Look a little bit longer before you give up.
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Waking up without the alarm these days.
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Okay, 10th of 10 processing days.
I’ve had dream activity and dream recall every night/morning of this processing period. Habitual or past insecurities have usually played at least a somewhat contributing role or theme in the dreams.
I’m probably processing inner insecurities/fears and past experiences. (And I haven’t run Dragon Reborn since July.)
I’m guessing this is part of my processing of Emperor. (But it would be interesting if this was also partially a delayed effect from Dragon Reborn.)
As mentioned, I’ve been waking up before the alarm.
My communications have been, not quite assertive, but it’s like I’m even less willing to misrepresent my interests, views, or desires.
And there’s also the subtle aforementioned impatience.
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Day 1 of 18 Exposure days. (Well, technically only 6 of those are actual exposure days, but… Day 1 of an 18-day Active Exposure period, we’ll say it that way).
First day back with my beloved customs: Naissance, Sapiens, and PATHS.
Felt a kind of shift by about day 8 of the processing days (or ‘rest’ days). As though I probably could have resumed then. But I like staying with the plan.
Meditated this morning with subs, from 7:45 am to 8:45 am. When I was done, I got dressed and went outside for a 6-mile walk from about 9:10 to 10:40.
Had an 11 am meeting scheduled. That just finished not too long ago.
And then one more meeting at 2 pm today.
So it’s kind of an active day.
The walk was sunny and warm, and that was probably beneficial.
Did a set of 12 pull-ups when I passed the bar in the park. But, I’m feeling some medial epicondylitis going on in my right arm, so I’m taking it easy. Will aim to take glucosamine chondroitin this week and maybe do some therapeutic exercises and see how that helps.
This is only the second play period of playing my entire stack all together. This is the plan for the foreseeable future. It feels good to not be patiently working my way through another multi-stager right now.
I’m a long-term growth guy. That’s what I want. Things that come and go quickly don’t really matter to me so much. It feels good to be able to focus on that.
And that, basically, is what it’s going to be.
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Everything that is expressed in words is Descriptive, and has (actual or potential) experiential correlates.
Exercise and explore experiential Intellect.
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one step at a time
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As usual, work in progress.
The Image
One of the Dragon’s Powers is to divide itself into 10 billion molecular dragons and to literally descend into the deepest parts of every cell of your body. Wherever it flies, its fiery energies ignite the healing, evolutionary power lying dormant at every level of your being. Every cell of your being, galvanized, energized, healing, transforming.
An unbelievable renewal.
It starts gradually, and then a wave of pure healing power and Dragon Energy cascades through your entire being. With 10 million parts all working together, building together, and synergizing.
And as soon as its work is complete, the dragon emerges from within us, reunites, and ascends upward to disappear into the Heavens,
as suddenly as it came.
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Today is my first day after returning to stack.
Took me longer to fall asleep last night. Probably slept by around 3 and change. Woke a bit after 8 o’clock.
Not much dream recall this morning.
Meditated from 8:50 am to 9:50 am.
It occurs to me that if I can allow my worldview to shift a little bit, it will be easier to observe, recognize, and track subliminally-facilitated development.
I’m still kind of stubborn and rigid in my perceptions about the relationship between Conscious Awareness and Reality.
I guess that the fact that I’m even having this thought indicates that something within me is becoming a little more flexible. Makes me think that Spiritual Freedom, The Merger of Worlds, and maybe Harmonic Singularity are synergizing to help me along. They’re all together in my NAISSANCE custom.
Naissance is the one that I’ve been feeling most clearly in the past 2 weeks.
Books, teachings, teachers, and practices got manifested. Very smoothly.
But there is, intentionally, a lot of resonance between NAISSANCE ZP and SAPIENS ZP.
And yesterday I had a moment of clarity about the direction of my life’s work. That clarity feels connected to both Naissance and Sapiens.
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Last night, I noticed Ultimate Writer starting to take effect.
