No dreams on WB to report (maybe they happened and I don’t remember). I was looking forward to something nice but alas, it is what it is.
Thinking about the stripper thottie that approached me last week, I really sold the bag on that one. I didn’t even know how to handle that type of interaction with that type of girl because it never happened before. I’m in a bit of recon and beating myself up over it. I’m just embarrassed of myself and certain aspects of my life which I feel hurt my dating life, but 1) not everything can be perfect and 2) they’re just excuses because I can still date despite that singular problem.
I also think the recon is occurring in conjunction with me beginning KBBC Stage 2. When I was 19 I beat myself up for missing a clear opportunity to ask out a gorgeous & intelligent girl that was giving me so many signs, and that girl popped back into my head today.
KBBC2 and WB are reminding me of my past failures, and how continuing the same mistakes of tentativeness and shame will lead to the same regrets I’ve had before. At least I can’t blame myself if I just go for it, whereas those 2 opportunities are moments of me genuinely blaming myself because I was either ashamed, confused or scared of rejection. The latter Is especially dumb because they did the approach so I just shot myself in the foot because of my risk-averse nature. So stupid.
Pray for the growth from recon soon. I can’t drop WB now, we’re all in on this shit.



