There is a very interesting kind of cycle I seem to go through with my subliminals and my desire for action/meditations. I am recognizing a strong… will? power? belief? knowing? It’s hard to come up with the right word for it. The conviction or knowing/willing at the same time is based on the idea that, through correct means of directing my awareness, my energy, and through appropriate union of “inner” and “outer” (although this verbal description is only approximate) I can directly affect my own reality with minimal physical work, and it is this level of reality that I should be looking at mastering.
It’s not merely something that the subliminals are awakening in me, this is something I “knew” at some level before even starting Emperor. That being said, I feel like the work with the subliminals is pushing the limits of this level of development, or rather pushing me towards working with it.
What I’m talking about here has commonality with yogic discipline, but goes beyond it. I should try to explain what I mean by that.
Back in the days of internet relay chat, due to my abilities and smarts at the time, I came to know a 33 degree Mason that took a shine to me. At some stage on one of the lesser known IRC networks, he took it upon himself to tell me his understanding of that higher degree. He explained that essentially through alchemical processes - “solve et coagula” for example - the goal was to create a fusion of the different bodies into one which had properties something like mercury, or flowing wax. Of course, people like Maria Prophetessa and other alchemists would use these terminologies of fixing the volatile and making subtle the fixed body, they would say to spiritualize the body or fix the spirit. The eventual goal was for consciousness to have direct access and control over physical reality by creating the alchemical ladder or bridge.
At the time I dismissed his words due to considering his view too simplistic. As I evolved my own perspective and research, I started to understand how what he said could actually work.
In Hindu cosmology, Akasha is viewed as the element from which all others emerge, and that with which consciousness or spirit unites in order to create the universe. The quintessence in Alchemy is that which unites in harmony the four elements and is the Western equivalent of this Akasha. Akasha can have two forms, atomic (associated with the ahamkara) and non-atomic (associated with the ground of all being), much like particle and wave in quantum physics. In Tibetan Bon, it is called kunzhi and is both empty and “pure, luminous awareness”. In alchemy they describe the “light that shines in darkness”. We have Fulcanelli describe the active phase of spirit as “heat, light” etc.
Meditating on these ideas and the association of the visual metaphor of light with spirit, we begin to move towards an understanding of this one thing, this force of all forces which “vanquishes/masters all subtle things and penetrates all solid things”. Patanjali says by samyama on it, one gains the ability to “move through the air at will”. My old master used to say that this meant teleportation, and that by performing this activity a certain number of times you came into full alignment with that element, and as a result obtained perfect memory and lost the fear of death completely.
Speaking to one of my friends about it tonight, they ironically brought up Yggdrasil, the world tree, and I laughed my ass off for obvious reasons (the module in my custom). I could see exactly what they meant.
Mastery of this element is the key to mastery of the lower elements, and its self luminous nature is that of consciousness itself. I continue to be drawn towards this meditation and to its eventual mastery as the means by which other things can be accomplished (such as rapid integration of subliminals, or perfection of health whose key is the quintessence).
I don’t know which module or modules has been pushing me more towards this recently, but its something I’ve observed and I’m gathering my will towards making this meditation stronger and more profound, feeling it will eventually bear fruit in me.
). Also positive reaction from a local regular who is off limits who took the time to ask my name and ask if I sang and gave a very playful positive energy response to me saying not any more. Both of these reactions were sans mask. Mixed positive and neutral results. I will keep experimenting.