Wife asked me to help write a kind of description of the art initiative that she helmed last year. I noticed an easy flow state emerging as I worked on it.
Also, a lot of mental pressure yesterday and blocked, low energy. Thought it might be a recon expression.
Fell asleep relatively easily last night.
Dream recall again.
I lived in a remote location. But my organization was hosting some kind of international conference. People from my part university were there. I ended up talking to this woman who I barely knew (in real life); but who I think I remember being friendly to me. This was such a tenuous connection that I almost wasn’t sure if it was a real person. But that’s how memory is. Apparently she’s still hanging out in my mind somewhere.
Woke without alarm at 5:45 or so.
Meditated from 6:15 to 7:15.
As the meditating hour ended, Natalie Merchant was playing in my mind. The song I posted just before this post. I used it as the alarm to wake up my son.
Now, staying on deck while my son gets ready for school.
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Part of growing up involves taking responsibility not just for your own choices, but for the larger patterns of your social context that you tacitly support.
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Carnival is on my list of “most well written songs of all time,” and no lie—was one of the things that started my inner transformation.
It was when I moved to San Francisco for a bit and was just walking around exploring with my earbuds on. The song came on and I always liked the melody of it but had never really listened to it.
I listened that day.
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And, today, so have I (just now).
So many years since I heard that.
But I actually remember that it was used as part of the roll-out for the album. There’s that unique, minimal guitar riff (D#-E-D#) that repeats periodically. It’s permanently in my memory.
Just watched the video, and it was like, ‘man, this must be the last video from when New York still looked like that.’ pre-Giuliani. Though I guess he was already in office. Times Square peep shows got replaced with the Disney Store. haha.
A time of many transitions.
As my daughter would say,
‘life is so…’
San Francisco. Berkeley. Beijing.
So many people. So many souls. So many memories and textures.
All of us here doing the Mortal Coil Shuffle.
haha.
I’m in Recon-land.
But there’s beauty here too…
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Just got an Emperor-Quantum Limitless manifestation.
Guided to the work of a brilliant researcher. Andrea Gaggioli. I’ve seen his work before. Even cited it. But today there was an added recognition of ‘Duh! This is exactly the direction I’ve been wanting to explore.’
Sometimes manifestations are about recognizing the potential of what was already around you.
Often there’s an energetic component to manifestation: the opportunity existed all along, but now you have the internal energy and state of mind to begin engaging fruitfully with it. A subtler dimension of manifestation.
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Hi Malkuth, hope you are well! I am looking for your sage advice, any insight would be appreciated!
Do you think the module Deus still has value in ZP customs and especially with the nature of zp tech, if so how? How would this be compared to qv2?
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Tuesday 1/11/2022 1 November
2nd exposure day. As usual, the actual listening session felt very comfortable.
Got more sleep last night. About 12:35 to 7:30. Might have had dreams. That was hours ago and I’ve already forgotten.
Had one scheduled meeting this morning. None this afternoon.
Feeling very grateful for my stack.
Other stuff going on. Will let mind settle and report more later.
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This is such a good question. I’ve wondered the same about Mosaic.
ZP has such an enhanced functionality that it overlaps with some of the original Results Enhancers.
I don’t know the answer. My intuition says that DEUS would still add power and enhance the expression of the overall custom.
Let’s think about it more and see what we think. Do you have DEUS in your custom(s)? Or maybe you’re considering whether you still want to include it?
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Challenging family issues appear tonight.
Do what I can. Trust the process.
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Over the past 2 to 3 weeks, I’ve been drawn back back to taijiquan and neigong.
Will follow the path and see where it leads.
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Storm day.
Schools and businesses closed.
Slept in and meditated late.
11:35 to 12:35
Kind of a swirly meditation. Like a snow globe that had been shaken.
Always useful to get a sense of where your mind is. What the prevailing weather conditions may be.
Helps you to keep tabs on yourself.
When your mind is less grounded and centered, it affects the way you generate and characterize circumstances, the way you evaluate conditions, and so on.
Lucky to have a practice.
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