Hah… I have this exact thing happening last couple of weeks, but only on GLM (added wanted just recently.) Like my intuition tells me straight away what it is and also links it to past events and happenings for me to understand my past patterns.
Were you also like a chameleon when you were younger? I had that I never attached fully to any group but came and went in several groups. But as soon as it became too real… I just ejected…
This has continued to this day to the point that I actually had my civil registration temporary removed and got labelled as missing. But during GLM lately I saw it so clearly that my abandonment tendencies that had me never attach or feel part of groups, was also why I finally had unconsciously society reject me (not actually, but in being a number in the system kind of way…)
Then finally the confusion of being outside, and also having been living rurally over the last couple of years… this hurt part of me inside used this confusion as a reason to stay stuck. As soon as I was around too many people I got dizzy all the time… this has almost completely gone now…
Very interesting to read about your experience in your post, thank you
EDIT: Yeah also, after this recent release and awareness… I have been starting to have an influx of past memories flashing at times before my eyes. It feels kind of what people that has near death experiences report, but it’s not in order but random times of my life.
Also sadness is accompanied with these flashes… my thought pattern here is that it’s the hurt inner part that is shown this (most likely memories that it feels sad it had to be that way because of this part being hurt, like some kind of regret ) to process it and let go of it.