I have no idea. I’ve loved it the whole time.
I think that I first started trying to meditate when I was 12 or 13. There was this book that I borrowed from my aunt’s house. Wow, it just occurred to me that I could go find it online. It was this:
The kind of thing that floated around in the 70s and 80s. She had a great many books in the basement, and at some point I encountered that one. Well, I borrowed that, took it home, and tried it. I can’t remember if I tried anything before that. But actually, long before that when I was a wee lad at church, I had come to the conclusion that the prophets were the ones in the Old Testament who I wanted to be like. They were described as being able to ‘talk with God’, and I remember being a small kid thinking, ‘what could be more important than that?’ hahaha. But the details on how they’d managed to accomplish that were always left extremely vague.
So by the time I came across that book, I thought, ‘Maybe this is how they did it! These seem to be practical instructions!’ And that began a few decades of mostly running into a variety of attractive brick walls.
There have been a number of consciousness-shifting moments along the way. Especially between about 26 and 32 or so. I never was a skilled meditation adept, but nonetheless, learning happens…
Maybe one of the most important things I learned, or seemed to learn anyway, was that perception is an attribute of consciousness, not of the world, and miraculousness is omnipresent. Independent of my perception of it. Kind of similar to the movement of the Earth. Whether I happen to notice it or not has more to do with my current state than with the Earth’s.
For me, at least, the path stopped seeming like a contest or an ‘achievement activity’. Although sometimes it still does. Hey. I’m a primate. What do you want?
This is all a long story to say that I think there was a lot of water under the bridge before I ever played these subliminals. I expect it’s not so different for you.
51 now. Nearly 40 years since I first tried formal meditation. With a candle to boot. Just like on the cover photo. haha.
So, I’ve been playing this custom for 14 months now, and it’s been really nice.
The process of unfolding continues, and I’m deeply grateful to have such wonderful resources to facilitate the process.
I understand that, mind being what it is, radical shifts, reorganizations, insights, etc., can happen that will bust me down once again. But I’m just aiming to trust the process, and experience the journey.
So far, it’s been quite gentle.
But I was just noting that, in some ways, I feel like I’m just beginning.
I’ve actually been dealing with what I think is emotional reconciliation in the past week. But my recon always seems like it could have happened anyway. Even without the subs. 
So I usually try to pay attention to try to parse what’s going on.
Short question, long answer.
Next time, if you ask a long question, maybe I’ll give a short answer?
Thanks for asking.
) becomes unappealing. Similar to how money titles take a different toll when stacked with RoS. This title urges to contemplate on the nature of the spirit which requires deep introspection into the nature of things. Sex for the sake of orgasm, or seduction for the sake of getting numbers and trophy counts is a rather shallow endeavor.