Matt’s final journal [Chosen Limitless Sage ZP]

Journals - Major Programs
#141

Just read about the term Zero Point in a book.

I will wait with the customs and continue like that:

  • Chosen zp limitless zp
  • rest
  • Sage Immortal zp
  • rest

Although I guess much of my experience with zp came from my past ran custom and modules (love, forgiving, emotions unfettered, soul mate manifestations…) I want to see how these three titles will work together in future testing.

I still have a book to write and finish some other challenges. I guess the stack will help with the first phase (research) of my book project.

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#142

Woke up at 4:44 am - starting with limitless zp + chosen ZP into the first part of the day.

I changed the order of these two titles to see if there is a difference. Also I am listening with the volume a bit higher (masked). On the past I had the volume very low, now I am listening to above 50% on my HD280 with iPhone.

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6 minutes into limitless I already feel more awake in the mind. More alert although I just woke up.

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Will get to the writing device and start writing now.

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Insight while writing and listening to Chosen:

Listening/input is important to me.
Let go of output and listen.

#143

My date today was a learning experience.
I hate these kinds of dates were it isn’t obvious for me that it is a date.
I got uncomfortable by just listening and started talking too much.
Afterwards my heart felt hurt.
I could become more cynical and truthful by just following my own agenda.
But here my agenda was not clear to me.
I feared to lose the friendship. But now I see that there is no friendship. I won’t be friends with her anymore, I let her go completely.

It was a disaster because I didn’t set boundaries for myself.

Writing helps me a lot. Hahaha

I guess I know exactly what went wrong.
In had no clear intention and in the end I got hurt.

Shit happens. Let’s learn from it.

I need to define my relationship. I am the most important person in my relationships.

Let her go and move on.

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#144

Ok I can forgive myself and the woman.
That helps to see the situation clearer.
The date was fun, but the end was a bit frustrating. There were many highlights but at the end I Was tired and went home and she suddenly chose to go back to the get together.

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#145

This morning I feel better again. The hurt feeling in the heart is gone.
Tomorrow I will listen to Sage ZP.
I slept only a little and hope I will get through the day somehow.

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#146

2:22 am After 6 hours of sleep I am awake again.
Aggression was feeling yesterday.

Today I am calm.

Happy f***in new year 2022 everyone, if we don’t see each other until 2022.

After the date the day before yesterday, I was super horny and felt in love with the female friend I dated. Also aggression as mentioned before. Fapping and using phantasy helped to get through the sexual neediness.
The loving feelings were stronger but seem now to be gone.

It felt good to be in love, only the onenitis (focus to a single object/person) sucked.

Happy, happy, joy, joy.

See you next year or more soon.

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#147

Just started a social media diet.
Messengers are okay, but the timelines etc. are set to 5 minutes a day. I have a countdown for 30 days+ and am confident that this will get through. This is my start into 2022: Silence.

I have to let go of the fear of bothering people with my large output. But so long I want to focus on writing for a future longer publication.

Edit: Also I want to use the time to live more in real life and to create a better strategy for using social media for fun and profit.

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#148

I played Limitless and Chosen this morning.
After that I slept a few hours.
Then my sister called me and we talked about all kinds of matters like how our family has become so loving and that we grow together.
She sees my mom and dad in a different light and so do I. We are all connected.

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#149

Not intervening in peoples stories. Just going away silently. What if everyone is drunk in stories all the time, who cares? It’s just another story.

#150

There’s a book called end your story begin your life by Jim Dreaver. His whole practice in the book is seeing through your story in the moment and he says if you stay with that at some point you will wake up.

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#151

Yes, I listened to that book for going to sleep for a while.

#152

Today I met a friend from the past by coincidence. He envied me for my past choices and recommended me to look for a better position if my current doesn’t suit me because we software people are taken everywhere at the moment.

Now… I learned that chosen is important to me. Sage immortal was important to me because it showed me the great work of my spiritual journey. Limitless on the other hand I am a bit unsure about.

What I am sure about is my „Love custom“ and also my „social media personality custom“. These are obviously in QV2 as there are no ZP customs yet.

QV2 isn’t broken so I continue using them. With ZP there is a three title max. So additionally I will listen to Chosen Zp.

