Smooth flowing morning meditation (with subliminals) 9:20 am to 10:20 am
Just finished two morning meetings.
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Things got pretty busy and overwhelming workwise over the past month.
Got my ass kicked a little bit.
Now things are a little quieter again. I’m taking a breath and regathering my resources.
Some things didn’t go well, but some things held together.
Emperor is supporting me in this journey to get settled at the steering wheel of my life. Not there yet.
But increasingly I’m remembering to ask:
What do I want to make of this situation?
What do I want to create here?
My bandwidth is gradually increasing.
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When I get overwhelmed, one of the first things to shut down is my communication with others.
Saturn in Gemini.
This definitely creates issues.
One thing I’ve been working on is remaining in contact even when I am uncomfortable.
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I’m noticing an increasing desire to take the reins and to make things happen rather than waiting for them to happen.
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Regret is a mode of relating to the present that masquerades itself as relating to the past.
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Strange, though it may seem, a fight is a kind of agreement
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If I just go straight to the core and remove all of the footnotes, the augmentations, and the details, here is my Subliminal Club journey:
Sept 2019 to May 2020: Ecstasy of Gold, which led me to
June 2020 to May 2021: Alchemist and Quantum Limitless, which revealed the need for
July 2021 to June 2022: Dragon Reborn
and now
August 2022 to now and beyond: Emperor, my strategic ‘weak link’, which is serving as the unifying crux of all that has gone before.
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Feeling aware that there is a lot of accumulated tension in my system. It’s quiet; but it’s there. Gradually working my way through it.
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Am I the only one who thinks,
Shilajit/ Shilajit to quit
whenever he takes shilajit?
(deep thoughts)
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mastery of craft
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Kind of an empty feeling this morning.
Interesting.
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I’m glad I noticed it,
because now I can do something about it.
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I am finally feeling my Metamorphosis module.
It’s not that it was not processing before; it’s that my awareness made the appropriate shift to be able to connect with it.
I can feel myself remembering and reconnecting with awarenesses from the past.
We are constantly encouraged to engage ourselves as visual objects in space.
Experience yourself as a condensation of somatosensory energy flows.
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Accept that you are in the space that you are in,
But
Remember that you do not have to be in this space.
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Woke up at 10 am today. Had an 11 AM meeting scheduled, so no morning meditation today.
I’ll do it afterwards. It’s also a sub day.
I’ll look forward to that.
On a break right now, and then I’ll go back to have the second half of the meeting.
And the beat goes on…
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So many things that we think of as the focus of living a decent life are actually side-effects of living a decent life.
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Yesterday, subs with meditation 8 pm to 9 pm.
Last night, active dream life.
Journeying through another world. Different life forms. Yet they still felt so real, normal, and accessible.
Group of people traveling together through this new place.
Some themes were familiar from past dreams over the years:
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The Shore, boundary between the Land and the Sea
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Making brief forays into the water to travel parallel to the coast line. Always another place to encounter different life forms. And to travel faster, more freely, and more perilously than on the earth.
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Finding a place to do pull-ups. A not-uncommon image in my dreams. Apparently, doing pull-ups is one of my safe and happy places internally, and a kind of touchstone of and symbol for ‘finding what I need’
There was one very interesting scene in which two objects that looked like rocks, barnacles, or corals/shells, kind of ‘unwound’ themselves, and became these almost snail like animals that then walked/slid away. It looked almost like one of those stereograms when they unwound themselves.
Overall the atmosphere and feeling of the dreaming was one of comfort, interest, engagement, and curiosity. That is new for me.
I’ve been playing my integrated stack (all 3 custom subs) now for over 6 months; and it’s interesting that they still feel like they’re just beginning.
This is a journey.
The activity - Walking - may be the same, but the places, levels, and domains through which we pass continue to change and unfold actively and with novelty.
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In other words,
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“What’s Kraken?”
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