One of the key steps in manifesting desires:
Being able to Recognize and Receive the results that come to you.
If what you’re asking for is a change, then it may be unfamiliar to you, and you may not recognize it when it shows up.
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Had a subtle HoM moment yesterday.
I have been running a House of Medici custom since October 2022. In December or so, I started finding myself having moments of appreciation for colleagues here or there. I read some comments that one colleague wrote on a report, and I thought, ‘Wow. She’s brilliant. I really admire her discernment!’ Later, I was at an external review meeting with 4 or 5 other colleagues. As one of them began to talk, I found myself really admiring how his mind organized ideas in real-time. ‘This guy has a clean, well-organized style of thinking and speaking. Almost like writing.’
Yesterday, I had the occasion to meet briefly with that second person. When we’d finished the main part of the meeting, I shared with him, ‘I admire the way that you construct ideas. At some point, I’d like to work on a project with you.’ He seemed pleased and told me about something that he’d been thinking about working on, and we shared ideas for 2 minutes. (I had to go.) It sowed the seeds for collaboration later on.
That seems like an HoM manifestation. A subtle one.
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10th Processing Day.
Tomorrow starts a new cycle. During meditation I’ll play my subliminals.
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Finally, another play day.
Meditated 12:45 pm to 1:45 pm.
Naissance ZPv2
Sapiens ZPv2
PATHS ZPv2
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I was feeling a kind of energetic emptiness earlier. Not sadness. Not quite depression. Not even exactly apathy. But a kind of state of mind where you could sit in one spot for a long time, and in which you’d not feel much impulse to do anything. I wondered if it was somehow related to processing my stack, as today was my first day back to it. Probably one of several factors.
Anyway, today was a run day. This evening I jogged 2 miles. Thought that would help with processing whatever was being processed. And it did.
I really love my stack.
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Tonight’s music:
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And here’s another one of my own. Posted it here before a while ago.
This one has the energy of my magick and my subliminals in it. I wrote it in July 2020. I was just about a month into my ultra-stack of Alchemist, Quantum Limitless, Mind’s Eye Terminus2 and my original 2 Terminus Q-store customs. (This was a different time. Long before ZP.)
I can still remember the energy and feeling of that time. I was about a month into doing my 6-mile walks a few times a week, that eventually became daily.
Lots of determination and hope.
and magick
Every image in the video shares a theme in common.
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Phenomenological engagement
Phenomenological, facilitation
Phenomenological journey
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“Magick” to me:
Being in a room with closed blinds, and then opening the blinds.
You’ve changed nothing more than your level of engagement.
Everything was already there, but now you’re simply acknowledging and interacting with more of it.
"What exists beyond the tiny kernel of my consciousness?"
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I am noticing a gentle, subtle shift occurring in my meditations.
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Really liked the music, @Malkuth. And loved those guys dancing with their shoulders haha. Made me chuckle.
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Reflecting on nostalgia
Nostalgia:
Missing the delusions of times past. When I wasn’t looking as closely, and could believe non-critically.
Missing something that never happened.
?
hmmm…
but also missing certain body states and mind states of reverie, maybe.
The effortlessly brimming qi of youth
It can still brim now. But it’s gonna take some effort this time, brother.
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Been in a place of non-music-making for some months.
1 or 2 weeks ago, I made myself start composing a sketch.
Here it is. No sauce. Just the basic idea as it emerged. I’ll go back to it later at some point and transform it some more.
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We often don’t realize just how integral imagination is to even the most “unimaginative” perceptions or senses of reality.
Perception is, essentially, an expression (or function) of imagination.
Imagination is still very active when you’re not recognizing it or intentionally engaging it. It’s arguably even more influential and active under such a condition since it’s free to create without interference or oversight.
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I’ve been blessed to have a gentle return to working out (as mentioned above somewhere). This continues.
I think that this is one of the gifts of Emperor in my custom. And I think it’s also what my bodymind is doing to generate the energy required for development in line with my stack.
I’m keeping the workout gentle.
It was humbling to return to the gym for the first time about a month ago. I have not lifted weights over the last 3 or 4 years. Back when I was active, my bench press sets used to be between 225 and 245 pounds. This time when I returned, I found that 145 pounds felt like a lot.
But my priority is to strengthen my tendons and ligaments. And also the muscles. So I don’t want to push too hard or try to increase too quickly. The point is gradual, sustainable growth over time. We’ll figure it out.
I’m already feeling a nice physical engagement and strengthening. I figure it will make sense to post workouts on here sometimes.
So here’s tonight’s:
(I do two light warm-up sets at the beginning, followed by 4 working hypertrophy sets on an 8-6-4-2 rep sequence, then end with a light cooldown set.)
Nice progress from last month.
And the only module in my customs that is directly related to this result is Emperor. Pretty amazing.
On the other hand, in my previous Physical Healing custom POOLS, there was SPS: Muscular System. I played that back in May and June 2022. Bloom? Who knows?
I also found myself getting back to jogging/running, and making gentle steady progress there as well. In 1 to 2 weeks, I’ll be relatively comfortable doing a 3-mile run 3 to 5 times a week. It’s like my own natural form of Fusion Optimized (which was also in last year’s POOLS custom). As the body gets more efficient at producing energy, there are more resources available to fuel all kinds of growth processes.
And we’re also gently angling into 內功 (Inner “Strength”) development.
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Get over yourself
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Good job man. I have been considering getting back into barbell training this year after a few years away from it too. I get a bit turned off by the thought of training fatigue and niggling injuries. Your slow and steady method is a smart one, I’ll do something similar.
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Thanks, bru. It feels good. Always got to be careful and hold back in the gym. It’s when I start feeling like I’m in 300 that things start to go left. In the past, the stronger I became the more I was at risk. It’s hard not to get greedy with progress.
The truth is, the secret to my workouts has always been good music. Songs that make me feel a combination of beauty and anger have always fueled my workouts. I’d play some for a while and then I’d need to swap them out when the emotion faded. haha.
Here are some of the songs that have fueled my workouts at various points:
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Our world, exactly as it is, is extremely strange.
You are an animal; an animal.
Think about that.
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Needed to wake up son at 6:15 am today to depart for a several day class trip. That changed the morning routine, so I have not meditated yet today. But it is a subliminal day. I’m thinking of doing the meditation and subliminal hour tonight pre-sleep for a change.
Have been having more mental activity during sleep these days. Dreams and so on. Encouraging to know that things are being processed.
Was particularly noticing Storyteller and Polyglot this past week. Interesting how gradual and steady the expression of various modules is. The slow build continues.
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