This is the plan currently. I will report back after it is installed.

Social media diet is giving me a lot of boredom. I am reducing social media to 15-30 minutes a day. So I post 2 posts everyday in different accounts.

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#153

Another date on Friday. Should I use my natural charm and game which only sometimes works or should I boost? lol

I don’t know how to boost. So I will remember the best of seduction theory I know.

It’s also a social circle date, so I don’t want to be awkward. Being honest and present without outcome in mind could work.

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#154

All the new titles make me want to snack here and there but I can resist. It’s like that joke “There’s an app for that” only like “There’s a ZP sub for that”.

Currently on my wish list for using again is: Diamond ZP. Can wait because currently the sex life is not that important to me.

I am just checking out my options while dating. Living in a large city I can feel the abundance of women. And there are always new women coming to this place. So no need to hurry.

Plus manifestations are real. Shifting my mindset about dating and intimacy and I will get what I want. I am confident about that.

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#155

I feel so bored. Time to take action.
Some self-care like cleaning the kitchen has to be done. And before I do that, I will get something to eat.
Boredom is probably a sign of avoidance. Avoiding what needs to be done.

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#156

Listened to Chosen and Mind’s eye today in the early morning.
Received an artsy message from my date for Friday. This is the woman I could fall in love with after first meeting her. I am excited, but also aware that for me the best way to relax is just to have fun.

Lately, I am doing little physical exercise to stay more awake. For example, walking 2x faster than usual. Something I can integrate in everyday life.

Just did some heart chakra exercises this morning. Breathing in light and love through the back channel of the heart. Filling the body with love and light. Sending out love and light into the world unconditionally. Happy, happy, love, love.

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#157

Some women try to seduce me and I feel the sexual energy. But I go on with my business because I am free.
There is abundance.

Lately I am thinking that there is no such thing as an „alpha“ male. Okay it’s a metaphor. But they all become human if I choose so.

Still I am seeing energy vampires who try to suck me into their fake suffering. I just ignore them and shine brighter. Some people need their time to suffer, it’s none of my business. But they should not try to make others Suffer with them. So I say f you and then go on and forgive.

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#158

It is Sunday and I slept too much.

I noticed some attachment / neediness issue again. On Friday, I had another date, and I am still thinking about her with feelings like I am missing her. She invited me to stay at her place, but I didn’t do my job and acted escalating. I am probably blocked in this direction. So we drank coffee in the morning and I left.

Thinking about stop using alcohol because it is making me tired and disinterested in going after my goals. Next date should be one without alcohol.

With the woman from Friday, I will let her go. If she comes back, there will be another meeting without drinking. She is nearly 10 years younger than me, and I still like her - she showed me to her friends and I didn’t like them - bored the hell out of me. I have to let go and say next until there is something else happening.

I fear the onenitis, it’s a lower energy level of attachment.

#159

Meditated a bit, did a letting go exercise and slept a bit more. Now my heart feels clearer.

Still thinking about how to seduce her but also seeing it clearly. She either thinks I am coward or I don’t like her. But who cares what she thinks? I care about her but she seems to be very shy. I give her space. If she comes back I can see what’s happening.

I hate following rules when dating but I reached out to her yesterday, so it’s now her time to reach out.

Back to subliminals: Thinking about running diamond again. It could be useful in the near future. If only to let me act more sexual.

And to dating: no more alcohol dates for me. It makes me tired and morally conflicted about consent etc…. Friday I drank six beers during a few hours and lost my brain a bit.

Sunday today is fun day. Listening to music. Getting the mind and heart clear again.

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#160

Now I think I f**ked it up. I asked her to see her again this weekend, and she wrote that she is out of town. I will continue letting her go and get back into abundance mode.

This morning I listened to my “love” QV2 custom.

The story from Friday is now as absurd in my mind as the story with the sandwiches. I once heard about a guy who was inviting women over to his place after dates for a sandwich. And then he just made them sandwiches. Ha ha ha. The same way she invited me over to her place and I didn’t even try to kiss her. I can laugh about it, but also hope that I am learning a lesson here.

Escalation is sexy as 60yoc put it.

I will move on now. There will be no third meeting with her.