Mecharc ZP Public Testing

Subliminal Club LABS: Public Experimental Testing
#21

We all have bad days. if you get triggered by someone who has always been so loyal to your company, you’re aggressive tone will scare them away from reporting at all. At the same time I admit I Was lazy in my reporting … But your reply felt like you were trying to bully me for this mistake.

Let me clarify as to why I reported with the above

Until the point I read chosens sales page, I was determined that my December mental and physical porn healing stack would be the following

  1. my custom,
  2. Diamond ZP
  3. 1 from regeneration or limitless Zp. Whichever would be better for healing mental effects of porn addiction.

When I read chosen sales page, I couldn’t resist myself from putting that into my stack, as it’s objectives are in line with my long term goal.

But I had already planned to focus on getting rid of my porn addiction first. And chosen was diluting my stack. There was some internal incongruence growing inside, but I was trying to ignore the feelings and pushed on with the decision of havong chosen in my stack, until I PMO’d. I had a mini breakdown because My December streak was ruined.

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#22

Day 3.

Custom X1

Have been noticing this recurring pattern.

I wake up with a burst of energy early morning, the energy fizzles out within an hour and I crash for about 3 hours.

#23

I feel more in control of my psychosis and delusional episodes

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#24

Glad to hear that, a big step forward. Keep going, I believe in you :raised_hands: :slightly_smiling_face:

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#25

Went on a sudden trip to a high-mid end local restaurant. I was wearing flip flops, track suit and a T.

Everyone else was dressed up .

Not for once did I feel insecure. My body language was on point. I felt like a boss even though I was dressed near homeless.

I was eyeing this one girl. But she didn’t even look at me once. And it is not in the local culture to approach random girl especially In family restaurant settings.

Watched porn, jerked off, but stopped before the point of no return

#26

Day 4

Diamond X 1
Regeneration X 1

No Morning wood.
Even in my dreams, i’m having ED :sob:

I feel this unexplained anxiety

#27

This three title stack is really. Tricky, but I have not deviated from the listening instructions even once!

#28

Seriously?

I count 4 different subs and 5 loops total within 4 days.

Exactly which instructions are you not deviating from?

#29

Appart from the number of loops I think he just switched choosen to regeneration to heal some stuff

#30

He also ran those the day after running his custom.

#31

Hence why I said appart from the loops

#32

Oops… I forgot today was supposed to be a rest day… Honest mistake lol.

Exactly this @bujin @Melior

#33

Dude get some sleep XD and make an agenda

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#34

Day 5

Rest

I’m having complete loss of erections.

Slipping into slight depression

#35

DAY 6

Regeneration X 3 ( Please forgive me)
Diamon X 1

#36

There’s a difference between lazy reporting and setting up a narrative for yourself. You were saying “nothing is happening,” while things were clearly happening. It’s my job to point out when you (or anyone, for that matter) is missing something due to clear recon. It’s not even something I’m going to even really argue over. If I didn’t see the very clear patterns (that I see EVERY DAY from customers), I wouldn’t have said anything.

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#37

I have a very bad habit.
I blurt out more information than necessary all the time, with the slightest probe.

I think it stems from feeling really small about myself.i compensate this small feeling buly giving out private info, which I think will make me look big.
I hate myself for this

#38

I had a realisation that I’m not as confident as I thought I was… I don’t have enough power as I thought I did… I’m really weak.

I have repeatedly done same action of blurting out in the past. But I have always justified my actions. But today I realise that the action stems from lack of self worth

#39

I always point out the falut in others. I become angry with others because if their fault… Whereas, I commit the same fault, but to a greater magnitude, with graver consequences

#40

I’ve never felt a run so dear to me than the 2 back to back loops of Regeneration.

I know I went over the instructions, but the shit feeling I was going through l, I needed to dig out stuff.

I wish I had started my subclub journey with Regeneration and Ascension. I curse that banned individual who persuaded me to go with Khan instead. No! I curse myself for being persuaded by him. Well, at the same time I didn’t no any better.

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