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#524

I see Ego Death as the ending of a certain way of life. I think it’s more akin to the dying of a particular form of government than to an actual political assassination.

Every major transition or growth in life involves the loss, the ending, or the dying of a particular dream of who we believed ourselves to be. There’s always a kind of grief and longing involved in such transitions.

But your ego is your illusory sense of being a separate, independent entity. It’s a wonderful, important illusion. Recognizing that it’s an illusion dies not kill the illusion. It simply demotes it somewhat.

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#525

After 6 grueling weeks, I finally got the luxury today to spend an hour and a half studying information that I love. There are probably about 20 to 30 books that I want to read right now. And that in itself feels like a kind of wealth.

I’m not trying to speed-read. If anything, I prefer the converse. I like to read books aloud, while walking in a room. If possible, I record it. And at some point, maybe I’ll actually go back and listen to some of the recordings.

Anyway, today finally feels like good ‘food’ for Sage Immortal and Quantum Limitless. They’ve probably been pacing frustratedly waiting to get some stimulation.

:pray:t6:

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#526

To hold to a posture of certainty in the face of the Unknown.

This is the forte and also the tell-tale sign of ego.

Sometimes it’s useful, and even vital to survival; other times it projects a self-imposed prison of one’s own (unknowing) design.

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#527
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#528

Tomorrow, 17 January 2023 ends my first active play phase with ZP v2.

This Saturday I chose to join up with Damo Mitchell’s online Nei Gong course. Earlier in the day, I was fortunate to find time to read halfway through Chapter 3 of A Comprehensive Guide to Daoist Nei Gong. I’ll gradually make my way through the whole book.

That evening, I weighed it and chose to take his course. And now I’ll see where it takes me. I’m 49 years old, and I’m not looking for a hero or a perfect teacher. I’m my own parent. I don’t need that from someone else. Instead, I just admire and appreciate what other human beings are able to learn and to achieve. And that’s enough. So, here we go.

And again, we’ll see where I take this path.

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#529

You can’t encompass or accommodate the Infinite; but you can engage it.

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#530

I’ve read Damo’s books before. The feeling I get from him is that he’s a very trustworthy source of information when it comes to Nei Gong and Nei Dan. I believe you won’t regret learning from him :pray: .

加油 Malkuth, 道山学海!

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#531

:pray:t4::pray:t4::pray:t4:

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#532

Don’t make the path into an achievement. Achievements are cheap.

Don’t make discipline into some stupid battle.

Make it a love affair. Make it a breath of life-giving air.

Worth much more than Success or Victory.

Not in competition with failure or defeat.

Let your practices and your paths embrace and heal your failures and defeats.

Let your practice contain them and, in containing them, transcend them.

Thus, There is no distraction and There is no failure.

No moment or condition is not within this path.

Every step brings you,
one
step
closer
.

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#533

The funny secret about all of these so-called instructions for meditation?

They actually come after meditation, not before.

“Don’t let them fool ya…no, no….”

-Robert Nesta Marley

:blue_heart:

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#534

Wow. Carpe Diem Ascended is definitely engaging.

Most odd.

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#535

Can you describe what it’s doing for you? I’ve never used it, sounds like it’s quite a driver for you.

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#536

Firstly:

Extreme motivation and ambition is paramount to fulfilling your life’s goals and becoming the man you want to be. This module is created for the sole purpose of manifesting and developing incredible amounts of motivation, drive and ambition, that will cause you to go after your ambitions relentlessly. Some other powerful effects include immense satisfaction whenever you achieve something (even something as simple as cleaning or eating well) and the amazing love for life you will develop. Waking up happy, motivated and driven to conquer everyday is now reality.

I can’t really improve on the description except to add a .gif.

yes-oh-hell-yes

It adds a few parts of that into you.

It’s funny because there are parts of me that are still discouraged or tired. But these parts simply exist simultaneously.

I’ve had a similar phenomenon occur around meditation; one part of me will feel kind of discouraged and another growing inner part feels great joy. For no special reason.

The mind is like, ‘yup. I can contain multitudes. You can sit down and try to figure it out if you have time to waste. Otherwise, just take advantage of this gift and keep it moving.’

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#537

That’s really interesting how parts of you can charging ahead while other parts are not. It’s not an all or nothing approach. I must have over looked or didn’t read that module fully. Sounds like the essence of a life coach in a module.

Thanks for taking the time to answer my query.

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#538

This one just came back to me this morning.

I think this is a really well-constructed song.

But there is one funny part. :sweat_smile: After having known of this song for many decades, I finally listened closely enough to realize that I’d been hearing the lyrics wrong. :rofl:

The chord progressions, the bass line, the key and key changes all give it a kind of darkly mysterious feel. And of course as a kid I picked up on that atmosphere. And I guess listening through that filter influenced what I heard. I always thought he was saying, “You’re half of the flesh. And blood makes me whole.”.

As a kid, I thought, “whoa. That’s kind of dark.” Like he was some sort of dark creature, singing this song about his half-dead or only partially human beloved. Kind of odd for a pop song, but what did I know? I was 11 or 12. hahahah.

Now I realize he was just saying, ‘….That you’re half of the flesh and blood that makes me whole’. Very different sentiment there. Just a poetic way of saying that he viscerally needs her.

Realizing that just now cracked me up.

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#539

I have, other than Emperor itself, about 5 productivity modules in my stack:

Carpe Diem Ascended, Productivity Unleashed, Victory’s Call, Organization Perfected, Machine: Action.

They’re really helping me with my tendency to be non-communicative. I’m finding that I respond more quickly (or, at all) to emails and messages. And this is an area that makes a big positive difference.

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#540

I’ve been telling more stories in my work. And often when I do, I think about Story Teller in my custom. I wonder how it’s all coming across.

Tonight the people looked happy. I hope so.

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#541

And tonight I called up my Dad, just because I haven’t heard his voice in a couple weeks and wanted to check in.

He told me many stories and recollections from his childhood. He was just in the mood to do so.

A good way to spend the 3-miles-walk home.

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#542

I’ve been experiencing this striking discouraged, heavy energy in the past week or so. Wonder how much it has to do with the changes my mind is building.

I’ve been with my stack since 1 October 2022. But, on the other hand, I’ve only been with the ZP v2 version of my stack since 31 December 2022.

17 January was my latest play day. 18 January to 27 January are my resting/processing days. (And fittingly, the Lunar New Year falls right in the middle there.) So, I’ll watch with interest how these changes continue to unfold.

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#543

Only when you grow stronger do you get a true respite.

Simple escape or avoidance are no respite.

Because you’re still hunted(haunted) in your mind.

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