The story of a wanted man, gz 
You are not a male model, arenāt you?
Lol no I work in a warehouse
That is not unusual place for hard working male model 
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Time to become a yoga teacher
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A couple of notes I want to make on this night for my future self:
ā¢ this girl seemed terrified of me losing interest and fading into the night and practically begged me to go to the bathroom with her or to the drink stall and would check over and over when she was in line to see if I was really waiting on her
ā¢ Iām not a raver and I see no future in myself going to another of these events. 
ā¢ the feeling of the amount of attention I was getting was nearly overwhelming. Mostly because thatās not my environment. Edit addition: and I have limiting blocks Iām discovering towards women with boyfriends/fiances/husbands giving me IOIās as I have no desire to take whatās not mine or fight for what a man is fearful of losing of his, without actual need.
ā¢ this event with her popped a bubble that I didnāt know I had towards āsocial media celebritiesā, one of distance. Not so much of a star-struck vibe but moreā¦āI donāt meet those kind of peopleā. Looking at her in real life and then on TikTok eased something. I think this reflects an objective of WB? Maybe Iām thinking of the newer Q-Store Inner Circle-like module, though 
ā¢ and certain reminders that I still have certain blockages in allowing myself to consider myself desirable and to be sought after by women without that throat constricting, hard thumping sense of this isnāt right. Not sure if anyone else can relate to that?
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Sounds like that wonāt be around for long if you keep having those experiences.
What isnāt right? Can you elaborate? Is it a feeling of guilt or shame or something like that?
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Thatās an excellent question and it is a part of my current self-examination.
I suspect it stems from a sheltered, restricted childhood being raised by the family that adopted me and being shamed especially by the mother and by extension the rest of the family (12 kids total, very much like the movie cheaper by the dozen in fact) to the point that I felt the need to hide my attraction to girls and play off and pretend that I didnāt notice girls affection and attraction to me.
In fact, typing that out, Iām quite sure thatās what it is.
Edit: part of the reason Iāve had the mockingbird as my profile picture for a couple of months now is that even though Iāve made a lot of progress in my own perception with women, I realized I was still allowing myself to be led on a ātrackā created unconsciously based off of what others said was okay and was not okay in romantic/intimate considerations.
My parents and I went up to their god parents house in Hemet back in June, shortly after I moved back to California.
I began noticing this bird which it seemed like EVERY time I went outside, he/she would make an appearance in the front of the yard and begin singing like nobodyās business.
Dude was gorgeous, so I looked up the bird. Found out about the Northern Mockingbird and on intuition decided to research into the āspiritual meaningā of it.
Everything about it resonated! One of the major things I noted that definitely applied to me said something to the affect of:
"When this bird shows up in your life with increasing frequency, it is a sign for you to express more of your own individuality in matters of love. Too long have you allowed others to dictate your affairs in this area. Itās time for you to sing your own love song."
Definitely more my take on it, this was months ago lol.
As a side note and honoring the āSageā in my name, me and that bird quickly developed a friendship. I used to go outside to smoke a cigarette and listen āwithinā, and allow a tune to well up and I would whistle it merrily and loudly. Almost unfailingly, within seconds or even a minute, I would see my guy flying over to our telephone pole or tree and we would begin talking to each other.
Kinda similar to how Gandalf from the Lord of the Rings would whistle for Shadowfax and he would come aārunninā.
It got to the point where I started ātalkingā to him in my heart.
Even my mom started noticing it and pointed it out to my dad. The bird didnāt respond to anyone else.
Edit: Wanted Black coming out was more serendipitous than I realized even at the time.
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I know what you mean, i lost too many chances with girls i liked because of this.
Thats why i run primal as part of my stack and switch it with a custom with primal in it and run it with WB
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After some weird recon Wanted Black seems to integrate a little bit more for me. This is certainly a title I have have to take my time with as there are a lot of changes that need to happen for me to become the āWanted Manāā¦ this morning I looked smoking hot and my eyes had a certain kind of āglanceā to them.
Just Genesis and Wanted combined.
A friend told me heād love to give me some of his poloās because they do not fit for him and itās from a luxurious brand so there is some clothing manifestations involved here.
Last time in combination with Void of Creation it literally pulled clothes out of thin air, some of the most odd and unexpected locationsā¦ such as my grand fathers forgotten ward robe, clothes he wore like 40 years ago and looked very vintage on me.
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Interesting.
Hereās the WB custom I had drafted out two weeks or so ago but realized I had to save money at the time:
Wanted Black Core
Primal Core
Attachment Destroyer
Sensuality and Handsomeness Improver
Focused Arousal
Gorgeous Manifestor
Hegemon
Kingās Radiance
Edge of Falling
Subconscious Flow
Safety Net
You Are Not Alone
I may go ahead and just get it today. We shall see!
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No, this was a long time ago I was running the regular Wanted program and I had a custom with Void of Creation on the side.
Void of Creation is a crazy manifestation module that seems to really manifest things out of thin air, like who even knew that clothing was still in the wardrobe of my grandfather, and what even inspired them to check it out and then gift it to me.
The Void knew, the Void knows all, the Void is Infinite!
So if there is anything you want and desire, Iām sure if you have Void of Creation it will manifest in truly magnificent ways.
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A friend gave me a really nice T-shirt the other day as well, on a whim. Wanted Black definitely brings these kinds of things!
Edit: to add flesh to it, one of my neighbors in my parents apartments had invited me to hang out. His roommate came home with a gang of brand new shirts.
He asked me which one I liked the most, and after some consideration, I selected one. Without hesitation, he was look, āCool, here you go bro.ā
Which reminds me, I could use some self-work on actually receiving gifts from people without feeling guilty or feeling like thereās a trap somewhere.
I took the shirt after a bit of obligatory half-hearted protests.
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Have you considered adding Pride Unbroken? It sounds like from your last post your upbringing was a huge contributor to your current issue. It might help.
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Iāll check her out right now, good timing. I was skimming the Q-store to see what I might be missing in this draft here.
I do have Attachment Destroyer in my list. Perhaps the addition would have merit.
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May be you need to open your heart more because it is a gesture of love, and to accept that love easily you must allow yourself to be loved by others.
If someone hands you something you can just exchange appreciation, but you must feel it and therefore your heart must be open so you can extend your gratitude and appreciation to them and connect in that way.
What can yāall report about WB in the work place/working on goals. Any hinderance in motivation/distractions?
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Not really. Which for me is a big difference compared til the old Wanted, where I would be a bit detached.
WB just makes me more popular and charismatic.
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Good to hear that! Wanted OG had a tendency to shift my priorities towards partying and women pretty hard. More looking for the social benefits/shifting as well.