They think your James Bond loll
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Thinking about dropping WB. Just donāt feel good enough, canāt fulfill its expectations. Feeling pretty miserable right now actually, as though Iām going to basically die alone. I just donāt understand.
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Please donāt stop Wanted Black. That feeling will subside. Self love brother.
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Stay strong mate. Sounds like recon
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It may not fade. If heās getting the subconscious nudge to stop, that could be Zero Point doing its job.
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There is ācare scriptingā in all the STKS titles that does just this. Indicates to you when to slow down and take a breather. Sometimes, it may not even be the title that causes the overwhelm. For me, dealing with this recent drama and getting behind triggered the care scripting to take a break from KB.
@Trader is right ā @bombayduck, if you feel overwhelmed, take a breather. Your health is more important than anything else.
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Reconciliation my man.
If itās getting that intense, itās fine to give it a couple of days to process as well as lowering the amount you are listening to.
And remember, this is an artisanal title. Thereās no shame in having it be intense to run - thatās the point.
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Iāve ran wanted for almost a year on full loops and still got MASSIVE recon on WB.
So yea, stuff is strong. Iāve reduced it down to 1xweekly 30 seconds
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No youāre not.
Iām literally not letting you. I know how you feel, I got that recon on LBFH or my custom, probably the former and which is why I felt the exact same way you did on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday this week but youāre not gonna allow that to stop you running WB.
Do you know why? āCause you are worth it. Youāre literally not going to die alone. Youāre strong af and youāre killing it with WB. Youāve literally be telling me your results and how good and crazy WB is for you, how you love it and itās working for you and Iām so proud of the work youāve been doing it. If thereās a poster boy for WB right now, itās you - even through the recon youāre feeling.
Iām actually glad you posted this because youāre not just showing us the highlights, youāre showing us the temporary spirals we have when recon hits too.
Iām so proud of you brother.
Edit: I wanna clarify that you can continue to run a sub and still take more rest days/a breather. I just want to motivate @bombayduck to keep running it, because I know itās doing amazing work for him.
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I sometimes catching myself missing Wanted OGZP we tested. But I realize what I miss most is the consistency that came with testing.
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It was a fucking lie, I was delusional. Iām just living in this autistic surreality, thinking things are improving when they really arenāt. Misreading cues, vibes, signals for something theyāre not, all that shit feels like it was in my head all along. None of it was real, it was all in my head.
I have never felt more sad, pathetic, or a waste of a person in the last 2 years than I do today, right now. You say Iām literally not going to die alone but I donāt know how I could possibly date in a culture thatās so fucking artificial. Everyone and everything feels so artificial and it just feels like I have to just shut up and just be like everyone else, spend so much time and energy to create a profile just to play the lottery and hope you get a half decent girl after get swiped left on 1000 fucking times. Run around the street begging for a woman to talk to you just to get rejected after trying 100 fucking times. Meet someone you actually connect with, can speak to, are attracted to, only for her to be with someone else. You wake up, go to work, fuck off home, rinse & repeat.
Iāve worked my ass off for the last 2 years and what do I have to show for it? All this superficial bullshit? All I want and ever wanted was human connection, and Iām still where I was, where I always have been.
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No, youāve made progress yet you need more patience and work to get where you desire to be. I experience something similar periodically but in lesser intensity. Patienceā¦ determination. Life is not a battle, itās a campaign.
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All you can be is just you
Cause youāre real, not the plastic type
But reality sets in this dark and this plastic life
Why the tears? weāre all here for you
But I know how you feel
I know how you feel and I do care
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Meditate let it all go. Iāve read all youāve done. Youāre a good catch. There IS a partner for you out there.
Youāre actually helping me. I can relate to your frustration. But Iāve trained myself to be unreasonably optimistic- knowing that time and time again throughout history, it can accomplish what nothing else can. Dream + Persist. Mountains wear away.
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There are single women out there who arenāt superficial and who view the dating culture the same way as you.
They listen to TOOL and shit, hahaha I see you.
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You want to open up social pathways with enriching people. Youāll find yourself in social circles where absolutely nothing is superficial. Different wavelength of socializing and different wavelength of people.
Next thing you know, youāre surrounded by high quality options that are all interested in you.
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Another thing is that youāve been working with sexual energies and got sleep problems. Your energy level was heightened for some time, but your system couldnāt keep it so high for a longer period of time. Now itās really low. You need to recharge your batteries and elevate your mood. Thatās natural.
AND
Donāt you dare to be so unjust to the guy (yourself) who have done all that hard work, mate.
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@bombayduck Are you using online dating apps? That shit is vile man. Itās designed to cause the exact reaction youāre having now in order to get people to keep playing the slot game.
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There are impossible things, maybe. But nothing is more natural than the yearning of communion between humans. We often find what weāre looking for, when weāve done all we can and then just drop itā¦
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I know there are, I just feel like I wonāt ever meet them.
Iām trying, I have been for so long and it just feels like Iām spinning my tires. It feels like nothing will ever happen.
Yeah youāre 100% right, I feel so exhausted right now. Just logically speaking, itās unsustainable.
I just feel like itās all been for nothing.
See, thatās the worst part: I have never used an online dating app in my entire life. I just donāt see any other option for me when it comes to dating, especially in my age group (Iām 28). It feels like Iām being forced down a path I donāt want to go on, because Iām just tired of being alone.
I feel like my go-to sub when on recon is Heartsong (which Iāve never ran before), Iām wondering if I should just drop WB for HS. Or maybe I should just tough it out and see how things go, I donāt know.
All I know is that today has been quite possibly the worst Iāve felt in years, since the absolute lowest low of my life during February 2021. I just feel an extreme doomer vibe at the moment.
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