I’m questioning this since…I’m in some honest low-key recon. Like my mind is fighting itself. Specifically, I read something last night and wonder if this is truly happening with me.
Maybe it was in this thread. But someone (@Trader?) said that sometimes we’ll be on a sub and a desire will show itself. And we’ll know another sub here would build on that directly. So, we’ll quickly say “I should add that sub on now”.
What was proposed was that the existing subliminal we’re on is working on those exact same issues, though that doesn’t appear obvious. I’m running TB, and love seems like the least likely avenue it’d move into.
FACTS:
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I’ve been on TB and TWTP, 3 minutes each. Starting St.2 next cycle since I’m going to hit all 4 stages for single cycles before digging in with a single stage for multiple cycles.
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A major lack in my life has been romantic or even plutonic relationships with women, close ones. Clearing major roadblocks like this was a major reason for starting Khan. I’ve kept everyone away to keep myself “safe”.
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I’ve been easily pushing self-care and self-love out of the way this cycle. For some reason, I’ve been afraid of it. —I think it’s because I’ll feel my vulnerability on it, and since I’m using Khan I think “We don’t have time for THAT!”…or maybe, I just feared being rejected if I was vulnerable with others—yep.
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Loving myself challenges some major beliefs I’ve held on to. Old childhood stuff like “it was my fault they didn’t love me”. Stuff like that.
So, is TB working on those areas which I’ve been…protecting?
Possibly.