This topic was on my mind too for the last days.
If you want to build a skyscraper in a swamp, you have to dry it out first and fill it up with proper materials before you try to lay a concrete foundation into it.
Take somebody like me for example, massive insecurities, sexual/financial trauma/ fears, shame, guilt etc., basically starting at -100.
Let´s say building a high level social circle or a business is at level 80+, there is no way somebody like that can bridge this gap by just running an alpha title for 3 months.
Running anything but healing titles as a start doesn´t make any sense for somebody like that.
Emperor went somewhat well in the start, but I´d avoid facing my actual trauma and self sabotage, leading to crashing whenever I grew to strong (usually every 1.5-2 months), went back to porn and spend some time total despair…
Crash again.
Repeat.
No matter what I did, I wasn´t able to push beyond a certain ceiling.
Inside my paradigm I took massive action, had personal successes, but every attempt to actually move out of the box, really make a dent in my life, was followed by severe self sabotage.
The 6 months on it weren´t a complete waste, but I´d have rather spend them on something like Total Breakdown, the difference in ROI is gigantic.
Should I move on, should I stay on TB for more cycles, maybe even up to a year?
Do I avoid going out, taking action, and making actual progress by staying in the “comfort” of the healing subs, using them as an excuse to not go into action mode?
Absolutely, and for me it´s one of the indicators that I´m approaching or even already reached the treshhold where it´s time to move on to Total Reprogramming.
On the other hand, the objectives of becoming a Khan were so much out of my old paradigm that I wanted to spend as much time as possible with healing so I´d ideally not have to go back to stage one at all, but move through the rest with blazing fiery action, unlike the introspective/watery approach that I felt necessary in stage 1.
Without a certain level of awareness it´s often not possible to see beyond your current wealth, sex, status etc. ceiling.
Then you have somebody like Luther or Invictus who do a loop or two of TB, realize they don´t need it, move on to the other stages and are absolutely killing it.
I guess a good indicator would be how you feel about it when you´re completely out of recon.
Especially the new descriptions are top notch in that regards, exerting compelling concepts that had me fantasizing about my ex stripping in my bedroom, asking for another chance with me, while I didn´t even really gave a shit.
How do you feel about the next stage and it´s objectives, do they feel compelling, exciting, at your finger tips? Or do you struggle imagining yourself embodying these traits at all?
Just like taking action, self understanding, - assessment and intuition are skills that we have to develope and harness ourselves, the subs can only nudge us in the right directions.
Food for thought.
