inspires. To have that genuine mindset, calibre and true competence is worth a journey of a thousand miles and back.
If Khan is what I think it is, then I found my Neo of subs, otherwise the Emperor is there. Albeit my desired idea of Emperor is a touch Venusian, rather than Stoic. ZP gives us the choice and I like that.
Wanted, still the looks. I want to look and feel my best. Until a Hero comes along, Wanted is my goto in that department.
That being said, Stark also has this beautifying effect, and my looks seems to be complimented like clockwork on Stark. Physical shifting or auric, Stark has it.
I usually save mosaic musings like this in my private journal, but Stark or Wanted is probably pushing me not to care much, be less guarded and just say whatās on my mind.
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Day 14: Rest
Still going through recon and it was intense earlier today. Doubting my stack and my decisions.
Chosenās grounding and positivity is so apparent that now that itās gone from my rotation, my mind is like a kite.
As much as Iād like Chosen to stay, the focus on being a light to others rather than fixing myself and my own shortcomings is more pressing. I honestly donāt have much to give for now.
I donāt recall any sub that made me feel as internally happy and solid, and itās probably a mistake removing Chosenā¦ time will tell. Right now I donāt like the way Iām feeling.
That said, being cognizant of recon, I know and I want to give Stark some play time and breathing room.
Iām leaning towards removing Wanted in the middle of this cycle, and replacing it with Rich to augment both Starkās and Khanās wealth manifestation and productivity.
Hopefully both Khan and Stark has the physical shifting handled.
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Day 15: Stark / Wanted
Change of plans or sticking with it.
Another run for Wanted but a change in the stacking, Iām running Khan alone the day after tomorrow.
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Same Day 15: A quick addendum.
Too soon to speak imperatively but I seem to be feeling and thinking better than I did yesterday.
Some brain fog is still there but the pangs of painful thoughts arenāt as prominent.
Perhaps itās better for me to split Stark and Khan to give them both room, or maybe Iām finally starting to get acclimated with Starkās lessons.
Either way, the day seems to be better and the dominance and intimate prowess of Khan is shining through. Staying power, intuition and being in the moment itās all there.
Iām keeping an eye out for Khan to show its true might in my general life, so khan-ing on indeed. I enjoy how social I am on Khan though.
I also donāt feel too out of shape today even though my diet was pretty junk lately so thatās a plus, and I attribute that with Wanted.
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Day 17: Khan ST4, ASC
Not sure if Stark but an idea popped into mind while re-reading my journal which I always do to map out my future steps; why not combine my most grounding, and most turbulence inducing titles and see how they synergies in my psyche. Stark and Chosen.
Still Khan-ing on but like fellow Khanās Toby and Raphael, going back to Emperor is still on the table.
That said Iām not ready to give up on Stark, just yet.
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The objectives just dropped for Khan, holy moly thereās a lot of sexuality in there 
I thought some more about my recent switch, and it mostly boils down to me having to fix my financial and living situation and I could not give Khan ZP the time it needs right now.
Khan is such a complete alpha program and needs to be treated as the crown jewel and probably not being stacked at all for the first couple of months as Saint mentioned in the tips & tricks.
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Haha yeah I just saw it brother! Love it.
Iām still reflecting on my life, things I could have done differently, attributes I wish I had in the past, maybe I wouldnāt have made those mistakes, and perhaps the now would have been much more enjoyable.
Also probably going to lean towards Emperor in the meantime. I have much to fix and not a lot of time in the sense that Iām no longer as young as I wish I am. The sexual stuff is tempting but my dwindling energy and options demands I focus.
That Khan though. Power overwhelming.
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Nothing beats it, itās so powerful but also hard to tame. I know what you mean with not being that young anymore and things do change, but also, a Khan that has some age and wisdom to him I see as far more powerful and influential.
From my own experience is that I love running Total Brakedown and often done so solo. But I found myself rushing stage 2 and 3 and starting to stack it which has led to diminished results, and in the end trying to rationalize playing only St4 in the end.
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Reforge yourself and even mold your personality if so desired, in a way that is the most perfect, most powerful representation of you.
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Easily earn the respect you truly deserve, massively increase your status, reshape all your relationships.
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Instinctively do what must be done to achieve all your goals, become unabashedly yourself.
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Generate an incredible sense of supreme powerā¦
Oh man. Khan is amazing.
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Same here. Interestingly enough now that I think about it, it could be a Stark manifestation that pushed me the other day to change my stacking order and have Khan run solo.
Somehow I felt Khan wants to be center stage when I ran it on the same day with Stark, at least so far in my testing.
I had the best time on ST1 and 2, but I rushed through 3 and went to 4. Anecdotal but a common denominator Iāve seen from my journals though, Chosen was there which I found interesting.
That observation is pushing me to test it with Stark and Emperor.
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That might be a good combo, interested to hear what you think of it. Khan is always there waiting for us, and in hindsight it has been so rewarding to have played it for so long, itās not like you loose what you have gained.
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Indeed brother. Weāll always have the Khanās DNA.
My aim right now is to fix my external so the Khan within can enjoy without worries.
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