WB recon, the type of recon that is working on becoming “the desired one”, forced me into deeper introspection with regards to why I am triggered to run KHAN sometimes:
The pattern usually went like this and in this order:
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I run WB for more than 90 seconds.
Women whom I don’t find attractive start sending signs of interest. -
Then WB recon hits.
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That recon manifests the type of women I find really hot.
However, unlike the women who are attracted and whom I don’t find attractive, these hot women are not attracted and I manifest “anti-results” experiences by being “invisible” to these hot women. -
These experiences trigger the same feelings that equal the WB recon, which is how I know that these “manifestations of the opposite” are the mirror reflection of my recon in the outer world.
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As a coping mechanism and not wanting to accept the experience, my coping mind comes up with the idea of running KHAN instead.
Reason:
KHAN through its dominance gives me a feeling of being in power over the situation and the feeling of “being in control” over these hot women’s attraction towards me.
Which means that the idea to run KHAN, only comes to my mind as a coping for not getting enough female attention from WB.
This made me aware that this reason to run KHAN is not a real reason but a “lack based” reason, a desperation move and a neediness choice.
I run KHAN because I feel not in control of the manifestation and outcome and by feeling dominant, there is the belief that dominance will solve situation this “by force”.
My coping mind feels more safe while in KHAN’s dominance mode because I feel like “I am in power for gathering the desired attention by force, by going after what I want”.
I was lying to myself.
I was running KHAN here and there for the wrong reasons and as a cope for WB’s deep working recon process.
Lesson learned:
I need to run much more Love Bomb instead of KHAN because it is my need for attention that is the real issue and that I need to work on in order to bring WB to next level. Self Worth and deserving levels are the main foundation for becoming WANTED.
KHAN Total Breakdown helps a little bit with that but is not really as effective as Love Bomb.
KHAN Total Breakdown seems to remove general obstacles and clear the road, but it is the increase in deservingness levels from Love Bomb that actually allows me to move forward along the cleared road. Again, this must be the letting go and self-forgiveness scripting of Love Bomb.