That was funny.
I felt that I didn’t really notice anything in response to Hero today.
But then when I sat down to write about it, all of these ideas poured out that seem pretty clearly to be my mind processing Hero Origins.
As per usual. My conscious awareness is the last to know what goodies our subconscious processes are cooking up down there in the kitchens.
So just enjoy the smells and wait for dinnertime.
I also find myself getting sexual healing insights that I think may be connected to Khan Black among other things.
Basically in line with, and an acceleration of, ideas that have been coming to me over the past few years.
Thoughts like:
The way it’s supposed to work is that if you’re good with someone, and you communicate well with them, and you enjoy them, then within that context, sex is another cool way to explore with that person.
You’re not trying to force a horse to be a rhinoceros type thing. You’re facing and accepting things as what they are, and seeking out those places and people that you genuinely enjoy and are cool to explore further.
Actually, it did kind of happen like that for me. But I don’t think that I understood back then that that was exactly how it was supposed to be happening. There was a bunch of angst around what I could or couldn’t do.
haha
Maybe some of that would have been unavoidable.
But it’s good to have a clearer picture.
I’m finding myself today reflecting on the macroperspectives and implications (economic, social, cultural) of the major communications revolutions that have been going on over the past 25 years.
As a kid, my sense of—and capacity for—common humanity was less than it is now. I think this is a part of us that grows over time. It’s not that it replaces the other ways of experiencing other people; it’s more that it starts to grow alongside them.
Regarding and reflecting upon your parents from the vantage point of common humanity produces very different results and responses.
Completely experience your incomplete experience.
In other words:
Have a (subjectively) complete experience of your (objectively) incomplete experience.
The most significant part of human beings (or any being) is also the part to which we pay the least explicit attention:
Consciousness, or sentience
Try to get a handle on it
Revelation of Mind and Revelation of Spirit capture my Calling in this life;
but Genesis addresses one of my main deficiencies: taking action to engage with and connect to others in the world.
This is not a “should” thing; it’s not about what I “should” be doing.
It’s about exploring what I really want and how I really want to live.
Phenomenological Engagement and Facilitation seem to be what I’m about as an intellectual, spiritual, and creative/vocational path.
Woke up this morning tired, but also feeling a somewhat higher than usual visceral awareness of consciousness.
In a way, it’s exactly what I’m asking for and working for, but it’s also pretty trippy and potentially disorienting.
I don’t mean anything too cinematic, it’s more like your eyes open and you look around with a feeling of ‘wait a minute. what is all of this? …oh, that’s right. …Existence.’ It used to happen more frequently in my 20s and 30s, I think.
Anyway, although today was originally scheduled as a subliminal meditation day, I’ve decided to take more processing time. I’ll meditate today without subs and see how my mind feels tomorrow. I’m also taking it as a nudge to pay more attention to grounding. Had a bunch of clothes accummulating that were slung over a railing, so I put them all in a pile, hung up the fresh ones, and put the dubious ones to be washed.
Now, I’m sitting down to plot and plan out the day.
Here we are.
A blessing upon your day, Malkuth!
Man. 
Very much appreciated.
And a blessing on your evening. Hope the party today went well and exceeded any expectations.
Meditated during lunch hour, from 1 to 2. Now, I need to get ready for meetings until 9:30 tonight.
Meditation session felt very smooth.
Juxtaposing attention to/“witnessing of” the flow of perceptions through my small awareness with stretching to imagine the big picture of All-That-Is.
Be very careful about letting people kill your ideas
One of our specialties as human beings is commenting, confidently no less, on matters with which we have very little experience and about which we do not actually know much.
In fact, often it’s the case that the less understanding a person has on a given matter, is the more confidently they will hold forth on it.
It’s not a bad thing, per se. But it is a misleading thing.
Dogs bark and humans opine.
I find it encouraging that today I felt like taking another rest day. it suggests that my mind is actively processing the subs. Yesterday, I watched a lot of Star Trek: Enterprise, and I’m guessing that was no coincidence either.
Reduced my primary custom to 3 minutes today and then meditated with subs.
But I suddenly noticed that when I trimmed the files in AudioShare it was converting the file type to .wav.
I’ll need to look into this, but I like to avoid any alterations to the subliminal files. Hopefully I’ll find a solution.
I noticed those wav files, I was going to ask if you were worried about damaging the subliminal audio somehow by editing them. I was interested in editing the audio to different lengths too but I don’t really know what I’m doing so I haven’t tried anything.
Used iTunes tonight to play 2 minutes of Phenomenaut Genesis and 3 minutes of Hero Origins. Both Ultrasonic. Earlier today, I’d played 3 minutes each of the same two programs, but since AudioShare converted the file formats to .wav, I wanted to give it another go.
For as long as I’m doing shorter loops, I’ll just use the computer and listen separately from meditation sessions. Not a problem. It’s just a few minutes. Kind of nice to change things up.
Will be interesting to see if there are any changes associated with this new way of listening.
Why does this sound like a “quote of day?”
One meeting down. One meeting to go.
Both meetings are with groups. First one was a larger group. 2nd one is a bit smaller and more intimate.
Need to find a family doctor/general practitioner. That’s a little project on the table right now.
Wonder where things are headed right now.
On the subliminals side, it’s kind of interesting and novel to be working with shorter/micro-loops. And it’s kind of cool to be listening on the computer again, and not during meditation sessions. Since I can’t find a good way to edit down the lengths of the tracks for adding to a meditation playlist, I figured I’d just listen while I’m at the computer. It reminds me of when I first started with Sub Club.
Anyway, not that much to say at the moment, I guess. Let’s see what I do with this day.
Consciousness.