Meow meow fear me mortal 
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Almost finished my first week of listening and some things to report
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Iām becoming a better speaker or at least my verbal fluency is improving . I have certain wit that I can describe as a very absurd but at the same time blunt
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Recon has hit already and makes me feel like not listening to emperor for another couple of cycles was a mistake because of all the benefits it has . (Random side note : I did notice that the romance scripting did manifest itself differently where I would attract women who really needed masculine energy in their lives whereas when I previously rushed to khan stage 4 I noticed that I got large indicators of interest from girls that were my type more specifically girls who have really high standards for men but at the same time donāt really like them)
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The desire to take action has grown and even though itās not perfect Iāve carried on the idea of getting one percent better everyday .
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Realized that constantly seeking peopleās approval is making me weak on the inside and I need to cut it out
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Iāve become really aware of power dynamics and generally got irked when I remembered someone being disrespectful to me last week which at the moment didnāt really bother me
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More masculine aggression and disdain for a lot of social dynamic bs
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Reflecting a lot on my teenage years and realizing that I never really had a problem from others my age yeah people called me annoying and weird from time to time but I think after awhile I didnāt really care . The big nugget did come from feeling like I was powerless in my own home and not being able to have outlets like other teens did . So Iām a certain way I feel like I am trapped in that time period of my life . Even though Iām older .
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started to want to pray more
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Hehe, same over here. Even if it doesnāt heal everything itāll definetly turn around the direction and ceiling of our life and growth for goodšŖ
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Definitely more recon than new emperor and I am battling switching back . Thatās the one thing about khan is that the recon makes me want to switch to emperor but thanks to previous cycles of emperor it doesnāt really over power me like it did last time . Getting horny af tho
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@TheProdigyofWagdou For myself, I noticed some key differences on the initial stage of the new Khan than with my cycles of the new Emperor. Emperor is a powerful guiding hand, intuition enhancer, relationship smoother, a tool of acquiring, consolidating and arranging power in the many forms it exists. Everyone seems to love me on Emperor, but on Khan things hahaha get shaky for me. I see offense and tension everywhere and it beckons the question of is my ego really as solid and bulletproof as I want to believe it is?
Perhaps the recon around the irritation and anger is about being fortified within the ego, less the power gained is only fickle.
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i think ill be revisiting @simon journaling method for this run of khan and i think itāll do good for anyone running total breakdown . In my opinion i think sitting down and jotting down your fears in your life will really transform your ego .
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Thank you for pointing that out. Thatās important. I will start using that method as well.
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Personally they seem to just pop up. Fear of failure, especially with trading, I notice I have a lots of wave that comes up from time to time.
I write about then When I feel them.
I do believe exploring them is very helpful in trying to understand them.
P. S. I canāt wait to jump on st2 
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I definitely cant wait for stage 2
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I keep running Phoenix before even jumping on St1. Anyway, once on St1 Iām going to squeeze out all its juice like Iām doing with all my stack right now. Subliminal jumping is over to me. I would go for a kind of the Pareto principle at least.
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Well, I do not see offense and tension at the moment with new Khan. I do not know if it is due to NSE, or the fact I just finished four month cycle of all stages(last month switching to ne Khan St.4 from old one) or combination with Heartsong, but as introvert I am actually more open and talkative now and from reactions I see also more loveable.
But it might get different if I would go back to St1, that is also what I consider - if now to stay on St4 for a while or go back immediately to all 4 stages with new versions(I will do this sooner or later).
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I finished off my cycle of stage 4 with new Khan last cycle, 3 listening days total. It was a bit too intense so Iām now 3 listening days into ST1. So far very Zen like. Nothing seems to bother me. Got accused of being on meds yesterday at work.
So far no big emotional releases like on old ST1. Last night was first night of profound dreams.
Moral at work seems to be circling the drain due to some recent moves by senior mgmt. But Iām enjoying the drama. Also only a few days away from a 3 week vacation 
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Currently blending with ASBR and a touch of Primal as well.
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Iām now on the Khan St1 bandwagon againā¦ Iāve just had so much BS coming up lately, and a lot of blind-spots of past trauma still lingering. So my energy levels have been super low and my daily meditations has been a real struggleā¦ So either I have brain tumor or Iām just caught in a current of stuff coming up to my conscious mindā¦ Iām betting on the latter, so I have gone back to clearing again for a while nowā¦ Will probably do a cycle or two and will report back if I find something interestingā¦
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Good idea my man
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Two more runs then washout 
Iām tired but
I think my energy is flowing more
I have very good energy
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This sub is the equivalent of saying these edibles aināt shi then being hit right in the face . Iām on the verge of tears and overthinking about everything even social interactions .
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Now during the washout the recon is even stronger, feeling depressed, tired and stuck
Strong desire to evolve, move to the next level
Next week starting stage 2
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Selfishly, it is good to know that I am not alone in this struggle.
Stay strong, kings and queens.
What a stronk sub!
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Consider running Stage 1 solo for a good few months. Khan is so dense that even as an advanced user, I doubt youād get the most out of one cycle per stage.
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