had to drop my dense ass custom for this reason
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Saw your post over on the Emp thread, wishing you a speedy recovery 
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Washout Day 3 - Cycle 2 - Emperor, Mindās Eye & Paragon
Today Mindās Eye kicked back into effect. The whole last cycle I was unable to āfeelā Mindās Eye, and didnāt experience any spontaneous visualizations the way I did on the first cycle. As I said in my last post, Paragon made this cycle intense, what I meant to say was that Paragon pretty much overpowered the whole journey for the last cycle. Mindās Eye was still affecting me, I still had several odd manifestationsāthink and it appears style, but I was hardly able to visualize. I had little motivation to do so, and when I would try, it was very difficult.
Idk, visualization is probably under the power of the subconcious mind, and my subconcious was very busy trying to make me healthy.
The last several days were rather intense. Yesterday was the first day that I felt calm in about a week and a half. Today, I feel pretty good, if not a little emotionally exhausted.
The name of the game is iteration and thatās what Iāve been unconsciously doing, iterating on my life. Iāll do something thatās good, then I try and do it better. Whatās interesting is that the stress to be perfect the first time around is fading and nearly gone entirely.
Itās pretty fucking silly actually. If I knew how to do something perfectly, I would do it. Strive for perfection through iteration, itās a sustainable path. Little by little, get better and better, and the shit happens fast.
In 6 weeks I made over 5 grand working for myself AND
- I got a new girl friend
- Took a vacation with girl friend
- Partied
- Lost some stress weight
- Started working out again
- Healed a cavity (just vanished)
- Started educating myself on money and making improvements in spending
- Opened the doors of visualization in my mind
- Changed in some ways that Iām still figuring out
Long story short, the progress has been very inspiring.
Onward and upward.
Today Iām looking at ways of creating new revenue streams. The more pathways to income that I have open, the easier the wealth scripting will be able to work. Currently, Iām only relying on a single pathway and itās been amazing and getting better, but it does seem to have a glass ceiling above it that makes it impossible to earn above a certain amount of money without something crazy happening like a customer tipping me an obscene amount of money.
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Washout Day 4 - Cycle 2 - Emperor, Mindās Eye & Paragon
The social side of Emperor is still whatās causing me problems, dispite what I said in a previous post. When I ran Emperor in the past, I ran it with Daredevil or Wanted, something to increase the social aspect of my life.
Running it solo now, I canāt help but notice that my social position is changed in a way thatās both unfamiliar and a bit uncomfortable. I felt some hostility last night around my gfs friend group. I absolutely felt like the odd man out and this isnāt the first time Iāve noticed this type of behavior, itās just the first time Iāve been on Emp solo which makes me able to actually focus on it and give it the attention it needs.
There is something about my aura and energy that is upsetting to certain people. More likely than not its the sexiness aura mixed with the domanace and authority vibes that turns some people off.
On the one hand, my aura makes people come to me for help and makes women, children, and animals feel safe around me and trust me instantly.
For example, whenever I see my nephews, they yell my name and beg me to stay whenever I leave. This is interesting because comparatively, Iām not around my newphews THAT much.
Whenever I meet a new animal, it seems to like and trust me instantly.
My girlfriend has gone to mush around me and stubborn as she is with others, she just melts and puts me in the position of protector/councilor.
Great for my relationship with my girl, not super great, up to now, for friends.
The friend dynamic is interesting and I can see it for what it is, Iām āa threat.ā They donāt like me because they see me as someone who will ātake their friend awayā. Hint, I wonāt, but thatās what my energy projects.
Now, an impulsive and stupid urdtree would pull the plug on this journey and start running something else, but we are FAR too early in the game for that.
The reality is, I CAN fix these āissuesā that I face on Emperor and in a sense, I can look at this friend drama as a positive manifestation guiding me to understand a new realm of experience.
Having said that though, I really miss the energy of other titles. I miss being āthe fun guyā. My task now is to try and find that fun version of me whose always been there.
Also, to try and guide Emperor for fame.
At the end of the day, everything is going very well.
In other news, I woke up today to another spontaneous reality shift.
I woke up stewing on the awkward interactions of last night and today I felt different. Nothing was the same in a way Iām too lazy to try and understand, I might as well just embrace it.
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This is really magic.
You said meditation and journaling and taking action is all you do. What kind of meditation do you do, why do you think it helps in general and with subs?
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I use three different meditation techniques depending on the day and time: visualization, focused attention, and zen style where I just try to relax and be as empty as possible and allow things to arise in the mind.
To put it in a practical way, when I meditate I only ever have 2 goals. Iām either focusing intently on my desires or Iām opening my mind and relaxing.
These days Iāve also been focusing on physical relaxation in my sessions. If the body is tense, the mind is tense. The brain controls the body, and tension is tension, regardless of how it manifests.
The big reasons why it helps is training focus and opening yourself up to the subconcious/intuitive messages that the busy mind tends to cover up.
