Today begins day 12 on Khan Stage 1. I am listening to three loops. From now on I will take breaks between the loops.
This morning at 3 am I wrote about an intense dream I had:
The dream began with running after a guy for trespassing and then finding out he was actually allowed to be on property. Then I collect the bottles to exchange them for a meal.
I dream about accidentally making sexual advances on my co worker and threatening my old boss to leave the company when he wants to tell it everyone. My mother is suddenly there and he is playing with me and pointing that he could tell her. I decide to stop working for him. My mother compliments his hair when we walked out.
Then a copy shop scene - Color copies to expensive, me and my mother leave
I lose my mother when she enters a bus before I can enter
Then a scene where young people call me a loser and instead of just doing nothing I stay in the situation by gaining their attention asking what they got (drugs) and go to an vending machine to buy ice cream. They are behind me. And try to steal the ice cream. I don’t give it to them, but tell them they can have it when I have eaten my share. When they want to leave I provoked them and they beat me up. I tell them I need to be at work soon and ask them what they work. They tell me that they work nothing.
When they leave I lie on the floor and some other people come and I expect them to fight me and kick after them. Then I wake up.
This was a connected dream when I slept for 2 hours at night. The day before I listened to three loops of Khan Stage 1 in the morning. In the evening i listened to two loops of minds eye. It was the first dream which was very obviously connected to facing challenging situations and not acting nice.
I am listening to the audiobook “Not nice” by Dr Aziz Gazipura. Interesting spin on the “Nice Guy” topic.