Welp, I feel like there’s hard truths.
I originally started being interested in this technology because I thought life on this planet was too hard.
I’ve tried adjusting my self concept. I’ve tried adjusting my operating system. I’ve tried everything I can think of.
At this point I’m over it.
What’s the point of discovering actual freaking magic doesn’t make shit easier.
My yelp review for earth is probably going to get taken down.
So I downloaded and played one of the new Eog files last night.
Today I am struggling.
I’m confronted by some family difficulties.
They are definitely tied to feeling of unworthiness that I struggle with. Subconsciously…
Cough medicine tastes terrible but it does allow you to start to feel better.
It’s nap time.
To be clear I downloaded and played this yesterday.
Today mid day I needed a nap.
It turned into sleeping all afternoon.
I made a post comparing this to cough medicine.
Since I woke up I have been coughing like crazy. My body is trying to get rid of something.
Wild ride.
It’s not pleasant but I feel good. Not good but like the direction I’m on is correct.
How are you?
Hey thanks for checking. I’m good. It’s just not pleasant, like cough medicine. Nothing dangerous.
I was tired today so I feel asleep too early.
I woke up recently. I remember this feeling. I used to have it a lot.
I was happy.
Just woke up happy. It’s a great feeling.
I know this space is for people who believe taking action is sacred.
I don’t wanna argue with you if that’s what you believe.
In my personal experience stuff just happens.
Other people getting results inline with imaginal acts alone? I like results but I’m fascinated by these types of occurrences.
I’ve been half following a thread on Eog. I think Eog is paying dividends. I think it’s fighting some of the internal blocks that aren’t mine and will make rich better.
Been thinking about lots of stuff from my childhood. The success and failures of the people I saw back in those days. It’s a good story.
I’ve also been using rich again.
I’m convinced of something I can’t prove. I will do it. Sheer force of will and all of that.
Rich definitely uses sugar. The pineapple in my frig is calling to me. I already finished most of the high sugar junk around here.
I think pineapple and rich go together.
Dreams are stupid.
My most recent one.
I was trying to be out in the middle of nowhere, watch a movie, build a fire and relax. It was snowing in my dream and it is snowing here.
This real estate agent kept transporting me to Manhattan. I kept telling them I would not do business in Manhattan. Leave me alone real estate agent.
They kept showing me prewar 2 bedrooms for 1600 bucks a month. (Such a thing hasn’t existed in decades.)
It got heated with the imaginary real estate agents.
I woke up hungry. I turned on the oven to reheat something from earlier. As I was waiting I surfed around the internet a bit.
I saw a news story for a 2 bedroom in the Bronx for 1600.
Subconscious, stop fighting me. No Manhattan. No Bronx.
I really think whatever this conflict is is holding me back.
So idk what just happened.
I need to deal with the city. It’s a great city to live in but doing business with the city is usually difficult.
Ah, it is what it is.
Yesterday I called to set a meeting. They told me June. Today I got a call from the city asking if I could come today.
Months to 24 hours? Is Eog or rich possibly causing this?
It was snowing last night. If I could avoid snowing until I get home and have a sandwich this will be a big win.
Went to the doctor the other day.
Blood pressure in ideal range.
Slightly fast pulse but I walked through the frozen city and then sat in the path of the heater. Smoking a cigarette. Makes sense.
I made a mistake though.
I remarked on my thirst.
of course being doctors they think like lawyers and became concerned about diabetes.
I figured there was no way to explain to them about carrier signals and 17khz so I just ignored that aspect.
since I know many people on here are high in empathy the end result is I’ll be fine.
Not at all related to Eog but I’m am fairly convinced this world is a total fake.
I myself had to go to the doctor as mentioned. I never go to the doctor. The last time I did I was in Charleston in pain so bad I couldn’t stand.
But I went. Today I got a message from my dad. He was at the doctor wondering what he should do about his medical problem.
I thought I should suggest paragon. I didn’t. These products aren’t well received.
It’s hard because it might help him and being sick is the worst.
Just some guilt about not having explained paragon.
Well, that’s an interesting technique. As Saint says, you are the dynamic system I guess.
My ears, the exterior part, feel like fire. I think it’s best to take a couple of days off.
Idk why but I want a coke and to watch the matrix. ChatGPT provides some interesting thoughts to keep in mind with that one.
It’s real good at Stephen king movies too.
I had so much stuck energy. I did a thing to get it flowing.
Spent all night focusing on my “eliminations” and by focusing I just mean letting them happen.
I still don’t understand what energy is but it’s something.
I am really blown away by gpt. I could have used this years ago. It’s not always accurate but it’s always available to use as a sounding board,
It also uses some pleasant rapport techniques to convince me I’m awesome.
When digging around late at night I find it useful if occasionally I don’t agree with its perspective.
Promising tech.
So I think I’m too masochistic, I think I can manifest anything but it comes out all goofy and I think my biggest challenge here is I just don’t like this planet that much.
I have the art of happiness downloaded. How long does it take me to start playing it.
Well I started playing it.
For clarity when I said I just don’t like this place that much I mean the rock we live on, not sub club.
I seem to frequently have physical responses to a wide array of sub club files. This side track I’m on with happiness is giving me lots of sinus clearing.
Just interesting
Now that I know I’ll get full results as I define them from this long term project I’m considering what I’ll work on next.
Los (sorry I’m bad at the codes) is appealing. Also it’s a minor thing but I want exposure to the model that makes bureaucracy work better.
I’ll have to decide if I can make Philadelphia work for me or get a visa. Either way the big challenge of the second half of the year is bureaucracy.