When running subs, the more intuitive you can be, the better and faster the results. The only way Iāve found to increase my intuition is to still the mind and relax, meditation helps train that skill.
Thatās the how and why, my friend.
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Thoughts on NSE
Emperor is no longer limited. I can use it to be whatever I want to be. Yes, the archetype comes with some considerations. The dominance will change how people respond to me. I no longer give off Loki energy, I give off a very different energy.
One character thatās come up is Hercules from the Disney cartoon. Thatās how people see me on Emperor. Iām goofy and kind, but also very threatening which leads to the social shit.
What I understand now is that Iām learning a new way of life, something totally new but thatās always been me.
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Yeah, I feel the same way. I found that combining Emperor and NR really helped balance things out for me, especially when incorporating more positive modules like Chiron and Torchbearer.
Just using Emperor alone tends to make me too introverted for my taste.
I also agree with your point about focusing on one archetype at a time. I think experimenting with different archetypes simultaneously can lead to a lot of confusion for the brain and ends in recon.
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Results
While working today, I spent some more time reflecting on my journey, and something became very obvious to me. I have made tremendous progress, but my results make perfect sense for how Iāve been allowing my journey to unfold. Iāve also said this before, but in a different post, on a different day, in different words, but itās taken all this time for me to finally learn the lesson.
In the last 22ish months, Iāve listened to 18 different programs all for at least 1 cycle. The only exception is HoM which I only listened to for a single loop because the recon was so intense and instantaneous that I couldnāt handle it.
If you do the mathā¦well, yeah, thatās not proper listening protocol, now is it?
I was thinking today about the results of the subliminals that have been more āpermanentā and the most obvious are the results that I gained from Emperor, Wanted, RoM and Daredevil because those were the programs that I ran most consistently for the longest period.
Notable mentions are the lessons that I learned from Khan ST1, and DR:LD. Khan helped me see how delusional I was, but I didnāt have the strength to see the journey through. DR:LD helped me uncover and accept the deep core of narcissism within me that was sabotaging my efforts: making me immune to the advice of others because, after all, I knew best.
This isnāt the first, nor will it be the last time that I reflect sentimentally on my journey because this journey is stillā¦Hard to believe. Itās especially hard to believe that Iāve come this far in a state of near-constant over-exposure and severe recon.
To feel the weight of a lifetime of scars begin to heal and fade away as my dreams slowly but surely come fully fledged into my reality is nothing short of mind-boggling.
Iām still a skeptic deep down, and I know that my skepticism hinders my progress, but I honestly canāt believe it most days. I canāt believe that I can listen to water and bird noises and suddenly be earning more money, having girls chase me, and living my fantasies.
The only limitation with me has been my cowardice and my lack of trust.
Today, it came fully into my reality that I can accomplish the objectives of any subliminal, that I really can do anything, that nothing is out of reach. Itās all very close at hand. If you can do anything, why not do what you really want to do. Thatās the question Iāve been asking myself today.
I could do anything, be anyone, live any life that I please, so why donāt I live the one I want?
Emperor will be my companion on this journey for now. Itās teaching me lessons that I need to learn, and they are lessons well worth learning.
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Washout Day 5 - Cycle 2 - Emperor, Mindās Eye & Paragon
Today things seemed to clear for me.
Presults from Stark Black, interestingā¦
The path is clear to me now. Iām gonna stay on Emperor, ME, and Paragon until April. In April, Iāll wash out for a month, then Iāll start Stark Black.
Today the final bits of distracting recon were able to clear and I was able to see Emperor and my journey on it in a new light. Iām simply in a Winter season. Iām in a period where Iām buttoning up loose ends in my life so I can prepare myself for my journey with Stark Black.
Thatās 3 more cycles with this stack, the final cycle ends April 2nd, then Iāll wash out until May 1st, and start Stark Black.
Between now and May 1st, I have some goals that I need to accomplish. Iām still working on that as I write this, but Iām dedicating the remainder of this journey with Emperor to nailing down all those pesky goals that Iāve allowed to fall by the wayside while I was busy partying and chasing girls.
In the next couple days Iāll write out some very specific goals that I will accomplish between now and May 1st, but as a teaser they will include.
- Getting in the shape I wanna be in with a minimalist training plan
- Opening new pathways to financial manifestation through writing, investing, and possibly trading
- Earning more money through current manifestation pathways (goal will probably be at least 6-10 grand a month by May 1st, but Iāll do some work on the number)
- Paying off a certain amount of debt (will come up with a hard number)
- Getting a new car
- Getting new furniture to spruce up my house
- Refining my wardrobe
- Improving my health and beauty routine
- Expanding socially
- Anything else that Emperor throws my way.
Results
Mindās Eye has solved a nagging problem for me, itās given me more control and specificity in my manifestations. I wonāt go into much detail about this one, but itās a very welcome result.
Cavity gone. Rash clearing up. Persistent itch vanishing by the day.
Huge internal growth and perceptual shift. Nothing is the same.
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Thanks for this;.